沉默的魔術師

梗係愛你啦

2009-08-09T01:23:00.003+08:00

葉倩文，晚風；梅艷芳，似水流年；剎那間閃過的「近磅」廣東歌都是滄海遺珠，到底是我懶還是接收不良與時代脫節？強制回顧得出囍帖街、愛與誠、好心分手，我認為問題應該不在我。多謝WEB 2.0和網民大方分享30多年前的MV，我看到LOVING YOU的精髓。「愛你，很簡單，因為你美麗；與你做愛，是我最想做的事……」當今樂壇誰夠薑唱出口？MV中她穿上純潔象徵的WHITE ONE PIECE，給泳兒還是王苑之穿一樣出事，更別說有誰能夠在4分鐘內維持一個發自內心的含情脈脈樣，說服我「每一次和你……WOO，我又更愛你了」會發生在花邊新聞多過新歌的港產藝人身上。如果張繼聰能寫出一首如此愛感動天之作給謝安琪，她能嗎？I WISH！論認真熱情專業與及表演能力，她的確比虛火谷出來的一姐們高出一條2400pt.的線，但仍需努力。

MINNIE RIPERTON 31歲乳癌離世，由丈夫RUDOLPH RICHARD寫下的LOVING YOU薪火相傳替她活下去，救活萬千廣告雜錦CD婚喪喜慶。設下一個黃金標準，示範繞樑三十載的要求。

晚風
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSNBkjflqtw
似水流年
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0ua2E0atkM
LOVING YOU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kE0pwJ5PMDg

反正要影，不如行近0的

2009-07-03T00:48:00.003+08:00

海枯面爛

人蠢真是冇藥醫：讀到米高積遜唱片賣斷市的報導，我腦裏全是問號。聽聞「仆王」駕崩而急步跑去影音店淘寶的，是些什麼人？他生前的總銷量，數字單位的零不是多到教人無所適從，翻譯成中文不知道應該是萬萬還是億萬嗎？怎麼還有數不清的「忠心粉絲」，在這個時候才如夢初醒急起直追，企圖找尋過氣《驚慄》的刺激？昨天還是無人問津的減價貨，今天忽然回復正價，精打細算的消費者一點也不心痛？
名氣的魔力無遠弗屆啊，羊群聽到隔籬震耳欲聾的哭喪聲，家裏明明沒有死人，都要出盡法寶搵山拜。不排除有自幼戀上未發育男音的顧曲周郎和周大嬸，數十年如一日傾慕做不成美女做野獸的巨星，目睹整容實驗場淪為廢墟，仍然勇敢愛到海枯面爛，但不甘寂寞的趁熱鬧者，總佔了可觀的比例吧？人喊佢又喊，難怪眼淚越來越不值錢，揸這隻股票作為長線投資的拋售都來不及，以免矜貴的藍籌仙都唔仙──用英語說， it's a sin！
法國電視的時事節目，一位打電話傾訴衷情的觀眾說了兩句就泣不成聲，不知道為什麼只令我想起「貓哭老鼠」。白宮不肯發出正式哀悼，非常合情合理，反而那個有色人種領袖把他捧為黑人先知，聽了教人無名火起。老友，他窮下半生精力從事的，正是將自己變白呀，信奉了「一白遮三醜」這種落伍的教條，還否認透過人工脫黑，膽博膽騙人說患了皮膚病，你忘得一乾二淨了嗎？（邁克）
轉載自《蘋果日報》副刊
http://hk.apple.nextmedia.com/template/apple_sub/art_main.php?iss_id=20090702&sec_id=12187389&art_id=12940527

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(下省一萬行)

如要小弟以一句總結他的一生：「難為正邪定分界」。

一個歌手唱出一個時代的神話，在地球的引力下踏出嫻熟的月步，將吊腳褲閃鑽手套變成無性別時尚……的確很了不起，但未算最難。以一把亦雌亦雄的聲音掃去黑白膚色的界線，順便創下迄今最高唱片銷量紀錄；充滿音樂感的肢體擺動讓MTV在80年代平地一聲雷，將音樂的想像視覺化，亦替YOUTUBE在Y-GENERATION打好視覺主導的基礎。最後歌舞合一，將舞台的維度無限伸延，啟發JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE、BRITNEY SPARE、USHER、MARIAH CAREY等當今號令樂壇的後輩創造現場表演的絕活，這才是一代歌王，你深知小弟說的是誰。不以歌神相稱，因為他是凡人，所以他在乎自己的膚色眼柜鼻形地理。同為凡人的你和我，要以愛相贈先問自己能否承受他愛男或女或老或嫩，因為事實如此，他在射燈下全程投入狂飈高音自摸私處令你盡情尖叫時，都是真性情演出。人理所當然不完美，但如部份不完美成全另一部份的完美，總算不枉過。MICHAEL JACKSON今日終能與歐楊峰和JOKER聚頭，在極樂狂人谷裡繼續風流。
轉載自《MiLK 新潮流》

唉，上面並無隱藏文字，希望你沒費神去select&highlighted一番，這一段留白，是寡人表明不自量擅拿邁克的文章來比較的一個距離，一萬幾十行的point 13，只是隨意的。同一個選題，不止在文筆思維等高下立見，當中誰做到robert capa所說站得近影得妙(原文 if your picture isn't good enough, you are not close enough)，寫出web 2.0下journalist的身價 ---- 個人體驗。純理科生不單用字古板，凡事忽略感性，lab coat穿在護士和科技家身上那個與性感有緣？嘿嘿。

給畢明的留言

2009-07-02T03:33:00.001+08:00

你果然是隻愛刨字的夜鬼，這個時間出post。其實我很想問你今日有否去遊行，我剛剛看過變形金剛，和男朋友鬧了一場比金剛互揪更賞心悅目的交，之後翻看你在《明周》的賽後報告，發現我和他的觀點你早就寫好，發覺這場仗和戲中cg一樣華麗和無謂。那我留言的動機就更明顯，是一條粉絲試圖投幣亂入偶像的世界，絕非要興波作浪，力度最好與朝偉在《英雄》的鏡湖中借力相若就好。

小弟具備尋常人慕名想認識你的原因，文筆所限太有信心將心聲寫成奉承，不贅。由於出過事，所以我「主將」與偶像保持距離，發現這一套頗work，起碼和王菲這十多年相安無事。

問題是這個blog。自收看後我開始變，變得擅妒，說不出因由。如我妒忌師妹求學時報到你(0既)堂同你打波仲要用密碼公然通信；又或者同樣鍾意睇人執網球拍廝殺，我竟然錯過嘉芙同老公使玉女素心劍，單打果場又missed，而你以很「嘉芙」的文筆講到眉飛色舞……X！雖然我是gay，但男子氣慨不缺，只是送出留言時還真忐忑，更妒嫉你有破地獄的勇氣，又想起你對斷背山最刻骨的陳詞，我覺得找到在這裡上街的理由 — 出街小心點，給我認出你的話，我一定會用歌迷在機場接SS501的熱情度來招呼你，讓你知道粉絲的味道！

多得你，我今日傻(0左)啦。

東地金剛

2009-07-02T02:09:00.003+08:00

八卦雜誌究竟是否「好野」？如果不是怎樣解釋《忽周》最賣書？銷量冠軍的必殺技你和我都很清楚，先放在旁邊備用。

話說今日遊行時極為悶熱，發熱、口乾、精神恍惚等中暑症狀，完場時進入置地起陸續浮現，不過心情仍處於興奮狀態，故進場看《變形金剛II》時，在沒期望的消極前題下還閃過幾下曙光。只可惜蝙蝠俠只是一個異數，爭氣的第二代與父母官一樣難求。

含糊的劇情是理所當然(點解呢？特技片有個好劇本是否違法？快點通緝《絕世天劫》的台前幕後啦……其實你能否數出另一個近代的通緝犯？唉……)，製片的深明祖宗發財原因，所以大至金字塔、航空母艦、潛艇、細至圖書館、宿舍、屋企……有理無理：「炸！」。法老皇你抵諗，幫手食「搶毀滅太陽武器陪葬」的死貓，讓400億軍費預算合理化。既然大家愛看大黃蜂跳舞，編劇的當然出盡力營造類似笑料來餵觀眾。第一集讓人叫好的都集齊，你沒有額外要求的話，放心看好戲吧，這一集比諸更譁眾取寵，世界警察美國在經濟衰到貼地時依舊會保衛地球！

雖然金剛的AI很低，之間的打鬥依舊很迷，FORMULA很老套，整套電影可以用愚民來形容。然而，香港電影代理非常放心，因為港人每次鬧《東地》煲水和擾人時，手袋內通常都有本。

溫水蛙

2009-06-28T23:41:00.008+08:00

究竟住在那一方的人較慘？分別是人地見到自己既意見被忽略時會爭取到底，要求政府面對現實。而我地面對那個擺明侮辱市民的特首選舉時，唯一爭取的途徑是上街。

唔駛用劍既

2009-06-01T15:10:00.006+08:00

沾叔呀沾叔，一年總有幾次湧起「你真係好燃好燃勁呀」，現在昇華至「你點解可以咁燃咁燃勁」。

現代人掛住人時SMS「MISS U呀!」，那個年代係唱《晚風》。LOOP左5個鐘，明白甚麼叫耳猶未盡繞樑三日。《700日後》的詞窩心醉人《喜帖街》淒淒戚戚，你估30年後你還記得一句半句琢磨成文的詞嘛？沾叔用字小學生都寫得出，一首歌離不開「愛」「風」「夢」，這個老套到阿婆都唔受的組合，沾叔駕輕就熟揮灑自如，寫得暇想無限，一如獨孤求敗40歲後封劍用折枝一樣打遍天下。這就是GOOD OLD DAYS。多謝沾叔。

作曲：黃霑填詞：黃霑編曲：陳志遠
晚風中有你我的夢
風中借來一點時間緊緊擁
擁的那個夢
像一陣風，像一陣風
猶有愛在風中輕輕送
我心的愛是否你心的夢
可否借一條橋讓我倆相通
在這借來的橋中
明天的我，明天的你
會不會再像那天相擁
今晚的風和明天的夢
到底在你心裏有多少影蹤
可否這個晚上
借來時間，借來晚風
把我的愛送到你心中

600日之變，真撞鬼

2009-05-29T17:49:00.004+08:00

嘩，原來2年前自己是這樣子寫文，真的大開眼界！果種既直接又有0的無野扮有野既文筆依家真係寫唔返，當時點樣無師自通既呢？點算……哎呀，多想可以wind back the clock。

依家寫文好商業，冒犯講句，就係偶像孫燕姿一出道同依家既分別 — 以前幼嫩大膽純真直率無憂無慮，現在世故計算老成兜圈小心奕奕，先跳過看官的感受，單是寫*ok，literally應該用「打」，明白*的話我肯定以前可以減壓依家只會加壓。好似一打字就為錢而打，真罪過，究竟北京之行是好是壞？好像暗示著工作上的突破是以某種代價來換取，當初以為此行既學懂珍惜家人朋友又提昇工作技能，有好無壞添，依家回望又好像另一回事。其實我真的愛死文字這個遊戲，這幾年看書越來越多，理應視野更闊文筆更俊用詞更精，但最關鍵的是往往寫不出心聲來。哎呀……好煩，你估寫blog會唔會幫到手呢？即管假設會啦，有希望總是好的。

在此宣佈這個site將會不日重新開張，多多指教，多多捧場。

我投降

2007-11-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

唔知你覺得今日個沙律點呢？多左蝦係咪好食的？我覺得的蝦粉粉地，的青蘋果唔夠爽。係啦，你都唔buy青蘋果既，見你係咁落沙律醬，即係覺得一般。

咁究竟你覺得綠茶雪糕同個朱古力火鍋夾的，抑或係你根本鍾意食綠茶味雪糕先？的雪糕我買既，就梗係全部都鍾意食啦，尤其唔係成日有得食ben & jerry，佢隻cinnamon bun好正，而mint chocolate crunch入面有我去多倫多搵大嫂大佬既回憶。你乃保守派系中先入為主主義擁護者，睇你都唔會再恨去食ben & jerry啦。

今晚悶死你未呀？無講多過20個字呀。我知係我衰，你轉更都要你山長水遠一出一入咁搭2個鐘車，食餐一塌糊塗既私房菜，成檯人最熟怕且係luc仔陰公。但我想話你知，今晚同檯食飯既人，對我來講係生命中最重要的其中一班人，入面當然要有你啦。趁我去北京之前有時間，希望一次過見到我最想見既人，為你地準備能力範圍內的食物，好casual咁食下飯傾下計，快快樂樂咁過一晚。好多謝你無半句怨言咁黎左成全我，但無法令你融入其中去分享我的快樂，sorry。將我快樂建築係你痛苦之上。

往往我滿心期待能為你帶來快樂的活動，結果都無好結果，好似我既價值觀應用唔到你身上。好少男朋友會抗拒接觸我媽咪同融入我的圈子，更無幾人係我出盡法寶都逗唔到佢笑，好有挑戰性。我就黎要出動風火氣豬猴...定抑或凡事講清講楚，慳返假驚喜呢的花招仔呢？咁我整左成日係咪無謂既呢？我的心思備受嚴峻的考驗。

你話呢次拍拖同之前拍拖所做既事好唔同，其實係個投訴黎嫁？我後知後覺，對唔住。

可能對你黎講，今日的sweetest moment係陪你等車啦。

今天應該很高興

2007-11-12T00:27:00.001+08:00

其實令我最高興的，莫過於看到你急速進步。你看我這個老柴在幾十秒上掙扎，而你那以分鐘做單位的落差閃爍著活力和未來。我知你尚未甘心，所以講些酸溜溜的話，you know how good I am in reading you and how poor you are in lying sweetie.而這就是你進步的原動力了。

誠然我亦不夠坦白，除了無心插柳下締造新記錄的驚喜之外(無錯係42'44')，最令我感到興奮的原因其實是因為有你跟我一齊跑呀。

關唔關對鞋事呢？如果真有其事這對鞋的壽命就剩下十分九了，但能夠替我爭取一個優異的成績，這三百元還是值得，紐約之行的意義亦變大了，babe或者你亦應該拿出冒險精神來，試一試這對新鞋了。有我在你又何需每一刻都小心奕奕呢？

7年前我應該會拿著這對鞋打問號，問有甚麼必要強調它能頂到100公里，7年後我在每個10k比賽前打問號，嚴重認真地考慮其重要性是否需要用上這對西施…紅顏呀…

photo memories

2007-09-26T00:33:00.001+08:00

Always sweet and delicious

DOWNGRADE人文水平的SCIENCE

2007-09-03T05:04:00.001+08:00

《幽遠集》—『十七令』

香令人幽，酒令人遠；
石令人雋，琴令人寂；
茶令人爽，竹令人冷；
月令人孤，棋令人閑；
仗令人輕，水令人空；
雪令人曠，劍令人悲；
蒲團令人枯，美人令人憐；
僧令人淡，花令人韻；
金石鼎彝令人古。

撇除這首詩要配合聲韻而不出律，更令人佩服的是詩人對周遭事物的細膩感知，相對來說就顯得現代人相當粗枝大葉。用我僅有的普通話試讀一次，感覺好清雅，無相機的日子，人對自然的演繹反而更傳神更有內涵，令接收者有更深刻的感觸，這一片美景，我收到心底裡去了。

奸仔，你明白我講的所謂一張相的內涵未呀？無腦既靚仔係對唔到人世嫁﹗﹗內涵先係長遠的SELLING POINT。

一碟小姐 - 王馨的friend

2007-08-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

佢叫susan cagle，好唱得…唉

Ask me
You ask me if I love you and I turn away
You think that maybe nothing's there and things have changed
For me it's not that easy just to let words flow
I take for granted you can see inside my soul
And I know
It hurts you when I don't let it show
And I never wanna see you go
And I think you should know

When you ask me if I love you I'll tell you (I don't know)
When you ask me if I love you I'll say (I don't know)
'Cause you know I've learned my lesson I'm gonna keep you guessin' yeah
It's just the way a girl's got to play
At least for today

When we're talking down the street you try to hold my hand
You think that if I don't means you're not my man
When we're apart you think that we're not doing so well
Sometimes I need a night or tow just for myself
And your eyes
They search my face for some kind of sign
And I'll never make you wait in line
You gotta give it some time

When you ask me if I love ya I'll tell you (I don't know)
When you ask me if I love ya I'll say (I don't know)
'Cause you know that I've learned my lesson
I'm gonna keep you guessin' yeah
It's just the way a girl's got to play
At least for today

And it's not that you're not on my mind
All the time
I know you're desperate for some kind of sign
From me I know
And hear you say what are you waiting for

Transitional
And you called and I came and I covered for you
and you stood in the rain and I told you I'd help you
And we talked and we cried and I took some advice from you
and I basically got over him because of you

But all this time
Something wasn't right
You're not the one I knew

I was sure that we wouldn't fall apart
And I thought that we were much more than we are
'cause you told me that we were meant to be
thought that you loved me unconditional
guess that you and I were just transitional

There were times when I felt like you cared and I trusted you
and I chose to ignore what they said you'd eventually do
and I thought you would change if I showed I believed in you
and it's sad 'cause a part of me feels like you loved me too

But still you lied
You wasted my time
You're not the one I knew

I put it all into you
There's nothing more I could do
After all we've been through
You're gonna lose
Trust me you will regret it

Learning how to (butter)fly

2007-08-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

at the beginning of this summer I set mastering the butterfly stroke as target, but I had done nothing at all to make it...until tonight. Thanks Dan so much that you show me the possibility to make it. I will work hard in the fading summer time.

Things change, vary fast

2007-08-14T06:15:00.000+08:00

On the board

Aug
Tooth Filling
Body Check
Hiking with puppy
<<Boomsday>>
HKU facility card
any 3 chinese novels
7 laps within 45mins

Sept
Trip to Guam
Trip to LA The North Face headquarters visit
Trailwalker 2007 volunteer
<<Harry potter and the deathly hollows>>
any 3 chinese novels
7 laps within 44mins

Oct
Travel to NYC
any 3 chinese novels
7 laps within 43 mins

Nov
Trailwalker 2007 volunteer
Travel to Toronto
Nike 10K competition finishing time within 43mins

以忙代忘

2007-08-12T03:58:00.000+08:00

當有些東西想得手的慾望達至頂點但又負擔不來的時候，大家會如果處理？

我說服自己不來的話就會刪，頭頂的harddisk會問我「are you sure？」的。
其實講大話都要講恆心，誠意其次，天份不過是增加領悟速度。

終於有資格講《斷背山》的經典對白啦。

電腦語言css

2007-08-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

曾幾何時，我proud of自己的icq language是由一句句完整英文所組成，極其量夾雜一點slang，都好少用xxxx la…好，速效社會的潛移默化，我被instant messaging system的病毒感染而不斷將底線調低，夠膽將you don't know that易容成u dunno da ka la都未算最腐敗，msn icon才是最易令人誤入歧途的毒品。自一個個精緻到肉的icons誕生後，試過一個message來回幾十野都毋須打一粒字，都未算絕，有朋友將全套26個英文字母的閃鑠icons全部下載，閱讀她的訊息所花費的時間，足夠我搭車搵佢親口講一次過我知，再多幾個同類型的朋友，將會令我有月月驗眼的必要。

最大的問題，原來這個習慣正嚴重影響到我的工作表現。

終於我將收集多時的msn icons通通刪掉，再次發現文字的優美是不為怎樣繪形繪影的圖像所取締，我享受於trebuchet ms/myriad web pro condensed/futura lt/arial間遊離的苦惱，感覺就像戒掉了砌GUNDUM一樣(女仔就HELLO KITTY吧)。究竟我們的通訊方式還可以簡約到那個地步呢？真的很久沒有收過一封手寫的信件了。

Pussy dog

2007-08-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

So after my dad declared that we are the owner of the roof, we occupied it immediately and now there's fridge, washing machine, dining table, sunblock, plantings and puppy. Yeah I made it, finally I can keep a pet here, after having WW III with dad. So you know that the power being defeated would be forced to sign a lot of unfair contracts, i have made a dozen of promises to ensure that he could be completely hands off to this matter. That's how we have a new member of the family.

We are very sure that we want to adopt a dog, and we reli had a dog from spca, but this babe is so damn cat!! He sleeps all the time, he shows very limited interest to all the tricks u human has invented for puppy, he is not friendly nor intimate like the general doggies, yes he is not quite dog, and compare with the new generation cats, he is still very lofty (Cats today are less aggressive and protective don't you think?). Yet its interesting to have this arrogant creature at home, since technique is required to arouse his passion and people likes to take up challenge.

As expected, my parents treat him as grandson and dad even snapped at me that "Yes I am the one who misses him most if he leaves us", after heard of sending the puppy back to spca. So everything solved, welcome to our family 麻甩!

From top to bottom
1/his tiny foreleg, he master 'handhand' within 2 weeks, being clever is one of the reason why daddy loves him to death.
2/Ok now you might say he looks so depress and sweet, well i tell you what, that's what we though at the beginning and we always worried that he was not active too. Now he hangs on the face most of the time is a wicked one. As I claimed at the beginning, I see his naughty potential and there he's.om
3/Suckling dog version?
4/He didn't care that the pillow covered his whole body, sweet dream dear.
5/Don't be mislead, he lives completely well here. But I am not sure whether he enjoys it

征服港島西與南

2007-08-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

計落由sobe手上得到這部單車有3個月，實現了自力更生唔駛搭車返工的願望之餘，仲去了很多想去但未去過的地方，包括畢拉山、聶高信山、赤柱炮台(真羞家，話哂在這裡渡過13年，都竟然沒有這份好奇心。)、歌賦山…久違了的彩虹、山頂、清空維港…這闊別已久的一切，不期然讓我想起自己曾抓緊過的夢想。原地踏步的日子夠長了，沒有目標有再好的槍也不可能會命中，知道嗎？

還是會寂寞

由上至下
圖一/赤柱炮台望赤柱和馬坑夜景 03:14
圖二/扯旗山頂黃昏 19:07
圖三/簿扶林上空 18:28

生日快樂吧

2007-07-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

一直以來…一直由我認識你到呢一刻，都會好間唔時諗起你，密的話可能一日三次，未算好病態。不論何時何地，你都是我最想疼錫的男孩子，遺憾這是個相當一廂情願的想法。我常常為這段關係而困擾，無聊得自己幻想大家會走在一起。但以我倆那南轅北轍的喜好，當真走在一起你最終都會對我生厭吧，最好的結局，都只會打回原形變回你可有可無的陌生朋友。我想過做些事去迎合你，但越想越發覺根本對你了解甚淺，還不知憑甚麼話鍾意你。膚淺到要講你靚仔同感覺嗎？你令我最印象深刻的是個性獨立與及成熟世故的處事方式，簡單點就是跟同年紀的人與眾不同。對於這類型的男孩子，我份屬想得太遠的死0靚仔囉，26歲都唔化…無錯，對著你，我真的束手無策，猜不透你的思考模式，找不到攻略…結果讓自己在兩極之中掙扎，到最終就只有放棄的勇氣，連承受給你拒絕的量度都沒有，自己的疑惑已經磨蝕了信心。我無法將這段字寄給你的理由，是我找不到騷擾你的理由吧。相信每次見面時以物質收買你的手段已經令你非常厭倦，所以你的生日禮物已經被處理掉，就這一段字罷了。生日快樂，A.YEUNG。

低壓

2007-04-24T15:45:00.000+08:00

飛機無聲無息於機場上滯留一個小時，打亂了我的睡眠大計。以為一覺醒來可以看到久違的燈光璀璨，連飛機餐都可以跳過，到頭來飛機還未經過北京黑龍崗，已經眼光光的跳不回睡夢中。把玩遙控一輪，被金馬倫戴雅絲和祖狄羅留住；被琦溫斯莉趕到希拉莉絲韻和一班不同膚色的青年那裡。不過是5分鐘的時間，竟然看得我閣住一大泡淚，繼後的5分鐘，它要奪眶而出，我也無可奈何，也真的很久沒被這些突如其來的感受殺個措手不及。這些圍繞年青人的校園勵志片其實萬變不離其中，標榜真人故事改篇而成，增加故事的說服力來掩飾誇大的調味劑，點解仲睇唔透。

相隔一星期竟然在現實生活中因現實事情再度發作，相隔時間之短觸動了危機系統，條淚腺終於翻生？

由朝做到喊，明天會更早

2007-04-21T03:01:00.000+08:00

晨早腳痛，破例駛好日唔行路既阿爸落街買藥。
趕完落金鐘再趕去跑馬地兜轉頭返灣仔馬拉松跑events，一日做哂3日野。
畀人以冷言語問究竟搞咁耐個對個feature有咩understanding，忍住忍住，個天仲算藍。
本來完哂event就放監同新相識食飯，依家拿拿臨見大王問詳情。
簽張升職加人工既通告，睇返theo咩都無，好唔公平。
畀人以近乎羞辱的形式問一系列「你點解過左2日都唔知個topic資料」的問題十幾分鐘，忍唔住攤牌。好戲/氣到暈。
畀加勒比海曬黑哂既新朋友仔狂講夏天同膚色問題，白得快我想既。
最正係我仲鍾意既舊男友飛去紐西蘭搵條仔前問我會唔會掛住佢，我諗我係時候要寫寫日記。
聽日仲精彩…

Quoatation of why I shouldn't have a boy friend

2007-04-07T03:19:00.000+08:00

7/4/2007 1:40:17 Hugo Kei 或者用中文會可以好的PRESENT到我既問題問題係我都唔知應該點同男朋友相處我好自我中心自私會係最岩形容我既字咩都係我想點就點想理就理唔想就唔理可以體貼無人諗到亦可以衰到無人有對上個男朋友同我幾夾就我就得好緊要
7/4/2007 1:42:16 Hugo Kei 但都係頂我唔順
7/4/2007 1:43:31 Hugo Kei 任性同歪理真係我既強項係我用黎自我催眠既手段同埋我太攻心計好識計算
7/4/2007 1:43:48 Hugo Kei 亦好知點樣擺佈人
7/4/2007 1:44:11 Kei Hugo um.....i see
7/4/2007 1:44:15 Hugo Kei 所以呢...最好唔拍拖唔好害人
7/4/2007 1:44:20 Kei Hugo but at least u are so honest to me
7/4/2007 1:44:44 Hugo Kei 我鍾意的咩人...真係唔識答因為我都唔知有資格揀
7/4/2007 1:44:49 Kei Hugo so how old is ur ex?
7/4/2007 1:45:25 Hugo Kei 希望有個人可以收伏到我咁就夠同我一樣25
7/4/2007 1:45:35 Kei Hugo but i think everybody has his weaks and goods, u may see ur own weaks too much la
7/4/2007 1:47:29 Hugo Kei 係呀同你講咁多其實都係手段之一話你知好過畀你係其他任何途徑知既效果溫和反正唔想人地對我有期望而失望
7/4/2007 1:48:04 Kei Hugo so how long have u kept with ur ex
7/4/2007 1:48:29 Hugo Kei 我有承認既勇氣知錯但錯而不改...罪加一等......

Coach ME

2006-11-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

from "despair me", "gimme a full stop" to "deepest fear", it is just like

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
its our light not our darkness that most frightens us
your playing small does not serve the world
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you
we were all meant to shine as children do
it is not just in some of us
it is in everyone
and as we let our own light shines
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
as we are liberated from our own fear
our presence automatically liberates others

saving private fruits

2006-10-12T03:01:00.000+08:00

冷靜的，我地會黎搶救你地嫁啦

最具氣氛的中秋節

2006-10-12T02:33:00.000+08:00

中秋節的節日氣氛僅次於農曆新年，因為它有月餅商聯手安排的超長提示前奏，與商機成正比。清明重陽都未算委屈，大過年的做冬連假都益唔到大家放，往往仲要比人怨為此被夾去食交際飯…做呢行係咪都無假放，所以我對節日早就冷感。中秋節的回憶是當月餅是生日蛋糕切一餐，同埋20歲仔仲走去拖住成隻狗咁大的竹枝拗成的楊桃燈籠夜闖山頂，沿途發自小朋友那些既羨又妒的銳利目光，仿似我們幾隻牛龜跟小朋友爭玩具玩。

今年三喜臨門、一門三傑，ER個醫生決定要我係醫院過中秋，本來7點半完結的探病時間，護士大發慈悲extended到2130先下逐客令，藥力發作一訓訓到中秋子時，可能護士怕我悶，特登安排左我訓一間臨時既單人房，對正護士counter，所以佢地圍埋邊食宵夜做節邊興高采烈地呻正日工作有多苦的嬉笑怒罵聲變成我的中秋報時器，眼見交頭接耳聲隨外面的光線漏到漆黑的房間時，給我一種25年從未有過如此深刻的中秋節氣氛。幸好beta有先見之明預早留低一個錦囊，一打開原來係個手工9流的燈膽仕樣小白兔燈籠，正好「越位」抵消護士以熄燈強制人訓覺的手段，今個中秋我看不到9年來最近地球的月球，但卻是有生以來和中秋節走得最近。

p.s. 當日和事後照顧小弟的姑娘阿姐醫生們邊都對兔仔燈籠愛不釋手，玩到無電時有人特登換電以求一睹發光的白兔，原來內裡那份美麗的心思，大家都看到的，之所以alone but not lonely，多得它和他。

《this is how it goes》 aimee mann

bep ~hong kong~

2006-07-19T02:49:00.000+08:00

對上覺得正的演唱會，應該是周杰倫的，再對上是王菲(98果個呀下)。對於一年睇6、7個show來說，每十個concerts有一個滿意，算是不過不失罷了。無疑我很專重演唱會，會做左功課先去睇，唔想浪費大家時間，更加不想放過難得的時間地點人物氣氛。再者一係唔睇，比得錢我就唔會想係風涼水冷的山頂睇，因為我覺得很難得，才會有這麼多人陪自己一齊為支持的演出者而瘋狂，所以格外珍惜這些放縱的機會。Monkey business隻碟是我第一次接觸BEP，這兩個月才將他們的舊碟加入到iPod裡，根本無可能背得熟，一來booklet無歌詞，二來hip hop + funky的歌詞咁q難記，周杰倫的我都未記到啦。但既然他們難得會到香港，我都盡力去煲佢地的歌，不過到頭來都只係認得一半既歌，但係來佬野真係寧舍唔同，的氣氛正到呢...你鹵味，真係無得頂，will-i-am一句"hong~kong"玩足成晚而全場都仲覺得好過癮，fergie"jar"咪都仲可以唱住黎玩連環後手翻，chisin!每個人都好talented，總會有的野show到比你睇，話你知你點解要山長水遠走入去睇佢地。當晚亦係我第一次見到2R同fifi，仲有方大同，佢地都有去睇個show。我真係想知當呢幾位妹妹見到人地大波好身手唱歌好聽既時候，有無反醒過自己係度等緊咩。講返個show先，有好多時都唔知佢地講咩，但係永遠唔會錯過的say"xxxx"位。就算我係離台9丈遠都跳足全場。好運在我同beta身邊有的應該座$780既瘋狂份子，而唔係俾淡友包圍住，咁當然係無企位咁正啦，但係企位既飛係好難先得到嘛，更係會好的架，唔~~好徙先得嫁。總之成個concert由頭high到落屎眼呀，投入到飲枇杷蜜都秋梨唔到，成晚都仲funk緊之餘，事後仲即時上網搵的歌詞係度rap...癲燃左。摷返先知佢地原來同justin timberlake同埋jack johnson合作過，唔講jt，jack johnson"jar"吉他唱country嫁喎，tum到歐瑞強落搭去rap仲要係夾嫁，真係好勁。就係咁，我又鍾意左多一隊group啦。

BLOG THIS~

2006-07-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

我以前好唔鍾意的人叫我update icq info，特別係寫到自己係天底下最惹人憐憫果批人。我有心自然會周之無日去update你個profile，無心既見到你死你賤都心如止水話9知你死，心情唔好仲可能問多句你唔死仲有咩更加好既選擇，我知到依家死既話多的優惠嫁，遲左就蝕啦。無錯我一向崇拜文字既力量，但唔認同呢種溝通既模式，好似大包圍咁，搏多的人理會自己，引人注意。喂﹗裸跑啦，反正你都係想人理你?。存在感唔係咁樣乞返黎嫁。所以我icq info長期警告人唔好叫我update，唔好自討苦吃。到後來發展到blog既時代，又有的人keep住問我有無睇佢個blog，同樣我好唔鍾意的人叫我睇佢個blog，特別係我早知你有寫開，而你仲要一個星期催我幾次叫我睇。我有心早就……不過我依家的生活真係同的friend好overlap唔到，加上各有各忙，唔通仲可以晚晚打電話開的搭線搭到"chi""燃"線既幾人會議咩。我個blog又真係有觀眾，好多時佢地都會因為睇過我個blog而打個電話關心下我。再者，我成日都會係internet識人，如果有個blog，確實方便由個blog去了解一個人，咁我都想人地關心下我嘛，所以整下整下，咪blog囉。但我既宗旨係無變，人同人溝通都係語言為主，blog係輔助，而且有得揀，我會揀用說話去同人交代自己近況。

我討厭既blog/blog host有幾種:
1. 睇哂成個blog我都搵唔到一樣野似個blog host，成個都好似騙局咁；<---like what i do
2.成日唔update既人；<---like what i do
3,成日話無lover好dry；<---like what i do
4.成日寫埋的無聊野；<---like what i do
5.日日都係度喊苦喊忽，冤天尤人。(唔關我事啦掛~~~)

都係果句，你唔叫我update你由自可，唔好比機會我鄙視你，以上既人勿叫叫我update你個blog。

Werid practice that I have

2006-06-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

初初游水時，為了在漫長的重複頻率中解悶，不期然在心中哼歌，漸漸發覺身體會跟從音樂的節奏，拍揮泳式的頻率。能夠以旋律控制速度，有幸有不幸，早排喜歡哼王力宏的在梅邊，8個堂已經手腳不協調且呼吸困難，令我游得最自在、最持久、保我在大海中遇溺時可以發揮最大潛力游出塊陸地的歌曲，就是任性。如何沒有看過這個MV，未必會有如此高的同步率，但在看過幾十次後，「…42公斤的體重，50萬加崙的水，82個琴鍵，一個任性的我，和一個離開的你…」，現在連前奏時燕姿的讀白也背得出。今個夏天，希望在速度上尋求特破，但比開發泳式和體能方面更重要的，是選一首可以替換的THEME SONG。

06 新建場所

2006-06-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

昂平360 + 濕地公園 + 大王東街休憩處
ANYTHING MISSED?

A Memory of Portland

2006-06-12T05:26:00.000+08:00

村上隆的

2006-05-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

我沒有刻意留神
但巴黎的確有它的能力
驅使人收起雜念
集中精神好好品嚐小說

雖然村上隆的《69》算是風趣幽默
但內容的背後卻教令我意志低沈
實在不適合在晴空的巴黎下翻弄
但總算看罷了一本在香港應該不會有看完的一天的小說

我真的很討厭小說中的主角
更討厭他明知顧犯的低劣作風
但原來最反感的原因
是發現自己和主角壓根兒是出自同一個模子
不經不覺
離幸福快樂越來越遠

功德完滿的太平清醮 06

2006-05-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

以k氐的illustration在22版特集入面最正最勁
其次是smstella的5版comics
跟住係編輯g氐的勁相
最後咪係internet的發達同copy and paste的偉大
我無做過的咩
同大家一齊流汗一齊挨夜一齊作戰到最後
希望呢個特集可以做到一個remark
太平清醮真係好睇嫁

太平清醮 06

2006-05-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

密鑼緊鼓，萬眾期待…

Luck and happiness - in Woody Allen's mind

2006-05-03T03:00:00.000+08:00

好運
開心
理所當然。

"NO!"
Woody Allen在Match Point中毫不客氣地訓示各位

無錯，Woody Allen的世界是很悲觀
所以可以諗出一個好運但不幸的人生給你參照

一去到倫敦已經可以搭上名流
輕而易舉就攻下有錢女的無知
從不懂世故的她身上巧取豪奪
有錢女不以為意之餘仲要半賣半送
令主角Mr. Lucky唔駛一年已經由網球教練變成商界管理層
工作性質一樣咁悶
不過多左錢多左名牌多左架車同埋多左個守得秘密的司機
所以夠膽密密見情婦
漏洞百出卻無次穿煲
夠好運未?

暗湧來自Mr. Lucky與情婦之間懷孕住第三者
情婦要一個老公
而老公當然留戀名利
最後單拖策劃一個千瘡百孔的殺人計劃
並付諸實行
dramatic地有人幫佢梗隻死貓
仲要係最守得秘密的死人
Lucky enough?
還是pathetic enough?
答案還是可以從電影中主角笑唔多過10次反映出來

雖然我仍然覺得
Woody Allen最擅長運用的演員是自己
沒有他親身上陣
著實少了很多樂趣
match point的故事情節簡單且平凡
但卻能夠成為適合的器具
示範luck is not the same as happiness

既然i-dog可以屍變，我個blog又點解唔到以再生

2006-05-02T04:55:00.000+08:00

就連部電腦都遺忘了自動login的命令

如果你還未放棄這個blog，先容我讚一句「你好野」先。就當我過了一個很不尋常的星期一，收工後還有餘力在這裡揮筆。好快就一年，開始叫自己認真面對工作：認真寫字、認真影相、認真處理visual effect…一年前的我只會用layman perspective去秤身邊事物；一年後我知道，其實還有很多有趣的角度去解讀事物，從而在平面上建構立體報導，將最切身的感覺插入讀者的心內。去過柏林、波特蘭，應該會睇完da vanci code後去一趟巴黎，到時你記得聽蔡健雅的《下一站》。

每期一個architect master，你最想睇到邊個？

auther/wowow送的i-dog真不愧為一條好狗，就算埋在地下三尺，它都費盡氣力叫我唔好唔記得呢個世界仲有auther，我記得...又點丫，而家係佢唔想我理佢。我不嬲討厭拖泥帶水灰色空間，偏偏這件行李想拋又拋不遠，到頭來死死地氣執返之後感覺比以前更深刻更沉重，下次要用更大的力度去摔走它—惡性循環，最後咪應該係一離手就向住腳趾"dup"落去。呢一刻，我有的明白你的感受，wowow。

一星期的偶像

2006-02-26T03:19:00.000+08:00

馬來西亞的太空翼~2~

2006-02-26T03:06:00.000+08:00

馬來西亞的太空翼

2006-02-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

左右開弓
走位靈活
頭腦冷靜
判決果斷
勤力追波
傳射俱佳
享受足球

14歲已經有過人魅力
球隊上下都對他推崇備至
見到佢
會激發培養小朋友踢波的決心
這位MVP是今日的小球王

2006-01-16T11:49:00.000+08:00

He has no idea what he may share with you at his age nowaday

2005-12-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

Its not something new, I just found it and wanna share it here

can't u believe this

2005-12-01T15:14:00.000+08:00

呢度係淺水灣呀

2005-12-01T15:12:00.000+08:00

係咪靚先

2005-12-01T15:11:00.000+08:00

係咪cute先

2005-12-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

第一次

2005-12-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

為左呢12版
我用左差唔多2個星期去準備
4日訓得10個鐘
無跑1星期
仲要承受無跑1段時間之後既躲懶期
我知馬拉松唔係好多人都會有興趣睇
我正正希望唔鍾意既人睇完會想試跑
今期milk仲有貿易要公平既free cd喎
10隻歌
有radiohead、rem同人山人海嫁
快的睇完比的comment啦
我都第一次係工作上得到咁大既成功感咋

bros Grimm

2005-11-16T04:43:00.000+08:00

The movie of brother Grimm might not be good enuff, but the research team has done a pretty good job

Preferences

2005-11-15T05:42:00.000+08:00

SORRY呀
好耐好耐無update過
主要想等個風波過去
為左份工掙扎左一段時間
有個明確的既方向後
開始左一段少少錯綜複雜既感情
之後病到入左廠
就搞到依家

有時都估唔到
短短一個月既時間
點可以發生左咁多事
自己又唔係好覺
但明天是自己的
開始懂啦
快樂是選擇

忽然想起
當年有一個同學
如果當年會考有談判技巧一科
佢又會多一個a
同佢交涉
casuel topic一定會如佢所願
認真同佢爭論時
每次都會得出如佢所願的結果
並非他霸道
如果concept上有錯
佢會好歡迎你去提點佢
呢的細節既野係有商量的餘地
反正對事情的大圍上並不會有大影響
他有一個明確的立場和preference
如果沒有一定的堅持
多數會比佢牽住走
而佢利害的地方是你會好甘心咁比佢牽
仲要牽得不知不覺
呢的正正係佢言語既利害
依家效力法國外交部既佢
同我都仲有contact
每次同佢傾計
都當係藝術欣賞
就算簡單咁約係尖沙咀定銅鑼灣食飯
佢都總可以甜言蜜語咁約去就佢既地方
佢令我體會到有preference同無preference同有無所謂係兩回事
順得人意即係犧牲自己需要
意志係一樣容易磨蝕既fragile glass
要成事要心狠
相信自己係為左做好件事而狠心
做左出黎既結果係會有目共睹
對朋友
我會做返順得人
但工作上
我會改變

Confession

2005-10-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

nelson
對不起，不單因為我想保留現在的關係
還要為對感覺到還乍傻而道歉
還得向你道謝
不單是你對我的錯愛和關懷
還要因你令我醒覺過來而向你言謝
早前跟你談及的男孩子
他正正用我對待你的方式來應付我
總是小心奕奕
保持距離
思前想後
我也不敢再口說放棄心不息
一年之約我還是會堅守
但會是為自己出發而非他人

我嘛
很容易自我陶醉
但又心大心細猶豫不決
最終進退失據白難過
往後時常會為當初不表態而暗心酸
但之後又重蹈覆轍沒完沒了
經常分不清朋友間的互相尊敬與愛慕之情
最後為了保護自己
往往愛不來就轉身躲
埋怨為世所迫朋友緣差
乾羨慕朋友一大堆的人不知寂寞為何物

數得出的缺點豈止這幾個
唯一讓我自豪的
是你們對我不離不棄
還望大家體諒不完美的我
多多提點
成為我永遠的驕傲

苦中作樂 (我還蠻拿手的)

2005-10-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

入行以來
終於找到一個很強烈的理由
替辛苦的工作打辯

我今年玩nike10k應該唔駛錢呀!!!!哈哈
馬拉松又報左
哈
係睇下隻腳想抖到幾時

小弟已經如實招供
請不要塗炭生靈呀各位
你們知道要我帶無名氐的可能性
就別苦苦相逼啦
給我時間找找看誰肯充當

危險人物

2005-10-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

你果然是非常危險的一枚
我就是拿沒輒

你說梁家輝的角色很可憐
我只懂欣賞他的演戲天份

明明我睡得比你少
怎麼你那張臉比我更惺忪
痛心疾首咧
看到你面對的生活壓力

不喜歡處事拖泥帶水
偏偏這次卻犯個沒完沒了
男子氣慨甚麼的
我真的學不來

Wake up

2005-09-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

連續替人做功課做了5個半夜
當事人唔好過之餘
我亦不見得學到的甚麼
數到的就只有baffle同vainglorious
想來自己的日文進度無運動時間
不禁懷疑自己的價值是否僅此而已
唯一慶幸的
是被迫工作的情況下
沒有閒暇胡思亂想
省掉自我壓抑的工序
雖然有意無意間
都會閃過你的身影

今日稍為多了睡眠時間
終於都被避進死巷
結論是
我要不斷進步提昇自己
一年後希望脫胎換骨
薄有成就
就算沒有結果
對自己而言都是正面的改變
但願這一年我可以將你安放在心中
守望我所作所為

我的煩惱是你

2005-09-23T14:23:00.000+08:00

早過了那樣的年紀愛上一個人
說不出任何的道理
我真的看見你心中讓我愛上的
天真和勇氣
真的不想去改變你就算我受了委屈

想著你　小雨滴
攀懸屋簷不肯放棄
不後悔不流淚
我讓你的你卻都不了解
我的煩惱想不到　是你

我轉身就不在意誰對我誤會
或是糟透的天氣
我呼吸就能忘記做錯的過去
生活總要繼續
我要你放心往前去
你卻以為我只愛我自己

我不想訴苦因為我知道　能給你幸福

軌跡

2005-09-22T01:49:00.000+08:00

怎麼隱藏　我的悲傷　失去妳的地方
妳的髮香　散的匆忙　我已經跟不上

閉上眼睛　還能看見　妳離去的痕跡
在月光下　一直找尋　那想念的身影

如果說分手　是苦痛的起點
那在終點之前　我願意再愛一遍
想要對妳說的　不敢說的愛
會不會有人　可以明白

我會發著呆　然後忘記妳
接著緊緊閉上眼
想著那一天　會有人代替
讓我不再想念妳
我會發著呆　然後微微笑
接著緊緊閉上眼
又想了一遍　妳溫柔的臉
在我忘記之前

心理的眼淚　模糊了視線　妳己快看不見

無知

2005-09-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

唔理
我知我諗得太遠
我知我操之過急
我知我好大想頭
我知我無膽匪類
我知我無哂信心
我知我方吋大亂
我知道我唔知點
我知道................我唔知道
點先至係平衡點
你會唔會話個答案我知

敏感

2005-09-15T04:11:00.000+08:00

挑戰我的驚喜限度?
告訴你
我這方面的心思是取之不盡源源不絕五花八門
走著瞧

THE TEN REGRETS

2005-09-14T03:29:00.000+08:00

經歷了人生中十大遺憾之前五位
感覺空虛

但卻充滿希望

我是神?

2005-09-12T04:03:00.000+08:00

怎樣才能讓我認清自己的能力
我從不知道自己能打救B書
但我總沒有令你的要求成空的記錄
你不懂/不敢用人
我應當何罪
還請不要在眾人前令我手足無措
放心
我一定不會隱瞞這番說話
待我的努力有目共睹的那天自會送上

區內有失常人士出沒

2005-09-10T03:51:00.000+08:00

自風災過後
油價高企
本人情緒不能平伏
處於不穩狀態
敬請小心翼翼
遠離災區

btw Anderson
I like to speak in English occasionally only
對住你
我淨係想講我唔鐘意鬼仔

哭笑不得—柯有倫

2005-09-08T03:46:00.000+08:00

電視台裡在點播唱爛的情歌
我一個人開著車經過約會福利社
想起你的輪廓假裝你都還在這
路旁一堆垃圾提醒我的愛都已下課

我對你付出從來不擱淺
以為愛可以收割你卻對著我說
Baby no no no no

哭笑不得
我又能如何走的理由竟然先假設
哭笑不得
個性不合你想看我到底有多難過
哭笑不得
非走不可你想感受難分與難捨
哭笑不得
唱起情歌才能深刻感受到我真的拿你沒輒

血的啟示

2005-09-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

捐血後
姑娘按例叮囑我唔好做劇烈運動
知啦
轉個頭去左打拳

打打下
用左手擋左師弟既右勾
之後左手劇痛
之後鮮血好似「山」唔「陷」既水喉
之後成地係血
之後半昏迷狀態下回想到姑娘
其實她說的時侯
表情是誠懇和關懷
只是我選擇反叛吧了

出爾...反爾

2005-09-06T03:44:00.000+08:00

我欲抽身而退
望君就此罷手
不勝感激

Comprehensible

2005-09-05T02:20:00.000+08:00

我終於明白，不管我如何努力，都變不了你的husky。

extracted from 2 weeks notice

2005-09-03T13:45:00.000+08:00

i gave my word to someone that i would not kwock that building behind me. And normally with few people who know me and married me might testify it. my word wouldn't be very much, so why does it this time? part of because this building is worthy to be protected, and deserve to be the landmark. and part of the people really do need a place to do the senior water ballet and CER, prefectly not together. but mainly because this person despite being unusal stubborn, unable to comprimise, unable to dress up, she is rather like the building she loves very much, little rough found the edges, if you are able to come closer, absolutely bueatiful and being one of a kind. i said some of things to drift her away, but becoming a voice inside my head, and i can't whip her out. and i didn't want to whip. so we are going to keep the building. because i gave my word to her, as we will keep the community, and i didn't sleep with june

壞習慣

2005-08-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

如果一定要找出一個理由，就是因為懶惰，所以鞋帶永遠是鬆跨跨，習慣踩「爭」，久而久之，鞋「爭」便變形，向鞋筒方向彎曲。今天穿上一對很短的襪，因時間關係極速奔向碼頭，就在等船的時候，腳跟隱隱作痛，乍看才知原來這不良嗜好擦損了腳跟，還不是第一次，但已經很久沒有發生過。打開card holder，找不到ok磞，醒起最後一塊在同一個原因下給了他，混亂了痛楚的感覺。

愛我.........還是他

2005-08-27T02:48:00.000+08:00

究竟是甚麼事令我突然間軟弱
是他們臉上洋溢著那份幸福
消化了那千錘百鍊的想法嗎....
我搞不懂

陶吉吉 — 愛我還是他

黑暗中的我們　都沒有說話
你只想回家　不想你回家
寂寞深的像海　太讓人害怕
溫柔你的手　輕輕揉著我的髮
你的眉眼說　你好渴望我擁抱
你身體卻在拚命逃　當慾望在燃燒

你愛我還是他　是不是真的他有比我好
你為誰在掙扎
你愛我還是他　就說出你想說的真心話
你到底要跟我　還是他　愛愛愛他

這是不是命運　對我的懲罰
愛你也沒辦法　恨你也沒辦法
陷在這個漩渦　只想掙脫它
拉住你的手　卻讓我也被拖下
你的眉眼說　你不渴望我擁抱
每當愛變成了煎熬　你就開始要逃

你愛我還是他　是不是我可以做的更好
讓你不再掙扎
你愛我還是他　我寧願聽到殘忍的回答
也不要再被耍

你愛我還是他　我為你找了一百個理由
我就是那麼傻
你愛我還是他　是否沉默代替你的回答
我應該明白吧

你愛我還是他　你都已看不到我們的好
我還為誰牽掛
你愛我還是他　是否沉默就是你的回答
我們都別掙扎　去愛他

晴天霹靂

2005-08-23T02:41:00.000+08:00

無得睇孫燕姿個演唱會
萬念俱灰

趺左個銀包都未有咁大打擊

多多指教(刊載於206期milk大富翁70週年)

2005-07-01T18:30:00.000+08:00

富豪雪糕車

富豪雪糕車的音樂，在於小時候的我，是和父母大街大巷展開拉鋸戰的揭幕聲，每逢首『登登登登登登登登登』一響起，一向循規蹈矩的我便會失常，耍盡小孩子有的古靈精怪，去換取一枝奢侈的軟雪糕。

早一陣子的天色持續陰沈不定，走出小輪一刻就雨如箭下，無可奈何地站在天星碼頭乾焦急之際，忽然與父母對持衝動的一湧而上。回過神來，見不到父母，卻看到久違了的雪糕車，『登登登登登登登登登』，連綿不絕，反正它在瓦遮頭下，就上前買了枝雪糕消消暑。

沒隨時間而變質的味道，雲呢拿的甜筒還是一樣的幼滑，不自覺便和賣雪糕的叔叔攀談起來。知道了雪糕車雪糕的香滑秘技，知道了雪糕車是專利形式經營，還知道了雪糕車叔叔都是一個富豪。『登登登登登登登登登』在於雪糕車叔叔的意義，是替為生活作息而奔波辛勞的香港人施以回復魔法，是為了在小孩的腦海內植下他日回憶的根，是為了訪港的旅者們增加這個小城市的印象。他原來很富有，因為他在我們小孩的時代，已經投資在我們身上。看在他的眼裡，當我們成長後一臉汒現地被雪糕車的音樂召喚過來，他就收到比金錢更豐足的回報。就這樣，他風雨不改，每日都到沙田廠房取得由美國優質的牛油奶粉和雲呢拿油製成的雪糕漿，日日新鮮地在雪糕車上造軟雪糕，等我們到來歇息。

要找這富豪玩意，可以到兩個天星小輪碼頭、尖沙咀、旺角及銅鑼灣，對比起一杯收廿零三十塊的某國雪糕，『富豪』雪糕是不論平民或富翁都豪得起的奢侈品。

平生的偶像

2005-06-30T02:42:00.000+08:00

諸葛亮出使東吳遊說吳蜀聯合抗曹之事。
周瑜嫉妒諸葛亮的才智，總想找藉口殺他
，在一次宴會上，周瑜故意對諸葛亮說：
“孔明先生我吟一首詩你來對，
對的出有賞，對不出以殺頭問罪如何？”
諸葛亮從容笑到：“軍中無戲言，請都督說。”
周瑜大喜，開口便道：
有水便是溪，無水也是奚，
去掉溪邊水，加鳥便是雞。
得志貓兒勝過虎，落坡鳳凰不如雞。
諸葛亮聽罷，隨口便道：
有木便是棋，無木也是其，
去掉棋邊木，加欠便是欺。
龍遊淺水遭蝦戲，虎落平陽被犬欺。
周瑜聽了大怒，但礙於有言在先，
不便發作，便又出一句：
有手便是扭，無手便是醜，
去掉扭邊手，加女便是妞。
隆中有女長得醜，百里難挑一個醜。
諸葛亮聽了知道這話是在嘲笑自己的夫人黃阿醜長得醜，
便立即應道：
有木也是橋，無木也是喬，
去掉橋邊木，加女便是嬌。
江中吳女大小喬，曹操銅雀鎖二嬌。
周瑜知道這話是在奚落自己的夫人，
怒髮沖冠，幾次都想發作。
劍拔弩張之時，魯肅在一邊和了句：
有木也是槽，無木也是曹，
去掉槽邊木，加米便是糟，
當今之計在破曹，龍虎相鬥豈不糟！”
詩罷眾人一齊喝彩。周瑜見有人從中和解，
無奈只好收場。
千年彈指已過，故人化為黃土，
而魯肅化干戈為玉帛的做法卻一直流傳在中國的歷史。
但願我們的生活當中也能有一些“魯肅”喔!!

9月的炎夏??

2005-05-21T03:16:00.000+08:00

你越係唔諗就越會有機會
個個都係咁講
但我就不嬲唔信
我的6合彩鑊鑊都差的洗鬼左啦...夠唔上心啦掛
又唔見中!!!
所以覺得唔上心會中
係因為每次你唔掛心既時候中左
所以驚喜到你會上心啫
就等如你趕時間就會發現的唔岩你搭既巴士係你眼前泣泣揚揚分別激你咁
根本你唔趕既時候都有的咁既事啦
你趕而又咁岩有車你又會覺得理所當然而無一回事

不過呢...真係無諗過csd個preliminary interview咁都pass...
果時都話
如果咁都入到written test
我真係會好質疑的applicant既質素...
我都唔識答佢地的問題...

是但
既然係咁
我本來打算唔去海關個interview
而家就唔好同自己作對啦
死都試下先
打比connie同amanda8下先得...唔知仲見唔見到果好nice既男仔呢

好緊張呀
10個鐘內我就知結果啦
唔知有無offer呢
唔知有無12k呢...
有就好啦~~~

聽日話你知啦
我知我做milk都開心既
起碼我知哂的野係點run丫...

呢幾日呢...好似好幸福咁
有好體貼同岩傾既男仔同我食飯
哈哈
我特登山長水遠去食餐好ordinary既茶餐廳
但人少少
呢的平淡既日子好奇妙
分開行但都仲想聽到佢把聲
(當然我都知自己的3分鐘...啦...)

係啦係啦
我認我個calendar已經去到9月啦
9月中就會係搵到工既日子
之後就...safari...哈哈

三個月啦~~

2005-05-18T02:22:00.000+08:00

好啦
星期六將會係我告別呢個悠長假期既第一步
亦係決定我會係milk度繼續一星期六日半定係係mcl度大展拳腳
據我理解mcl果邊唔會質疑我既能力
最大既死穴都係我個record啦...
不過回想起呢份工都真係波折重重
一開始封cover letter address左第二間公司
而個preliminary interview又好有火藥味
咁都仲捱到去final
喜出望外

話說因為某人心來潮血
咁就係星期六晚搞左個party敘舊
而某人果晚雖然全程都在場
但就由10點開始傾左4個鐘電話
出席既人個個都屌哂鬼
都幾不負責任同有異性無記性
但既然呢次係佢23年來既初次主動追女仔(對上果次長達5年既初戀係女仔主動呀陰公)
見到呢個好大頭蝦同自己都照顧唔同既肥仔咁投入
為左佢朝思暮想心神恍惚
真係打從心底咁戥佢高興
亦同時希望有朝一日我會好似佢咁
識到一個自己好放縱咁去愛既人
Wicky
我真係好保護自己
話就話係唔想有咩事會忍唔住麻煩到朋友
實質係唔敢比自己係愛情上面失去尊嚴
甚至依家企圖隱藏自己對近在眼前咫尺可碰既佢既感情
真係愚不可及
究竟我係咪自我虐待
唔想自己有幸福呢

好醜呀
我竟然同的咁低手既方式避人....
phobia of ... 唉

我咁大個仔都係第一次曬到咁傷
成個人好似岩岩出爐既紅腸
比毛巾被刮到都痛醒
都唔知係咪要慶幸自己的皮膚對太陽有反應
好痛呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recent Honor of Hong Kong

2005-05-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

精英大帥輸左
好似有的遺憾
我唔賭馬
但見到佢有輝煌既成就
就一廂情願想佢既成就可以延績
漠視佢所承受既壓力

我真係一個好小器既人
完全唔識得點去欣賞認同及讚美別人的成功
識挑剔人但又無創造性
好民主派呀~~點算好...

近排睇到范曉萱既自傅
講到前男友周浚偉
幫佢過渡佢人生最低沉既時期之餘
打消佢自殺既念頭
引述書中一段︰
「我對佢兇一點，他就對我更好一點，幹麼要這樣...？」
我打從心底渴望有一個機會去飾演周浚偉既角色
就算會得到范曉萱既對待都仲係咁堅定
係...扭曲既愛情
但可以愛情至上而勇往直前
我真係想拍一次刻骨銘心既拖

但可能你講得岩既...以我固執既性格同高傲囂張既態度
又真係...點係個湖度撈到月亮

搵到份工又有好多變數
即管又投入下係工作度先
大不了咪繼續呢種單身生活...

catherine.....

2005-05-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

開左個email a/c
兩個月先check一次
竟然有汪汪既email
好似拍戲果的橋段
right thing at the wrong time
仲要今日果集創世紀
講到呀添係機場送別Helen
呀添的對白
好似係我起稿咁
而Helen既對白
又會唔會係汪汪既心聲呢??
真係唔想有呢日出現

原來F.I.R的歌幾有意義
好少咁積極去記國語歌詞
真係佢地的歌好得
定係個concert stand alone既影響

不過呢
果晚最豐盛既收穫
一定係美若天仙既孫燕姿
求下你快的黎香港開concert啦

陶吉吉有隻歌叫catherine
我想將佢個名改做keith

catherine
或者我的愛
真的不夠了不起
都沒有好好愛你...

self-examination/soul searching...whatsoever

2005-05-03T01:59:00.000+08:00

So now half of my ex boy friends who I regarded myself devoting during time have decleared the same complaint
and i bet there should be one more without the necessatation to prove
what's wrong with me?
did i turn myself completely into another person right after the relationship?
i thought i've emphasized that the cut off of contact doesn't mean curelty
but even worse
i was told that i am arrogant when the deceiving mist of romance has been blown away
what have i done to build up the image
just because i am the one who suggested to break?
look
i didn't try to propose an arguement
i just want to find out the causes so as to improve
am i faking a nice guy every time i start loving someone?
god i just dunno what should i do
who to love
how to love
and what is love...

大頭蝦

2005-04-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

大頭蝦並唔係搏同情而自封
我一向都看不起人自居傻瓜白痴

昨晚觀賞drama完畢後忘記轉換電話模式
最終導致24個missed call
有3個是landline
若果是interview的invitation
我真的會生不如死

I haven't abandoned this site....completely yet....

2005-04-21T12:21:00.000+08:00

Yeah I've been lazy for a fairy long while. There were a lot of things undergoing recently; interviews interviews & interviews... yet I've had quite a few delightful days.

Sing, we are a very good buddy of each other. As I've mentioned, things will be very hard to compromise when it comes to sharing a place to live, yet we are able to get it through. We are already tuned up and we know how to respect each other. I have nothing to hesitate to say in front of you cuz you have a very high level of acceptance, you are a real good listener in the way that you really pay attention and feedback correspondingly. I think this is what your beloved admires and adores most. Ya know, you would be my ideal flatmate if I would move out without a partner. I am glad to know what you think about me, just ask me out whenever you want someone to talk.

Its been a while from the last time I went up the Peak. I guess it is the most well-maintained country park trail in Hk, wide and smooth pave, delicate pavilion, awesome scenery and fresh air, added up to be something which is worthy to trade off with energy and sweat. This is a very simple route compare with those we have done previously, but the feeling is always to same when I was having an apple at the goal. Achievement helps to build up confident, the effect is magnified to current me, who is having days without a proper job and the ability to exericse.
There was rhythm of Aferican drum on the way we walked up the huge pavilion on top of the Peak, we could only educe a gathering of maids under the facts of Sunday and rhythm first of all. So we were surprised to see crowd of Adivasis dancing with the traditional clothes on half of the field, some kids and adults of western were having soccer on the other side. Hey I didn't bring the passport with me, why all the Chineses were visitin like tourists, following the guide's flags with same tee on while those foreigners seem like local? C&CL bruys seed in our mind that Chinese has a strong sense of family spirit, and we cherish all the time together and we do spend a lot of time together...but rarely I can see chinese family focus and enjoy in the same activity so as to build up a relationship through outdoor game. Its just so common to see family members reading different things on their own in having dim sum on sunday, so-called family time. I have no doubt that locals are demanded to have a fairy long working hour in Hong Kong, nevertheless we still have time to browse internet on average time 2 hours each day. I reckon there is no generation gap in the world of sports, consider the cost and effect on the health, you can't find a better activity that can link up teamates like that. I will spend time to swim with my kid if i may have one.

Dennis has a b-day party last sat at Space and Mama held another party in Happy Valley. I didn't mean to stay long as the agony of my feet prohibits me from drinking, and the presence of half of my xbfs is the seconder to my thought. I was so fucking unattentive to the list of guests. I was caught to social for a damn long while and luckily Dennis had just decided to focus on the birthday cake, that's why I was saved. It seems like Keith decides not to get along with my family anymore, he didn't give us even a call after having been told how desperate my mum wants to hear from him. I regretted for what I've induced, keep screwing up every thing this year.

A piece of excerpt of my xbf diary

2005-04-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

同某一D人分手
事後會覺得鬼掩眼
HUGO係一個好例子
而家睇到佢. 有種無名火. 驚嘆世上有個咁自以為是既人...
當初. 我究竟鍾意佢D咩呢? 浪費左一年時間
不過. 係呢一年既時間. 我先知道. 原來. 反面教材係好有用.
從失敗中學習真係好

每失戀一次. 就EXPLORE自己多一D
人貴乎自知. 自知之明. 真係花一生人都學唔晒
因為唔了解自己能力. 目標需要
所以會失敗. 所以會傷心. 所以會唔滿足
有D人喜歡不斷挑戰自己. 做一個別人眼中上進既人
呢一個MOMENT 我寧可安於現狀不慌不忙計劃將來
我喜歡呢一種踏實穩定既感覺
清楚自己. 為自己而活為屬於自己而滿足
好好期待下一段戀愛

last episode

2005-04-03T14:29:00.000+08:00

手臂強化計劃2.0beta

Fear blasted out when the posterman came, the amplified pumping actions just lost its control, consequening a very long torture

I almost forgot why I had to move my diary here
open diary is definitely a channel for distant friends to update you from time to time, but there is hesitation whether or not to write something very deep and genuine. Some say that I should own 2 diaries, hell, then I'd better really write than type.

Almost overwheled by the boredem, I kept on thinking what my future should be. Shall I be happy ending up in a bizman? Faking out on the phone without knowing how freaky the one maybe on biz? I like to see something alive, face to face dialogue and interactive conversation with facial expressions. Customer Service & Sales, they are what I would like to work for finally. The presistent hunting of mkt work maybe a proof of my super-ego. Of cuz, ending up as an inspector may not be ideal after hearing the gossip, but I have to feed my curious

To comprehend such a simple stuff wouldn't have to kill so many days, I've a schedule of "unemployment weekday" sarcasticly and I tried all my best to fit into to. It works, and more sarcasticly that I was not able to attend any interview for christ sake. Rugby, gout...just like the menstruation once a year, of cuz the period of time will last longer on ratio to the frequency.

You recognize my flaw now? I was supposed to write the reason for moving and I didn't intent to give in preface. Let's get it straight, Keith. Keith, the guy I dumped and miss in intervals. Having realized the value of competition might bring along, I missed him badly to the point that I wanted him back after he told me that he has engaged into a new relationship.

Sure we have had sweet time, those good memories push us to lingered for a year of time and amazingly that I haven't cut off cleanly with him, with the violation of the practice to trade off the feeling of guilty and to minimize the impact of splite up. Tragical to see him giving up his life, I avoided to get involved into new relationships before him despite the loss to miss my perfect match Siu Kit. Nothing meant more than Keith at that time but I just simply lack of confident to be his bf, or I'm too confident that I would fuck up again.

Since you might notice, I wrote online diary cuz I wanted to report my current life with him indirectly, just like exchanging diary, we wrote for each other like a dialogue or a letter. We were pretty close to pairing up again that time but I didn't dare and bare to.

He is a simple and adorable sweetie, cute yet masculine, gentle and polite, respectful, easy-going and generous. He has kindest attitude and pretty smile running down of my list of x. He is not materialistic, nor picky (that's why he chose me, the worst decision he has had made in his life), all he demands is my time and concentration which nail me right the clout. I can give all I process except freedom, and loyalty to him. I just couldn't suppress the itching thought in crashing different guys like a slut. Terrible and synpathetic. tbc...

now obviously I don't deserve such a good guy,nonetheless I was the one who decided to leave ironically. I was also the one who felt like being stabbed while reading his sweet diary about how lovely his bf is. He might not know how many guys I have turned down cuz of him but that's the only thing I could ease the guilt I have. since the old diary is open in icq and those guys would think either too positive or negative about the feeling I have to them, ya know, some anticipated that I am too cruel to overlook a rejection of a confession since I haven't mentioned it in my diary. other way round, few guys thought that they still have chance as I didn't reject it formally in diary...god...do I really need to publish it on newspaper?

since I want my diary be genuine, I didn't want to hide my feeling in violation to my principle, including the feeling towards Keith, my informal little brother. Mum has asked about why he didn't come and say happy birthday to her this year...mum, this is not the time he concerns about your b-day but his future. I admitted that I am self-preservated and I always don't want to get hurt which may trouble people around me. Now he's happy and there is no big different with and without me around him, and he will leave here too......it maybe a good time to cut it now. Thought I would fly to him if there is necessitation to do so.

Its good if you found this piece of diary messy and hard to understand. I am still involved in the incident and not yet mature enough to round it up in a nice way. But at least I kept my promise to tell you about the thing between me and keith. Thanks for all of you who care about my affection and me.

Reason to move Episode I

2005-04-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

Origin

2005-03-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

Emperor Resorts International

I was almost enchanted to work for this immorale company
Keep your eyes on it
Don't ever trust in a single word of their staff
There is never such a good treat in reality
Especially in the sophisticated city as Hong Kong
Thank you for letting me dream for 2 days
Without you
I wouldn't try to think about having a career in this field
You've lightened me up for 2 days bastard

Well...it is not boring to be ground at home but guilty, having heavy diet with such a low metabolic rate
the news of the public swimming pools will start to run again in April doesnt' give me a strong intention to get back into water, cuz I have difficulty to make decision right in the middle of thai boxing and rugby. I want to try some sort of team sports for a long long time. Would it be a right time to interfere?

So glad to meet all of you again, I know you all are very and always nice to me. So happy and enjoying to had you back with me for a short night, and make sure that we'll hang up for a dessert buffet. Quite a few hotels are offering it so let's pick up one from them.

原點孫燕姿/蔡健雅
.....................................
最後還是回到了原點

Let me explain...

2005-03-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

我曾經是一個非常敏感的人
對身邊的風吹草動都鉅細無遺
但過份敏感變本加厲
很容易出現妄想
更甚至自作多情
最終身心疲累
預科一役學乖了
以後都以視而不見為原則
不論多明顯都不以為然
不管是逃避還是自我保護

你的錯愛
我只能衷心感激
希望你不要以為我應酬才這樣說
但你真的deserve一個比我更認真對待感情的男朋友
我比較適合既係孤獨

Black Sunday

2005-03-22T02:44:00.000+08:00

I would consider myself being punished by the god if I haven't met you
There is the element of sea in my name
but why I am so terrified by it?
let's see
mobile this time...god sake...is this flaw fated to be with me for the rest of my life?

http://www-1.expo2005.or.jp/tcn/index.htm
好想去呀

Fuck the ass

2005-03-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

What's that supposed to mean
Am I really look so FOREIGN??
Why the hell you think that I would pay you to take a photo of me with the victoria habour as backgroud?

X)*)*W#@(*)#%@AR)FI)_A(F_(#$)*#%)2rk

A very warm dinner in Joey Ma's home
and not surprised that she has 2 handsomes kids
so happy to see so many people
i know much more about them after i've left the company
sacastic yet lovely

1 day before 1 month for being unemployed

2005-03-18T02:05:00.000+08:00

好過埋聽日就一個月啦
等自己以為搵工咁易丫啦
不過都叫做嘆左一個月
否則我未必會跑到馬拉松
仲有時間睇咁多inspiring既戲
考督察s
見識到卑鄙無良既僱主
攞美國visa
見返好多班好耐無見既朋友

未搞清楚的督察s post要幾耐process之前的心態幾衰
有電話打黎叫去interview時成日會諗"死啦，唔好請我住呀..."
宜家都有的後悔個下年少輕狂呀，s700i
聽到你濕哂未呀~~
不過是但啦
反正屋企不嬲都錫我
依家自己都開始比自己壓力
咁就試下睇下點啦
聽日又有interview啦
custom service, 是但in住先
無收入都幾痛苦

好
關係全香港人既民生
董建華以健康為由辭職
總叫順應民意下台
普遍對他的主觀評語階為過大於功
八萬五致命政策自毀政途

無疑民生皆以經濟角度考慮政治取向
如非遇上經濟金錢問題又怎能駛得政治冷感的香港人上街
中產公務員夾心階層一眾業界無一幸免
大律師公會上街算是個別
因為他們維護的是被人大釋法所衝擊的法治權威
至於7.1 50萬人上街
又有幾多係知道23條具體內容

真正被指為香港的民主進程受阻的事件
由始至終都只有0708普選及23條
勉強加上罷黜特首
也不知道應怎樣佩服民主派的歪道
令外界甚至香港人都認為自己活在強權下
但回想受惠於自由行及cepa
最關心的經濟才見起息
點解可以計人地對自己唔好既野但又永遠唔記人地對自己好既事
好比父母對自己經濟支援下
點都應該有某程度上既約束掛
依家特首都換左
但都仲有人要為左請辭理由及過程去挑釁煽動
達成目標後都仲不滿
唯一解釋係由始至終都無當過名義上既目標為目標囉
呢的咪就係添煩添亂既好代表
再講
澳門都有賭博事業支撐經濟
香港??
以前讀社會或者econ時既製造業出入口優勢呢的通通都煙消雲散
英國政府係撤出前已經吸乾吸淨
經濟轉型係一個何等艱鉅的任務
大家心知
董建華及其班子在收拾呢的爛攤子都係鞠躬盡瘁
7年放得52日假
僅僅多過7日勞工假期3日
你班人如果唔係吹毛求疵
就一定係為恐天下不亂
民主派既特色
咪就係只破壞不建設
董建華
我為一你的殞落而抱憾
..........
........
......
...
好
完畢
講返的輕鬆的既
Lemony Snicket's a Series of Unfortunate Events
一眾小演員絕對無比jim carrey獨樹一幟
為我地呢班看倌帶來歡樂
Klaus個樣好成熟同學院派
如何大個唔走實比威廉皇子更權威
Violet個樣好公仔
仲以為係唔多野講既冷漠型
點知原來係一個charm type
我都幾鐘意佢
拜jim carrey既奸所賜劇情緊湊過the day after tomorrow
佢只係一個children story所改編
可見script writter同directing既力量
This is a marvelous movie because every parts have performed their duties and done a good job
No one is worship for the credit but the whole crew
Gotta see it guys
there's no point for all of you to miss it no matter how old you are

http://www.unfortunateeventsmovie.com/main_flash.html

再講多套
今次係本年度首個drama
由劉燁及袁泉主演既琥珀

原來我的普通話偏向應用能力
日常應對都可以聽到9成
但一聽到個play入面文藝對白就死啦
無信心唔睇字幕
僅僅聽得到2至3成...唔開心, cruel reality

咁多個藝人淨係識得劉燁
以前睇過佢兩套戲
一套唔駛多講大家都知係藍宇啦
另一套係戀之風景
兩套既佢都係咁心地好好既純情傻小子
一個sweet boy next door type
自始就定左佢係呢一型既演員
呢一個drama就比佢一口氣推翻哂
演花花公子一角入木三分
感覺好真實
毫無破綻
出口成文口花花氹人個tone真係好想.........比佢氹
理性咁睇都好佩服佢可以一口氣唸出洋洋千字對白
無間斷食字過
當然呢個唔係單單佢既專利
劇中所有演員都係咁爐火純清
不過佢真係好帥
能夠演活廖一梅心中最有興趣既vulerable don juans
影帝. 實至名歸

當然
整個production都係好專業
編劇天馬行空
將無厘啦更既野炒出一碟令人食指大動既佳餚
導演鬼斧神工
將所有十數個角色性格擴展
將每一個角色都印入觀眾腦海
$220睇得清清楚楚 (好過紅館既200好多多)
仲有本幾有內涵既場刊
雖然miss左都唔會有人話我知我有幾大損失
但我都仲好慶幸無miss到呢個drama

當然
我既眼睛仲係盯緊25 march
好努力咁係度背歌詞

呢幾日都仲係咁
唔知點解無野做但的時間仲係herher聲咁過
但我好想有收入
雖然無野做個人無咩購買意欲
無long term咁睇呢一日總會返黎
或者真係要騎牛
as I was told, don't drop the anchor here.......good english mum

Which movie you would like to see most

A. Lemony Snicket's Series of Unforunate Events
B. Hitch
C. Million Dollar Baby
D. 後備甜心
E. Son of the Mask

Do you feel sympathetic for Mr Tung

A. Yes
B. Little Bit
C. Neutral
D. Not At All
E. He deserves a death sentence

How do you feel about Democracy Party in this issue?

A. Die Hard Fans
B. They help me a lot
C, What's that
D. Disappointing
E. Nasty Gems

Test

2005-03-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

Q.39 Idenitfy the psychosis from the following syndrom

An instability of self image, relationship and mood, uncertainty about goal, impulsive in activities that are self-damaging such as promiscuous sex, social constrariness and a generally pressimistic attitude are often observed.

A. Pseudologia Fantastica
B. Borderlined Personality Disorder
C. Schizophrenia
D. ESP
E. Delusional (Paranoid) Disorder

My muse

2005-03-14T10:35:00.000+08:00

Faye under my arrangement
Originally uploaded by nikexstussy.

One of my greatest artistic production. Never ever I have spent so much time on poster

開張大吉

2005-03-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

一日內比人截一舖糊再食左多舖自摸詐糊
真係丟架
為左呢份工走去申請visa
報名補鐘
最應係turn down左另一個offer
依家一無所得
頂丫~~

算
註定要我做inspector
過渡期間俾多的心機搵過份~~哼

呀媽都講得岩
幫人就義不容辭
自己屋企連碗都懶得洗
都唔知係收錯signal搞到自作多情
無啦啦比人錫左淡
驚都未驚完喜都黎不及就聽到句"sorry,的感覺怪怪地"
我仲一齊say埋sorry

識左年幾有多
個底唔起自己都浮哂上面
但每次見到佢個種彬彬有禮既態度
就會誘惑到感性串謀詐騙理性
唉......

點解每次你都crack到我most inner part
但係你認唔認同有時唔問好的
我都想呃到你
但你呢方面又好清醒喎
唔講你知
係唔想多一個人唔開心
而你又有意無意問同一個問題
你唔開口講
的deadair都好會產生幻聽咁
再落去我會因為內疚而唔再敢同你來往呀...

諗返起
好想講返馬拉松單野

首先係...好開心有肥姨姨接我
仲幫我係眾目睽睽下 sofu sofu~~~哈哈
但又累你同時間無左兩個朋友
sorry呀
將我既快樂建築係你既快樂度

做到均速控制
跑得哂全程
真係喜出望外
仲要有力係last5k去放出黎
真係爽爆
有個呀叔早我成4-500米放但都係比我追返過喎
係咪好叻仔先
雖然個ranking係我咁多公開賽中最差 4:07:xx (1078/3000)
但見到所有10k/21k的record
就明白所有跑得既人都跑哂全馬
第一次
我甘心...(但通常第一次個result係...最好................)
落雨係清馬大橋上面真係凍到想搶人的衫著
但係其實咁既天氣反而有利做好成績
對鞋好似濕水海綿
每步都有水噴出黎urggg..............

仲有呀
食左成個月份量既kitkat
見到的人點自私唔顧人
亦都見到守望相助既情景
的畫面都係好靚
本來話過今次跑得哂我就唔會再玩
但睇黎我...又會朝令夕過啦

哈哈
27/02/2005
memorable day

2005-03-11T11:45:00.000+08:00

summer

Inspector Exam

2005-03-11T09:26:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

10 March

All of a sudden I have 2 offer on hands...which one should I choose?? tbc...

9 March

I have much stronger motivation in seeking a new job after the mystery exam. Finally I take up my determination and wrote a sincere tailored cover letter. I have already made the mistake in the written exam that I put all my ideas into the reply of complaint letter, the tone of the memorized frame, however, is not really match with my writing style. Hoping there will be some positive feedback this time. The interview I had today was going well, but I don't like the HR manager as he seems to share the same blood of DL. haha...

8 March

I wouldn't feel surprising if you told me either I have passed or failed in all the papers attempted in the written examination of inspector, not only the criteria to pass has not been told but also the paper are neither a piece of cake nor hard as hell. The average performance will probably be used to determine the passing line. Although I have no idea about the level of other candidates, most of them I heard are coming from HKU or CU....sigh.
On the other hand, however, I really wonder how many percent of people may pass the physical examination if it is going to be part of the examinations today. As far as I observed, over 50% of male candidates are chubby, and one thrid of them should be categorized as obese...I was lucky to dress in tie and shirt as other 70% of crowd do, it is meaningless somehow, but it has ease the feeling of nervous and anxious for me.
I suddenly reminded of the old days when I was sitting few minutes before the exam to start, I was always calm when attempting the exam as I know the key to ease myself, best performance comes with relax mind. There is nothing to lose in case I have messed them up afterall. But it doesn't work this time, I wonder whether I am really interested about this job as such, or I am just worrying about my language standard, capabilities...
Appetitude test is never just testing you common sense, I supposed only the groups who have attended the Mathematics lesson know the answer of Mean Median and Mode...fuck up. Anyway... God bless me (though I dun know which god I'm referring...)

The fastest way to get to causeway bay from Hong Kong South. Well, Wallabee is really a pair of good shoes in talking about walking for a long distance. I felt extremely comfortbale to walk uphill from 黃竹坑 to 黃泥涌 for an hour with them on my feet. And I saw an angel instructing the traffic with a lighting stick when I walked across the international school, no kidding, she's sssoooooooooo charming that I couldn't keep my eyes off her.

Its has been a long time I haven't been to 藍塘道. Its rare to find that style of street in Hong Kong now. Without sky building blocking the vision, you may enjoy the scene and the yellowish sun ray of dawn outside 2-floor houses. That would be my dream house rather than a extravagant lobby with marble and gold-plating lift...Vintage is more preferred than luxury.

I have 2 唐Sisters of Taiwanese/Taiwanian. They are REALLY REALLY CUTE. According to my friends who have seen them before, we all agree on the issue that they are natural borned to be dedicated and feminine, the cosmetic they used is a manner rather than artificial. So bringing them out is like bringing 2 kids, you'll pay extra attention to them and they will stick on you like chewing gums. They are feebleminded especially in shopping but very considerable and easy going. I miss them so much and whenever I see them, I will be extremely happy. We are tuned to be together lei. hahaaha.

2005-03-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

義工呢的野好似話做就有得做咁
尋晚跑步跑到炮台山既時候
有個小朋友係美華氐附近喊得好緊要
睇佢細細個好似得三四歲
就走過去睇下佢係唔係整親
佢隻大眼仔"稍"到我行近佢
就喊得仲大聲的
我細細聲咁問佢做咩一個人呀
但因為氣喘關係
我講到好斷斷續續
佢就反而唔驚我
仲覺得好得意咁笑 (笑我!!!!!!)
作死佢丫

見佢笑返
我就整的古靈精怪既樣嚇下佢
我一直以為佢係男仔嘛
原來係個幾細膽既女仔
又搞喊返佢.........黎賤

我跑步咩都無帶
記得到既電話
有條件幫到我而我又唔怕麻煩到既人都寥寥無幾
係等小杰果20分鐘
小女孩都係唔多出聲
問佢想去邊就答我迪士尼樂園
海邊的風越吹越寒
但約實左小杰又唔無得改地點等
等到小杰黎到我已經病病地
個小女孩都係唔想講自己的事
我又唔想搜佢個袋
小杰突然間個高飛狗公仔出黎
小妹妹即刻笑逐顏開
正正式式講既第一句說話
就係我好肚餓.......
唯有帶佢去灣仔間24麥當勞食野
小妹妹果然識貨
成程都"che"實靚仔果個
買野食就叫我去買.........
好似我真係佢呀哥咁駛
小杰就不論仔定女都咁熟手
係講左好多校園生活之後
6歲既陳尉欣小妹妹除左連體重都寫左出黎比我地睇之外
仲寫埋屋企地址添thanks god
成點幾兩點鐘終於可以擺脫呀小妹妹既魔掌
成靚妹臨走淨係同小杰講byebye靚仔小杰哥哥
當我透明...........
仲要比小杰得得戚戚咁話我小器無愛心
我...真係無言......
你個friend都唔知係咪同你夾埋
見到一個跑步打扮既0靚仔
一個斯斯文文既靚仔再加個攬住隻公仔既小妹妹
話有溫馨既感覺
你快的教返岩佢正確既解釋呀
我都唔明你駛唔駛比埋隻公仔個衰妹
上埋契丫笨~~~
不過我都呃左你件外套~~hehe
唔該哂你
明知打比你你實幫我
但始終覺得好神奇
一次又一次咁延續我既希望
唉~~~可惜~~~~

wicky tsui你呢個人真係好討厭
面皮厚過防彈玻璃
夠膽搵我的friend過橋
你因住黎!!!!!!!!!!!!!!賤人
我真心向天立誓
我唔會再比你玩弄我僅餘的童真

2005-03-11T09:20:00.001+08:00

生日快樂呀cyannie
我儘左我能力去將今日變成你係BPI工作中最美好既一日
希望你會認同啦

不過個代價都好大呀
係咪呀s700i

捐血既感覺真係好好
的姑娘好似睇戲果的日本人
好多野都可以令佢地笑逐顏開
由於係臨收工先同au pak去捐血
所以都多人
但咁多人都竟然無人係O型血
個senior的一知道我係就好開心咁同我講
「你的血捐比bb做centrifuge啦，哈哈哈哈」
好似我生左個bb係仔果隻咁興奮
不過因為咁我捐少100cc
唔~~希望唔會害左的bb啦
我的blood platelet唔係咁effectively fucntion
捐完血又想做的義工
想真真正正咁回饋下社會
make life more meaningful

睇左一套傳統講HipHop Jazz Dancing既勵志片
戲入面個主角叫Honey Daniel
擁有一副好bright既面孔
嘴角向上微彎
經常保持住笑容
跳得當然有板有眼
比model更均勻既身段
仲有佢係戲入面曇花一現既 one length
一舉手一投足都好性感
一個anticipative既後輩
多謝小杰既推介
你真係深知我心 =)
就扯平返你陪唔到我睇既罪啦
你包得起我
我一世唔搵野做都得
但before that我都係鐘意駛自己錢多的啦

Martin
多謝你呀
好耐無人為我做的咁既事啦
搵唔到都唔緊要
...................................................當然搵到會仲好啦.........hehehe
咁下次我約你出黎淨係打機好唔好
哈哈~~~

今次輪到avril lavigne開演唱會
MOST EXPECTING!!!!!!
雖然係第30行
但能夠睇佢live show
$780 又何妨
我要將佢的歌詞背熟哂先入場睇

juno係我用得上愛呢個字既男歌手
佢御用製作人jerald更加應記一功
silly thing既PR係另類既成功
大寶甚有nigo既風範
但願他有野心替香港時裝反攻日本市場

怎樣棲身這國土　怎麼只得記憶在引路
眼見發“金秀”萎曲的鐵路　似要襯托身邊這片墓
這裡殮葬了有我的前途　這個我太記掛你的領土
軟禁這裡我卻感覺到
每夜閉上兩眼也會聽見你的腳步　夢到

頭上永掛那信念　終可高攀你身邊
多想不經意的見面　那怕道別角色可有變
引領你那光線我未遇見　
我卻堅信另一邊彼此生命線　有天交接

怎麼一生愛過的　都只可於記憶內醞釀
厭棄鏡裡那灰色對象　把不得將身軀都轉讓
蓋過我那片百尺冰雪裡　有你我錯過了那點雨水
滲透這季節有我的變化
最後閉上兩眼已遠去也覺淒怨吧　夢過嗎

來日察覺已太累　不懂支撐這身軀
彷彿思想也都渴睡　放棄道別了終需撤退
到了這裡心疼也特別碎　
有過一剎亦擦亮彼此生命裡　那可揮去

終於棲身這國土　終於只得背影在引路
透過佈滿掌心的線路　看到過去枕邊的赤道
那裡殮葬了有我的前途　那裡有我記挂過的領土
軟禁這裡我欠缺知覺嗎
最後閉上兩眼已遠去也覺淒怨吧　夢過嗎

來日察覺已太累　不懂支撐這身驅
彷彿思想也都渴睡　放棄道別了必需撤退
引領你那光線我願遇見　
你我交接在終點彼此生命線　瞬間終結

mr. number 7
我呢的悲觀愛情論
睇完只怕你會更沉重
雞年上年有桃花
我都有的同感
但奈何我每每都可以係一個星期內
搵到挑剔既地方
一個remediless long term commitment phobia patient
一個結左婚既對象
都可以係bisexual
但短期內會做第二次commitment既可能性偏低
= 無希望 <--- stage one
= 可以狠心叫自己死心 <--- stage two
= 解脫 + 機會搵新對象 <--- stage three
你想係邊個stage就睇你行唔行呢幾步啦

2005-03-11T09:20:00.000+08:00

勸人有說服力者
最成功莫過於以身作則
好處往往最具推動力
而過來人當然是最清楚
錯而未能改者但又能勸服別人
最基本都要大澈大悟
經歷過佇立所面對的痛苦
才有本事威嚇對象達至改變
眾所周知學無上止境
唯真正活到老學到老間
才知曉學習帶來的確切甜頭
深知學識不足所帶來的不便
就非學識不足者莫屬

根據觀察紀錄
不期然察覺到自己的說服力下降的趨勢
莫名其妙
可能近期圍繞的題目都是我自覺的弱點有關
要失戀的教育遲一星期失戀的十里內豈無芳草
要將失業的去勉勵已失業的努力搵工
要對前途如霧的指引畢業新生
仲………有無多的?
諗人地野反而倒勾起自己野
難怪尋日唔見電話都唔發矛
反而又搵得返
著緊唔著緊都不過如此

所以嘛
一口氣搞左兩個feedback幾好既functions
久違的鼓舞
因為我著緊而跟得足而成功
…原來我都仲識得著緊
玩到有埋evaluation form
都可能係我對dl既一種示威
要做
我係可以做得到做得好
就睇你駛唔駛得郁我
做到唯才是用用人不疑
有一排本來同正面同背脊無分別個頭好似s700i識180度轉既衰女大家有心病
打完場牌後就好似不愀不睬
仲覺得好似無咩可惜
過左斷時間大家無左件事就回復惜日既關係

而經過左呢段日子
發覺同佢係office真係唇寒齒亡
佢唔係office我個mail a/c收少10零廿封mail
離別在即
有的傷感

同部門有一個好可愛既同事
第一眼望完係唔會看穿佢成家立室到有個女
生完女仲咁高眺既身型
難為的未生過就成隻母豬既dl
對住佢難免自卑
相處差唔多3個月
因為工作範圍分開而無直接交流
要算我遞信前後先真正開始熟絡
佢同我大家真係守望相助
大家有野幫到對方既都會幫
背後有個人撐下既感覺
真係好一流
佢有一份細路女般的童真(尤其同dl對比)
做佢女女應該係咪應該好開心呢
做佢同事就一定會先

cyannie呢個位大師姐
份屬同門但佢既才華同成就係我用望遠鏡都望唔到
一個人自己run過一間公司
要叫我心服口服
尚早
專如電腦programming software到business上既operation procedure 語言急材
都令我拍案叫絕
短短一個月內我係佢身上學到既正路野一定比dl多
金鱗豈是池中物
你前程似錦之後一定要提攜我做你既social & welfare啦
你屋企比你既束縛令你變得短視
如果你有更多既時間去另覓良木而棲會更好

你地三個係我office返工時快樂既泉源
好希望大家仲有機會合作

近排有對小情人誕生左
希望佢地快快樂樂

收到UA張VIP咭
我依家擔心既係一個月四套戲唔夠我睇呢

近排好懶
的天氣比左好多藉口我自己
一見到自己半馬拉松overall 493時
1’41’04只能伙南亞籌得$150
開心完就憂心
僅僅有名同時間既証書當然令我開心
但同時憂慮往後的日子
如何再重拾唔返對跑步既熱誠
可能就唔再參加全馬
歲月不饒人
23歲就要有咁既體會
但我認為係熱誠所致
難得略有成就
我更唔會輕言放棄
只要我係泰拳同跑步間到平衡就應該無問題
回想比賽當日有咁多美景事
我下年都一定要繼續努力
小杰
唔駛多謝我份禮物
要你一早起身係終點等我等到個鼻紅哂
臭蹦蹦仲幫我做massage
專車接送
你就無謂借藉口又倒想約我食飯
你問到
我又點會唔奉陪 =)多謝你呀

beyond
我真係佩服得5體投地
02年林曉培之後就無企起身睇concert啦
當一隻隻比呀哥胎教既歌響起時
雙手就不能竭止
播放家驅生前的說話
很不知天高地厚大言不慚
越能彰顯出對音樂的熱誠
他那份幼氣深深打動了所有觀眾
家驅真的還在我心
成個concert一播有家驅時既歌的人就企
最後一連串beyond最為人熟悉既歌
更見萬人一致隨音樂揮手
隻精選cd同遲的個live cd都無唔買既藉口

<<鍋匠、裁縫、士兵、間諜>>
真係唔明點解搵到第二集榮譽學生同第三集
但係page one會同我講無賣過呢本書
好想睇呀
唔該哂你同你個朋友呀martin
估唔到chucky會嚇到你
唔好意思呀
無比你揀就要你睇呢埸戲
但我知佢一來真係笑片為主
二來…………有我陪你睇嘛
希望打機時真係無悶親你啦

執親屋都有思緒
有的悶人既感覺
快的比我放假
我好似已經等得好唔耐煩

小紅
好多謝你既留言
我知道出黎做野係有呢的問題
忍辱都要有重可負
但亦正如我咁講
呢份工於我黎講無咩前景可言
而dl佢承諾過會比機會我試既野
由請左pauline開始就明白係空口講白話
所以我先有咁既決定
唔係既話我都唔會捨得你地成班咁好玩既同事
多謝你
有咩幫到手一定要單聲
間間公司都會好歡迎你呢種咁盡責既職員

汪汪
要數我近排緊煩同
反而係好難約你
我明既
等你有時間先
我對上同今個比賽都用你比我條毛巾
好warm
好似有人係終點等我咁

Mr. No. 7
我真係對你唔住
咁都醒唔起你係邊個
知我既喜好工作甚至見過我(但你話我too thin就即係你未見過我著泳裝…唔…)
我有一晚為左諗你既身份
我走去list out我見過又有可疑既人
可惜都無個認
你真係令我百恩不得其解

我的文筆唔好
如果唔係我已經一心一意走去寫小說
有人話我的日遁太沉重
估唔到平時既我會有咁消沉既心底話
係咪太重所以沉得底而平時浮唔出黎比人睇
哈哈
另一位神秘人……….tigger

靚仔二寶
真係唔知你有睇呢
你成日都唔icq我
以為你見完之後唔想再傾添
你份工做成點呀

仲有無呀
有就話我知啦
多的人睇
我就會寫得密的架………….hehe~~~~

wicky
你媽咪叫我去你屋企拜年呀
又話上星期打唔到比你係咪我收埋左你
你返得黎未呀
仲有呀
打死你都唔好比佢地知我仲未搵到工呀
費事又逼我去你公司做

2005-03-11T09:19:00.002+08:00

我一直以為只有5個人會有定期睇我本日記既習慣
依家知道有第六個人
嘿
睇到留言時
我諗緊咁落去係咪仲會有第7位出現

正題
近排覺得好沉悶
經歷左好幾件事
平伏返的情緒之後
對以前評定為無關痛養既事都變得認真
演變成神經質
精神恍惚
一向精神分裂出既樂觀面忽然杳無音訊
每日都充斥住一份磞緊既感覺
工作比賽學業積存的壓力
E.Q. 一日一日下降
體重則不動聲色上升
心機越黎越少
壓力持續增長
抹煞掉笑容
漸漸由著緊變成逃避
每一通電話都考慮過濾後才接聽
將自己與人群劃開
盡可能與世無爭

唯獨一個貨真價實既八婆
好似冤鬼咁纏住黎咬
係我心情超差既情況下
不斷咁做的挑釁行為
不過我絕不承認乃一時衝動而請辭
以這份工作的前境性質而論
早走始終早著
無工一身輕
年少輕狂
都總算係一份浪漫
借呢個機會擺脫2004年的倒霉也不為過

wicky你返黎時我有個驚喜比你呀

2005-03-11T09:19:00.001+08:00

第七型：活躍型 (Adventurer)
活躍型的你，就是如此這般：樂觀、精力充沛、迷人、好動、貪新鮮、五時花六時變 …… 「最緊要玩得開心」就是你的生活哲學！你們很需要生活有新鮮感，所以很不喜歡被束縛、被控制。你的活力是玩的活力，又跟第三型的成就型又有所不同，相信你們是活動攪手，玩極唔厭！

不耐煩、衝動、上癮
好玩、享樂主義行頭的活躍型，做事欠缺耐性，因為你們都很怕悶。不耐煩之餘，也很易衝動行事，因第七型的朋友做事鮮有周詳計劃，很講即慶，想做就去做！

但你們必須要小心，就算遇上一種玩意、興趣你十分喜歡，也得學習不要沉迷下去！始終要顧及自己的身體及其他事情啊！ (我這樣說是因為第七型的人比其他型的人更上煙癮、毒癮、賭癮、或者打機癮等等等等，小心！ )

心情 high high 時
他們是典型外向的人，會不斷尋求挑戰、新刺激。由於他們喜歡玩樂，又不斷擴闊自己的生活圈子，所以可說是「相識滿天下」。這類人與朋友的相交未必會很深入，因為他們走在一起是因為吃喝玩樂，所以他們會相約一齊玩，但心事的分享交流則未必很多。

情緒 down down 時
由於活躍型的注意力都放在新奇好玩及刺激的事物上，他們普遍對身邊人的缺乏敏感度，對朋友之間的相知相交都流於膚淺，沒有興趣對自己和朋友內心的內心探求。

活躍型的朋友，你可能會發現，與你交識多年的朋友，也不太認識他的喜惡、想法。有這個情況嗎？想更多了解他們嗎？

朋友看你是
「百足咁多」、「好識得嘆」、「有他在的場合，會有很多笑聲」

提升有時努力努力
走向「五仔」，懂得自我克制，心思細密，會經過觀察和周詳的考慮才去作決定。

後退有時注意注意
就會像「一仔」一樣，人會變得專制，容易發怒，固執。

2005-03-11T09:19:00.000+08:00

收到上天數筆帛金
特別嗚謝BPI

塵埃終於落定
記掛你的日子
將之永恆

2005-03-11T09:18:00.000+08:00

雷有輝比聲既質感
比古巨基更勝一籌
翻唱歌一直比我感覺好差
但聽幾次雷有輝把聲
已經洗走左原唱把聲
我再諗起隻歌時
已經會響起佢把聲
淡淡的 R&B 味道
幾識合我既心情
試試"多謝失戀"
一人扮兩種feel既聲做得好出色
同溫嵐隻"愛你的兩個我"可比個長短
男仔要做到呢的效果會仲難

come on
我好樂意share佢地的mp3比你地聽
問我就可以啦
wicky
聽多的"爸爸"呢隻歌啦

有人話黃馨唱歌扮王菲
講完又真係覺得兩個都幾似
但似得黎都聽得出黃馨係勁
玩聲玩音樂感同技巧都出類拔粹
非主流既唱家班
一首"先知"盡顯功架
未到冷戰既level但都唔簡單
singing contest唱會好出眾
最expecting既一位女新人(出道不足三年的一群)

running in not part of my life
its my life indeed
跑完訓得少都仲好精神
痛還痛
咁先似做過運動
由12月中到依家
deadline去撥亂反正
繼續泰拳跑步既日子

工作中的不安
有很多channels去舒緩
同office35以下既男女同事大都有一手
以後有咩食都要預多的啦

呀ben
我真係唔知點好
見到我時你咁激動
係因為你想殺左呢個負心既我
抑或想講你仲好掛住我
連等你訓左先去裝下你都會比你得聞出我
要用webcam先睇到你
好辛苦呀
生離死別真係好辛苦呀
不如比我死啦....

2005-03-11T09:17:00.003+08:00

love actually
又陪我過多一個聖誕節
想佢成為我每個聖誕節既必做事宜
今次再睇
好似又多左幾對人
又多左的離合
襯返我既感覺

發現自己係private party fan多過public gather
最終選擇一個人跑下步過新年
為南亞死難者而沒有慶祝
不中，亦不遠矣
各人自有愁滋味
就算係一份表現
淡淡然戚戚然
又令我諗起聲聲慢

尋尋覓覓冷冷清清淒淒慘慘戚戚
乍暖還寒還寒時候最難將息
三杯兩盞淡酒怎敵他晚來風急
雁過也正傷心
卻是舊時相識滿地黃花堆積
憔悴損如今有誰堪摘
守著窗兒獨自怎生得黑
悟恫更兼細雨到黃昏點點滴滴
這次第怎一個愁字了得

狡狐
你估唔到你會有食唔到既野呢
其實我寧願你無咁大方
令到我真係好對.......你唔住
truly
對我好識配合我既天份
唔計天敵wicky chow
暫時捨你其誰
但個刻發生唔到既事
用返同一個理由既話
隨時間既侵蝕
再發生既機會只會越黎越細
無錯你係第一個突破到隻貓既1仔
我估唔到咁快就遇到添.....可能就係太快啦.......
噓.........唔講啦
做我一世既朋友好唔好？唔係就爹你架=p
多謝你呀
係我差小小精神錯亂之際捉得返實我既魂魄
不過我唔希望你有比我報恩既機會
以身相許既等你30歲有車有樓係asia week見到張x穎個名先=p

做一份工做到滑哂啞
時間感之長比真正OT仲辛苦
我無信心捱得到3月

2005-03-11T09:17:00.002+08:00

由第一隻大碟到依家都合作無間
周杰倫操刀作曲
主唱溫嵐
最新作品有祝我一個快樂

我知道傷心不能改變什麼　那麼　讓我誠實一點
誠實　難免有不能控制的宣洩
只要關上了門　不必理誰

一個人坐在空蕩包廂裡面　手機　讓它休息一夜
難　像切歌切掉回憶的畫面　眼淚不能不能流過十二點

生日快樂　我對自己說　蠟燭點了　寂寞亮了
生日快樂　淚也融了　我要謝謝你給的你拿走的一切

還愛你　帶一點恨　還要時間　才能平衡
熱戀傷痕　幻滅重生　祝我生日快樂

把這首歌的歌詞稍稍改變
會很適合今天用 (將所有生日改為新年)
我並不是說自己的處境很悲涼
反正是我的選擇而已
如無意外
我會跑住過渡04到05吧
送給你們的新年禮物
有這個組合之前的作品有北斗星，地獄天使，走，夏天の風…
天才R&B作曲家與很R&B的女聲配

新年快樂

2005-03-11T09:17:00.001+08:00

my mum is the one who reminds me of the cold weather this year
and I suddenly realized that there were SMSs to remind me last year and beyond
and the truth is that
the weather isn't really cold
at least I didn't put on Superwarm so far
I like the chilly wind passes me on
give me the kind of fresh feeling like a bottle of cold drink on the face
the time i still have you to hang out and hug

I have a better physical condition or its just an illusion?

keep winning in MJ these days. Quite happy

what would I say if.......you're not.......da one.......
would it be too cruel to do that after few months of time?

How to make it possible to live happily without hurting others
I want to be anything but ordinary

2005-03-11T09:17:00.000+08:00

the dreadful tsurami kills nearly 0.1 million people on earth.
a 0.0017% of the whole population in the world.
Honestly, I didn't feel sorry after the news since people around me are not involved.
and I regard this as a natural happening to control the population size
if all the natural disasters are vanished
the final way to stop the population grow will be wars without doubt
what's more tragic than seeing the dark elements like selfishness of human being
let the god(if there is any) to choose and probably those who are dead in this tragidy may go to heaven

your can do more if you don't believe in reincarnation
treat everything as the last chance that we have
that's what I've learnt in this christmas

Thank List

Dr. Stephen Sum : I love you so much. You've the best X'mas gift for me. I can't come up anything to express my cordial gratutide to you...thank you
Mum : You've put all the strawberries and mango in my salad...the taste is awful but the feeling is fabulous. thanks for entangle with me in not anticipatable ways that you come up with.
Au Pak : Your presents seldom let me disappoint (esp. this time right?? )
Ar Yee & K.S.: I want a new neckwear for a long time. but a leather neck string is much more important right now since I've two decos ready to put on my neck.
Ruby : You've got my first gift (as well as Au Pak I guess), they're too sweet, but very suitable in this X'mas. And you make me to realize that I have to seek for another instutite of Japanese.
All of you above, thanks for your participation in the camp, you set me free from the sorrow that I could hardly forgot. All the laughters, crab eggs, pumpkin pieces, scrabble, Kung Fu Style etc. make it a remarkable Christmas for me. Once again, I know I am lucky to have you guys as my friends, friends for life, right??
Bonnie : I got to say, your gift is a needle which pin my wound. However your smile and attitude smoothen that. I am sorry that I was too tired that night, but you are really good in discovering out joy for us. Watch out of your figure, there is a trend that you're losing your idiosyncrasy as Au Pak.
Keith : The towel is more surprising than the main present you've sent me. I like it very much and I will use them every time I need to.
James : Omg, you are so sweet. thanks so much for your sweater. I love orange, you're a nice buddy, but you gotta learn how to say no if necessary. lol
Pauline : You've bought me a gift that tempts me to spend extra money. I don't care about the effect it brings along. The smell of it is good enough.
Wicky: You've got me what I dreamt of as usual. Someday I would dream for a house probably...and I hope you'd like the gift I got for you as i do.
Danny : The value of the present doesn't simply rely on the price of it. I know how good you are to me, just take it easy anyway.
Macus : Hopefully that you didn't really get me a dog. Thanks for your sarcastic present which makes you owe me two more. huh!!

I just wish every one of you learn how to cherish every moment you enjoyed. Limited time for one life, don't lose any chance to do what you want to try. An ordinary life doesn't ensure you a happy one.

2005-03-11T09:16:00.003+08:00

分唔出係練習扭到感冒既緣故
抑或傷感都會整到個軀殼都好似無油既機械人
提起隻手都好似kick住左
連轉腰都變成高難度動作
運用唔到一丁點既意志力

訓左8個鐘
起身後
個腦淨係報告各神經組織監察到既不適都用左成個字
但唔柅成日告假
我睇黎要有的恆心去睇醫生
但係
病病地既感覺
好似令我的內疚感減低的的

原來我都有放唔低既野

我未折禮物
所以未知