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朝三暮四朝秦暮楚陽奉陰違居心叵測摧枯拉朽抱殘守缺沽名釣譽 以上皆為Hugo Lau的陰暗面 為防被虛偽的表面所蒙蔽 特設這本日記 披露此君脆弱的心靈 懇請各位看倌小心

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Confession

nelson
對不起,不單因為我想保留現在的關係
還要為對感覺到還乍傻而道歉
還得向你道謝
不單是你對我的錯愛和關懷
還要因你令我醒覺過來而向你言謝
早前跟你談及的男孩子
他正正用我對待你的方式來應付我
總是小心奕奕
保持距離
思前想後
我也不敢再口說放棄心不息
一年之約我還是會堅守
但會是為自己出發而非他人

我嘛
很容易自我陶醉
但又心大心細猶豫不決
最終進退失據白難過
往後時常會為當初不表態而暗心酸
但之後又重蹈覆轍沒完沒了
經常分不清朋友間的互相尊敬與愛慕之情
最後為了保護自己
往往愛不來就轉身躲
埋怨為世所迫朋友緣差
乾羨慕朋友一大堆的人不知寂寞為何物

數得出的缺點豈止這幾個
唯一讓我自豪的
是你們對我不離不棄
還望大家體諒不完美的我
多多提點
成為我永遠的驕傲

16 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

無野呀
你係衰就唔會有我地啦
唔好諗埋一邊呀
識你6年都未聽過你咁唏噓
電話度又唔覺你有野
見到你仲開心過我地
成日都係咁
有咩都收埋

唔該你寫多的日記呀
我地都唔想問米或者催眠去問你野呀
死仔

你係我地既hero呀
死你都要死得轟烈的呀

4:14 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

到我到我
我想見下個男孩子囉
睇下佢點可以搞到你無哂自信
你都見過好多人啦
佢真係要好過人先有咁既本事喎...
我知講唔到的咩去安撫你
有都係你對我地講過好多次既說話
你醒唔起就打黎問下我地啦

唔好傻啦!!

4:19 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

係咪因為唔開心
所以寫得咁流暢??
先旨聲明
我唔係贈興呀.......

你有咩搵我啦
我always standby
stand by you too!!

12:09 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

有無你講到咁嚴重呀
人人都會犯架啦
你唔駛將所有罪攬哂上身喎
聖人咩

無人對你要求咁高
放鬆的呢 朋友

不過有呢份醒覺係好既
我都想見證一個聖人既誕生
你不妨去盡的
唔拖唔水既就不如同我地一齊墮落算啦

12:15 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh come on sweetie
what's up to you

Feel like you've fallen off from a deep cliff
how can I share it with you?
please don't reject my call
I want you to be happy and please give me the chance to take care of you

you know I am always there to listen to you and comfort you

1:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

點呀
甘唔甘呀
我可以比到的甜蜜你嘛??

2:06 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Seems that I couldn't be a silent reader this time. Dear I am so sad to see my purest little angel unhappy and disappointed. You might think that you are not doing good enough in everything, that's because you have a high standard, not because you are not good enough. Its great if you can find room to improve, but don't try to porlong the unhappy feeling and generate more negative bugs. you are the best guy I have ever met believe me dear, though you have left me, but I know that its good for both of us.
Love

1:48 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

嘩Nelson你有無顧過nelson既感受架
你受左傷
人地都一樣比你hurt左
你咁開人名唔覺得有問題咩

仲以為自己好識諗

4:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Worry about you
Should I come around and see what has happened?
I would be at your side no matter how you have changed as I am god damn confident that I can convert you back to the Hugo Boss that I know

6:21 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't see any problem to mention Nelson here, as originally Hugo already wanna share all his feeling in his HOME page. Anyway, to love someone always need BIG guts. Hugo, u see many friends support you, you should be proud of them :O)

11:30 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

巴之閉
有人你又唔吼
係要溝的人間極品
又要提心吊膽無guts
扮咩可憐丫

3:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

3:04 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

as long as he is enjoying his life, happy with what he has chosen, this is more important than anything. it's not a sad thing that he rejected nelson. however, it's a good sign that he discovered what he wants and set a goal for himself. I guess everyone of his frds would like to see him being himself all the time, rather than having a mask on his face. I wish ya luck and support ya all the time

9:18 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

唔好幸災樂禍好
有報應嫁

每個人總有失落既時候
唔駛苦苦相逼既

我總相信好心有好報
起碼自己心安理得

2:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey hey hey calm down everyone
seems it would be a bit off topic if u guys keep going on

think about it
that's a diary of hugos and we want to say something to him here but to quarrel

let the negative opinions stay as long as they are true
hugo himself will filter
don't worry about him
he is tough and mature enough to handle it well like the way he handles his colleagues and chief don't you think?

I just wanna ask whether Mr Hugo Lau has nothing or out of mood to write here
Its been a long long time and I want to hear what's going on like everyone here does

4:50 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Absoultely right Ricky. Hopefully Hugo will show up and share with us soon.

12:54 PM  

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