9月的炎夏??

你越係唔諗就越會有機會
個個都係咁講
但我就不嬲唔信
我的6合彩鑊鑊都差的洗鬼左啦...夠唔上心啦掛
又唔見中!!!
所以覺得唔上心會中
係因為每次你唔掛心既時候中左
所以驚喜到你會上心啫
就等如你趕時間就會發現的唔岩你搭既巴士係你眼前泣泣揚揚分別激你咁
根本你唔趕既時候都有的咁既事啦
你趕而又咁岩有車你又會覺得理所當然而無一回事

不過呢...真係無諗過csd個preliminary interview咁都pass...
果時都話
如果咁都入到written test
我真係會好質疑的applicant既質素...
我都唔識答佢地的問題...

是但
既然係咁
我本來打算唔去海關個interview
而家就唔好同自己作對啦
死都試下先
打比connie同amanda8下先得...唔知仲見唔見到果好nice既男仔呢

好緊張呀
10個鐘內我就知結果啦
唔知有無offer呢
唔知有無12k呢...
有就好啦~~~

聽日話你知啦
我知我做milk都開心既
起碼我知哂的野係點run丫...

呢幾日呢...好似好幸福咁
有好體貼同岩傾既男仔同我食飯
哈哈
我特登山長水遠去食餐好ordinary既茶餐廳
但人少少
呢的平淡既日子好奇妙
分開行但都仲想聽到佢把聲
(當然我都知自己的3分鐘...啦...)

係啦係啦
我認我個calendar已經去到9月啦
9月中就會係搵到工既日子
之後就...safari...哈哈

三個月啦~~

好啦
星期六將會係我告別呢個悠長假期既第一步
亦係決定我會係milk度繼續一星期六日半定係係mcl度大展拳腳
據我理解mcl果邊唔會質疑我既能力
最大既死穴都係我個record啦...
不過回想起呢份工都真係波折重重
一開始封cover letter address左第二間公司
而個preliminary interview又好有火藥味
咁都仲捱到去final
喜出望外


話說因為某人心來潮血
咁就係星期六晚搞左個party敘舊
而某人果晚雖然全程都在場
但就由10點開始傾左4個鐘電話
出席既人個個都屌哂鬼
都幾不負責任同有異性無記性
但既然呢次係佢23年來既初次主動追女仔(對上果次長達5年既初戀係女仔主動呀陰公)
見到呢個好大頭蝦同自己都照顧唔同既肥仔咁投入
為左佢朝思暮想心神恍惚
真係打從心底咁戥佢高興
亦同時希望有朝一日我會好似佢咁
識到一個自己好放縱咁去愛既人
Wicky
我真係好保護自己
話就話係唔想有咩事會忍唔住麻煩到朋友
實質係唔敢比自己係愛情上面失去尊嚴
甚至依家企圖隱藏自己對近在眼前咫尺可碰既佢既感情
真係愚不可及
究竟我係咪自我虐待
唔想自己有幸福呢


好醜呀
我竟然同的咁低手既方式避人....
phobia of ... 唉

我咁大個仔都係第一次曬到咁傷
成個人好似岩岩出爐既紅腸
比毛巾被刮到都痛醒
都唔知係咪要慶幸自己的皮膚對太陽有反應
好痛呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recent Honor of Hong Kong

精英大帥輸左
好似有的遺憾
我唔賭馬
但見到佢有輝煌既成就
就一廂情願想佢既成就可以延績
漠視佢所承受既壓力

我真係一個好小器既人
完全唔識得點去欣賞認同及讚美別人的成功
識挑剔人但又無創造性
好民主派呀~~點算好...


近排睇到范曉萱既自傅
講到前男友周浚偉
幫佢過渡佢人生最低沉既時期之餘
打消佢自殺既念頭
引述書中一段︰
「我對佢兇一點，他就對我更好一點，幹麼要這樣...？」
我打從心底渴望有一個機會去飾演周浚偉既角色
就算會得到范曉萱既對待都仲係咁堅定
係...扭曲既愛情
但可以愛情至上而勇往直前
我真係想拍一次刻骨銘心既拖

但可能你講得岩既...以我固執既性格同高傲囂張既態度
又真係...點係個湖度撈到月亮

搵到份工又有好多變數
即管又投入下係工作度先
大不了咪繼續呢種單身生活...

catherine.....

開左個email a/c
兩個月先check一次
竟然有汪汪既email
好似拍戲果的橋段
right thing at the wrong time
仲要今日果集創世紀
講到呀添係機場送別Helen
呀添的對白
好似係我起稿咁
而Helen既對白
又會唔會係汪汪既心聲呢??
真係唔想有呢日出現


原來F.I.R的歌幾有意義
好少咁積極去記國語歌詞
真係佢地的歌好得
定係個concert stand alone既影響

不過呢
果晚最豐盛既收穫
一定係美若天仙既孫燕姿
求下你快的黎香港開concert啦

陶吉吉有隻歌叫catherine
我想將佢個名改做keith

catherine
或者我的愛
真的不夠了不起
都沒有好好愛你...

self-examination/soul searching...whatsoever

So now half of my ex boy friends who I regarded myself devoting during time have decleared the same complaint
and i bet there should be one more without the necessatation to prove
what's wrong with me?
did i turn myself completely into another person right after the relationship?
i thought i've emphasized that the cut off of contact doesn't mean curelty
but even worse
i was told that i am arrogant when the deceiving mist of romance has been blown away
what have i done to build up the image
just because i am the one who suggested to break?
look
i didn't try to propose an arguement
i just want to find out the causes so as to improve
am i faking a nice guy every time i start loving someone?
god i just dunno what should i do
who to love
how to love
and what is love...