Reason to move Episode I

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Fear blasted out when the posterman came, the amplified pumping actions just lost its control, consequening a very long torture

I almost forgot why I had to move my diary here
open diary is definitely a channel for distant friends to update you from time to time, but there is hesitation whether or not to write something very deep and genuine. Some say that I should own 2 diaries, hell, then I'd better really write than type.

Almost overwheled by the boredem, I kept on thinking what my future should be. Shall I be happy ending up in a bizman? Faking out on the phone without knowing how freaky the one maybe on biz? I like to see something alive, face to face dialogue and interactive conversation with facial expressions. Customer Service & Sales, they are what I would like to work for finally. The presistent hunting of mkt work maybe a proof of my super-ego. Of cuz, ending up as an inspector may not be ideal after hearing the gossip, but I have to feed my curious

To comprehend such a simple stuff wouldn't have to kill so many days, I've a schedule of "unemployment weekday" sarcasticly and I tried all my best to fit into to. It works, and more sarcasticly that I was not able to attend any interview for christ sake. Rugby, gout...just like the menstruation once a year, of cuz the period of time will last longer on ratio to the frequency.

You recognize my flaw now? I was supposed to write the reason for moving and I didn't intent to give in preface. Let's get it straight, Keith. Keith, the guy I dumped and miss in intervals. Having realized the value of competition might bring along, I missed him badly to the point that I wanted him back after he told me that he has engaged into a new relationship.

Sure we have had sweet time, those good memories push us to lingered for a year of time and amazingly that I haven't cut off cleanly with him, with the violation of the practice to trade off the feeling of guilty and to minimize the impact of splite up. Tragical to see him giving up his life, I avoided to get involved into new relationships before him despite the loss to miss my perfect match Siu Kit. Nothing meant more than Keith at that time but I just simply lack of confident to be his bf, or I'm too confident that I would fuck up again.

Since you might notice, I wrote online diary cuz I wanted to report my current life with him indirectly, just like exchanging diary, we wrote for each other like a dialogue or a letter. We were pretty close to pairing up again that time but I didn't dare and bare to.

He is a simple and adorable sweetie, cute yet masculine, gentle and polite, respectful, easy-going and generous. He has kindest attitude and pretty smile running down of my list of x. He is not materialistic, nor picky (that's why he chose me, the worst decision he has had made in his life), all he demands is my time and concentration which nail me right the clout. I can give all I process except freedom, and loyalty to him. I just couldn't suppress the itching thought in crashing different guys like a slut. Terrible and synpathetic. tbc...