沉默的魔術師

朝三暮四朝秦暮楚陽奉陰違居心叵測摧枯拉朽抱殘守缺沽名釣譽 以上皆為Hugo Lau的陰暗面 為防被虛偽的表面所蒙蔽 特設這本日記 披露此君脆弱的心靈 懇請各位看倌小心

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Location: Sheung Wan, Hong Kong

Emotional freedom addicted I am

Monday, March 28, 2005

Origin

Emperor Resorts International

I was almost enchanted to work for this immorale company
Keep your eyes on it
Don't ever trust in a single word of their staff
There is never such a good treat in reality
Especially in the sophisticated city as Hong Kong
Thank you for letting me dream for 2 days
Without you
I wouldn't try to think about having a career in this field
You've lightened me up for 2 days bastard

Well...it is not boring to be ground at home but guilty, having heavy diet with such a low metabolic rate
the news of the public swimming pools will start to run again in April doesnt' give me a strong intention to get back into water, cuz I have difficulty to make decision right in the middle of thai boxing and rugby. I want to try some sort of team sports for a long long time. Would it be a right time to interfere?

So glad to meet all of you again, I know you all are very and always nice to me. So happy and enjoying to had you back with me for a short night, and make sure that we'll hang up for a dessert buffet. Quite a few hotels are offering it so let's pick up one from them.

原點 孫燕姿/蔡健雅
.....................................
最後還是回到了原點

Let me explain...

我曾經是一個非常敏感的人
對身邊的風吹草動都鉅細無遺
但過份敏感變本加厲
很容易出現妄想
更甚至自作多情
最終身心疲累
預科一役學乖了
以後都以視而不見為原則
不論多明顯都不以為然
不管是逃避還是自我保護

你的錯愛
我只能衷心感激
希望你不要以為我應酬才這樣說
但你真的deserve一個比我更認真對待感情的男朋友
我比較適合既係孤獨

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Black Sunday

I would consider myself being punished by the god if I haven't met you
There is the element of sea in my name
but why I am so terrified by it?
let's see
mobile this time...god sake...is this flaw fated to be with me for the rest of my life?


http://www-1.expo2005.or.jp/tcn/index.htm
好想去呀

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Fuck the ass

What's that supposed to mean
Am I really look so FOREIGN??
Why the hell you think that I would pay you to take a photo of me with the victoria habour as backgroud?

X)*)*W#@(*)#%@AR)FI)_A(F_(#$)*#%)2rk


A very warm dinner in Joey Ma's home
and not surprised that she has 2 handsomes kids
so happy to see so many people
i know much more about them after i've left the company
sacastic yet lovely

Friday, March 18, 2005

1 day before 1 month for being unemployed

好過埋聽日就一個月啦
等自己以為搵工咁易丫啦
不過都叫做嘆左一個月
否則我未必會跑到馬拉松
仲有時間睇咁多inspiring既戲
考督察s
見識到卑鄙無良既僱主
攞美國visa
見返好多班好耐無見既朋友

未搞清楚的督察s post要幾耐process之前的心態幾衰
有電話打黎叫去interview時成日會諗"死啦,唔好請我住呀..."
宜家都有的後悔個下年少輕狂呀,s700i
聽到你濕哂未呀~~
不過是但啦
反正屋企不嬲都錫我
依家自己都開始比自己壓力
咁就試下睇下點啦
聽日又有interview啦
custom service, 是但in住先
無收入都幾痛苦


關係全香港人既民生
董建華以健康為由辭職
總叫順應民意下台
普遍對他的主觀評語階為過大於功
八萬五致命政策自毀政途

無疑民生皆以經濟角度考慮政治取向
如非遇上經濟金錢問題又怎能駛得政治冷感的香港人上街
中產公務員夾心階層一眾業界無一幸免
大律師公會上街算是個別
因為他們維護的是被人大釋法所衝擊的法治權威
至於7.1 50萬人上街
又有幾多係知道23條具體內容

真正被指為香港的民主進程受阻的事件
由始至終都只有0708普選及23條
勉強加上罷黜特首
也不知道應怎樣佩服民主派的歪道
令外界甚至香港人都認為自己活在強權下
但回想受惠於自由行及cepa
最關心的經濟才見起息
點解可以計人地對自己唔好既野但又永遠唔記人地對自己好既事
好比父母對自己經濟支援下
點都應該有某程度上既約束掛
依家特首都換左
但都仲有人要為左請辭理由及過程去挑釁煽動
達成目標後都仲不滿
唯一解釋係由始至終都無當過名義上既目標為目標囉
呢的咪就係添煩添亂既好代表
再講
澳門都有賭博事業支撐經濟
香港??
以前讀社會或者econ時既製造業出入口優勢呢的通通都煙消雲散
英國政府係撤出前已經吸乾吸淨
經濟轉型係一個何等艱鉅的任務
大家心知
董建華及其班子在收拾呢的爛攤子都係鞠躬盡瘁
7年放得52日假
僅僅多過7日勞工假期3日
你班人如果唔係吹毛求疵
就一定係為恐天下不亂
民主派既特色
咪就係只破壞不建設
董建華
我為一你的殞落而抱憾
..........
........
......
...

完畢
講返的輕鬆的既
Lemony Snicket's a Series of Unfortunate Events
一眾小演員絕對無比jim carrey獨樹一幟
為我地呢班看倌帶來歡樂
Klaus個樣好成熟同學院派
如何大個唔走實比威廉皇子更權威
Violet個樣好公仔
仲以為係唔多野講既冷漠型
點知原來係一個charm type
我都幾鐘意佢
拜jim carrey既奸所賜劇情緊湊過the day after tomorrow
佢只係一個children story所改編
可見script writter同directing既力量
This is a marvelous movie because every parts have performed their duties and done a good job
No one is worship for the credit but the whole crew
Gotta see it guys
there's no point for all of you to miss it no matter how old you are

http://www.unfortunateeventsmovie.com/main_flash.html

再講多套
今次係本年度首個drama
由劉燁及袁泉主演既琥珀

原來我的普通話偏向應用能力
日常應對都可以聽到9成
但一聽到個play入面文藝對白就死啦
無信心唔睇字幕
僅僅聽得到2至3成...唔開心, cruel reality

咁多個藝人淨係識得劉燁
以前睇過佢兩套戲
一套唔駛多講大家都知係藍宇啦
另一套係戀之風景
兩套既佢都係咁心地好好既純情傻小子
一個sweet boy next door type
自始就定左佢係呢一型既演員
呢一個drama就比佢一口氣推翻哂
演花花公子一角入木三分
感覺好真實
毫無破綻
出口成文口花花氹人個tone真係好想.........比佢氹
理性咁睇都好佩服佢可以一口氣唸出洋洋千字對白
無間斷食字過
當然呢個唔係單單佢既專利
劇中所有演員都係咁爐火純清
不過佢真係好帥
能夠演活廖一梅心中最有興趣既vulerable don juans
影帝. 實至名歸

當然
整個production都係好專業
編劇天馬行空
將無厘啦更既野炒出一碟令人食指大動既佳餚
導演鬼斧神工
將所有十數個角色性格擴展
將每一個角色都印入觀眾腦海
$220睇得清清楚楚 (好過紅館既200好多多)
仲有本幾有內涵既場刊
雖然miss左都唔會有人話我知我有幾大損失
但我都仲好慶幸無miss到呢個drama

當然
我既眼睛仲係盯緊25 march
好努力咁係度背歌詞

呢幾日都仲係咁
唔知點解無野做但的時間仲係herher聲咁過
但我好想有收入
雖然無野做個人無咩購買意欲
無long term咁睇呢一日總會返黎
或者真係要騎牛
as I was told, don't drop the anchor here.......good english mum

Which movie you would like to see most

A. Lemony Snicket's Series of Unforunate Events
B. Hitch
C. Million Dollar Baby
D. 後備甜心
E. Son of the Mask

Do you feel sympathetic for Mr Tung

A. Yes
B. Little Bit
C. Neutral
D. Not At All
E. He deserves a death sentence

How do you feel about Democracy Party in this issue?

A. Die Hard Fans
B. They help me a lot
C, What's that
D. Disappointing
E. Nasty Gems

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Test

Q.39 Idenitfy the psychosis from the following syndrom

An instability of self image, relationship and mood, uncertainty about goal, impulsive in activities that are self-damaging such as promiscuous sex, social constrariness and a generally pressimistic attitude are often observed.

A. Pseudologia Fantastica
B. Borderlined Personality Disorder
C. Schizophrenia
D. ESP
E. Delusional (Paranoid) Disorder

Monday, March 14, 2005

My muse


Faye under my arrangement
Originally uploaded by nikexstussy.
One of my greatest artistic production. Never ever I have spent so much time on poster

Saturday, March 12, 2005

開張大吉

一日內比人截一舖糊再食左多舖自摸詐糊
真係丟架
為左呢份工走去申請visa
報名補鐘
最應係turn down左另一個offer
依家一無所得
頂丫~~


註定要我做inspector
過渡期間俾多的心機搵過份~~哼

呀媽都講得岩
幫人就義不容辭
自己屋企連碗都懶得洗
都唔知係收錯signal搞到自作多情
無啦啦比人錫左淡
驚都未驚完喜都黎不及就聽到句"sorry,的感覺怪怪地"
我仲一齊say埋sorry

識左年幾有多
個底唔起自己都浮哂上面
但每次見到佢個種彬彬有禮既態度
就會誘惑到感性串謀詐騙理性
唉......

點解每次你都crack到我most inner part
但係你認唔認同有時唔問好的
我都想呃到你
但你呢方面又好清醒喎
唔講你知
係唔想多一個人唔開心
而你又有意無意問同一個問題
你唔開口講
的deadair都好會產生幻聽咁
再落去我會因為內疚而唔再敢同你來往呀...

諗返起
好想講返馬拉松單野

首先係...好開心有肥姨姨接我
仲幫我係眾目睽睽下 sofu sofu~~~哈哈
但又累你同時間無左兩個朋友
sorry呀
將我既快樂建築係你既快樂度

做到均速控制
跑得哂全程
真係喜出望外
仲要有力係last5k去放出黎
真係爽爆
有個呀叔早我成4-500米放但都係比我追返過喎
係咪好叻仔先
雖然個ranking係我咁多公開賽中最差 4:07:xx (1078/3000)
但見到所有10k/21k的record
就明白所有跑得既人都跑哂全馬
第一次
我甘心...(但通常第一次個result係...最好................)
落雨係清馬大橋上面真係凍到想搶人的衫著
但係其實咁既天氣反而有利做好成績
對鞋好似濕水海綿
每步都有水噴出黎urggg..............

仲有呀
食左成個月份量既kitkat
見到的人點自私唔顧人
亦都見到守望相助既情景
的畫面都係好靚
本來話過今次跑得哂我就唔會再玩
但睇黎我...又會朝令夕過啦

哈哈
27/02/2005
memorable day

Friday, March 11, 2005


summer Posted by Hello

Inspector Exam

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

10 March

All of a sudden I have 2 offer on hands...which one should I choose?? tbc...

9 March

I have much stronger motivation in seeking a new job after the mystery exam. Finally I take up my determination and wrote a sincere tailored cover letter. I have already made the mistake in the written exam that I put all my ideas into the reply of complaint letter, the tone of the memorized frame, however, is not really match with my writing style. Hoping there will be some positive feedback this time. The interview I had today was going well, but I don't like the HR manager as he seems to share the same blood of DL. haha...

8 March

I wouldn't feel surprising if you told me either I have passed or failed in all the papers attempted in the written examination of inspector, not only the criteria to pass has not been told but also the paper are neither a piece of cake nor hard as hell. The average performance will probably be used to determine the passing line. Although I have no idea about the level of other candidates, most of them I heard are coming from HKU or CU....sigh.
On the other hand, however, I really wonder how many percent of people may pass the physical examination if it is going to be part of the examinations today. As far as I observed, over 50% of male candidates are chubby, and one thrid of them should be categorized as obese...I was lucky to dress in tie and shirt as other 70% of crowd do, it is meaningless somehow, but it has ease the feeling of nervous and anxious for me.
I suddenly reminded of the old days when I was sitting few minutes before the exam to start, I was always calm when attempting the exam as I know the key to ease myself, best performance comes with relax mind. There is nothing to lose in case I have messed them up afterall. But it doesn't work this time, I wonder whether I am really interested about this job as such, or I am just worrying about my language standard, capabilities...
Appetitude test is never just testing you common sense, I supposed only the groups who have attended the Mathematics lesson know the answer of Mean Median and Mode...fuck up. Anyway... God bless me (though I dun know which god I'm referring...)

The fastest way to get to causeway bay from Hong Kong South. Well, Wallabee is really a pair of good shoes in talking about walking for a long distance. I felt extremely comfortbale to walk uphill from 黃竹坑 to 黃泥涌 for an hour with them on my feet. And I saw an angel instructing the traffic with a lighting stick when I walked across the international school, no kidding, she's sssoooooooooo charming that I couldn't keep my eyes off her.

Its has been a long time I haven't been to 藍塘道. Its rare to find that style of street in Hong Kong now. Without sky building blocking the vision, you may enjoy the scene and the yellowish sun ray of dawn outside 2-floor houses. That would be my dream house rather than a extravagant lobby with marble and gold-plating lift...Vintage is more preferred than luxury.

I have 2 唐Sisters of Taiwanese/Taiwanian. They are REALLY REALLY CUTE. According to my friends who have seen them before, we all agree on the issue that they are natural borned to be dedicated and feminine, the cosmetic they used is a manner rather than artificial. So bringing them out is like bringing 2 kids, you'll pay extra attention to them and they will stick on you like chewing gums. They are feebleminded especially in shopping but very considerable and easy going. I miss them so much and whenever I see them, I will be extremely happy. We are tuned to be together lei. hahaaha.

義工呢的野好似話做就有得做咁
尋晚跑步跑到炮台山既時候
有個小朋友係美華氐附近喊得好緊要
睇佢細細個好似得三四歲
就走過去睇下佢係唔係整親
佢隻大眼仔"稍"到我行近佢
就喊得仲大聲的
我細細聲咁問佢做咩一個人呀
但因為氣喘關係
我講到好斷斷續續
佢就反而唔驚我
仲覺得好得意咁笑 (笑我!!!!!!)
作死佢丫

見佢笑返
我就整的古靈精怪既樣嚇下佢
我一直以為佢係男仔嘛
原來係個幾細膽既女仔
又搞喊返佢.........黎賤

我跑步咩都無帶
記得到既電話
有條件幫到我而我又唔怕麻煩到既人都寥寥無幾
係等小杰果20分鐘
小女孩都係唔多出聲
問佢想去邊就答我迪士尼樂園
海邊的風越吹越寒
但約實左小杰又唔無得改地點等
等到小杰黎到我已經病病地
個小女孩都係唔想講自己的事
我又唔想搜佢個袋
小杰突然間個高飛狗公仔出黎
小妹妹即刻笑逐顏開
正正式式講既第一句說話
就係我好肚餓.......
唯有帶佢去灣仔間24麥當勞食野
小妹妹果然識貨
成程都"che"實靚仔果個
買野食就叫我去買.........
好似我真係佢呀哥咁駛
小杰就不論仔定女都咁熟手
係講左好多校園生活之後
6歲既陳尉欣小妹妹除左連體重都寫左出黎比我地睇之外
仲寫埋屋企地址添thanks god
成點幾兩點鐘終於可以擺脫呀小妹妹既魔掌
成靚妹臨走淨係同小杰講byebye靚仔小杰哥哥
當我透明...........
仲要比小杰得得戚戚咁話我小器無愛心
我...真係無言......
你個friend都唔知係咪同你夾埋
見到一個跑步打扮既0靚仔
一個斯斯文文既靚仔再加個攬住隻公仔既小妹妹
話有溫馨既感覺
你快的教返岩佢正確既解釋呀
我都唔明你駛唔駛比埋隻公仔個衰妹
上埋契丫笨~~~
不過我都呃左你件外套~~hehe
唔該哂你
明知打比你你實幫我
但始終覺得好神奇
一次又一次咁延續我既希望
唉~~~可惜~~~~


wicky tsui你呢個人真係好討厭
面皮厚過防彈玻璃
夠膽搵我的friend過橋
你因住黎!!!!!!!!!!!!!!賤人
我真心向天立誓
我唔會再比你玩弄我僅餘的童真

生日快樂呀cyannie
我儘左我能力去將今日變成你係BPI工作中最美好既一日
希望你會認同啦

不過個代價都好大呀
係咪呀s700i

捐血既感覺真係好好
的姑娘好似睇戲果的日本人
好多野都可以令佢地笑逐顏開
由於係臨收工先同au pak去捐血
所以都多人
但咁多人都竟然無人係O型血
個senior的一知道我係就好開心咁同我講
「你的血捐比bb做centrifuge啦,哈哈哈哈」
好似我生左個bb係仔果隻咁興奮
不過因為咁我捐少100cc
唔~~希望唔會害左的bb啦
我的blood platelet唔係咁effectively fucntion
捐完血又想做的義工
想真真正正咁回饋下社會
make life more meaningful

睇左一套傳統講HipHop Jazz Dancing既勵志片
戲入面個主角叫Honey Daniel
擁有一副好bright既面孔
嘴角向上微彎
經常保持住笑容
跳得當然有板有眼
比model更均勻既身段
仲有佢係戲入面曇花一現既 one length
一舉手一投足都好性感
一個anticipative既後輩
多謝小杰既推介
你真係深知我心 =)
就扯平返你陪唔到我睇既罪啦
你包得起我
我一世唔搵野做都得
但before that我都係鐘意駛自己錢多的啦

Martin
多謝你呀
好耐無人為我做的咁既事啦
搵唔到都唔緊要
...................................................當然搵到會仲好啦.........hehehe
咁下次我約你出黎淨係打機好唔好
哈哈~~~

今次輪到avril lavigne開演唱會
MOST EXPECTING!!!!!!
雖然係第30行
但能夠睇佢live show
$780 又何妨
我要將佢的歌詞背熟哂先入場睇

juno係我用得上愛呢個字既男歌手
佢御用製作人jerald更加應記一功
silly thing既PR係另類既成功
大寶甚有nigo既風範
但願他有野心替香港時裝反攻日本市場

怎樣棲身這國土 怎麼只得記憶在引路
眼見發“金秀”萎曲的鐵路 似要襯托身邊這片墓
這裡殮葬了有我的前途 這個我太記掛你的領土
軟禁這裡我卻感覺到
每夜閉上兩眼也會聽見你的腳步 夢到

頭上永掛那信念 終可高攀你身邊
多想不經意的見面 那怕道別角色可有變
引領你那光線我未遇見 
我卻 堅信另一邊彼此生命線 有天交接

怎麼一生愛過的 都只可於記憶內醞釀
厭棄鏡裡那灰色對象 把不得將身軀都轉讓
蓋過我那片百尺冰雪裡 有你我錯過了那點雨水
滲透這季節有我的變化
最後閉上兩眼已遠去也覺淒怨吧 夢過嗎

來日察覺已太累 不懂支撐這身軀
彷彿思想也都渴睡 放棄道別了終需撤退
到了這裡心疼也特別碎 
有過 一剎亦擦亮彼此生命裡 那可揮去

終於棲身這國土 終於只得背影在引路
透過佈滿掌心的線路 看到過去枕邊的赤道
那裡殮葬了有我的前途 那裡有我記挂過的領土
軟禁這裡我欠缺知覺嗎
最後閉上兩眼已遠去也覺淒怨吧 夢過嗎

來日察覺已太累 不懂支撐這身驅
彷彿思想也都渴睡 放棄道別了必需撤退
引領你那光線我願遇見 
你我交接在終點彼此生命線 瞬間終結

mr. number 7
我呢的悲觀愛情論
睇完只怕你會更沉重
雞年上年有桃花
我都有的同感
但奈何我每每都可以係一個星期內
搵到挑剔既地方
一個remediless long term commitment phobia patient
一個結左婚既對象
都可以係bisexual
但短期內會做第二次commitment既可能性偏低
= 無希望 <--- stage one
= 可以狠心叫自己死心 <--- stage two
= 解脫 + 機會搵新對象 <--- stage three
你想係邊個stage就睇你行唔行呢幾步啦

勸人有說服力者
最成功莫過於以身作則
好處往往最具推動力
而過來人當然是最清楚
錯而未能改者但又能勸服別人
最基本都要大澈大悟
經歷過佇立所面對的痛苦
才有本事威嚇對象達至改變
眾所周知學無上止境
唯真正活到老學到老間
才知曉學習帶來的確切甜頭
深知學識不足所帶來的不便
就非學識不足者莫屬

根據觀察紀錄
不期然察覺到自己的說服力下降的趨勢
莫名其妙
可能近期圍繞的題目都是我自覺的弱點有關
要失戀的教育遲一星期失戀的十里內豈無芳草
要將失業的去勉勵已失業的努力搵工
要對前途如霧的指引畢業新生
仲………有無多的?
諗人地野反而倒勾起自己野
難怪尋日唔見電話都唔發矛
反而又搵得返
著緊唔著緊都不過如此

所以嘛
一口氣搞左兩個feedback幾好既functions
久違的鼓舞
因為我著緊而跟得足而成功
…原來我都仲識得著緊
玩到有埋evaluation form
都可能係我對dl既一種示威
要做
我係可以做得到做得好
就睇你駛唔駛得郁我
做到唯才是用用人不疑
有一排本來同正面同背脊無分別個頭好似s700i識180度轉既衰女大家有心病
打完場牌後就好似不愀不睬
仲覺得好似無咩可惜
過左斷時間大家無左件事就回復惜日既關係

而經過左呢段日子
發覺同佢係office真係唇寒齒亡
佢唔係office我個mail a/c收少10零廿封mail
離別在即
有的傷感

同部門有一個好可愛既同事
第一眼望完係唔會看穿佢成家立室到有個女
生完女仲咁高眺既身型
難為的未生過就成隻母豬既dl
對住佢難免自卑
相處差唔多3個月
因為工作範圍分開而無直接交流
要算我遞信前後先真正開始熟絡
佢同我大家真係守望相助
大家有野幫到對方既都會幫
背後有個人撐下既感覺
真係好一流
佢有一份細路女般的童真(尤其同dl對比)
做佢女女應該係咪應該好開心呢
做佢同事就一定會先

cyannie呢個位大師姐
份屬同門但佢既才華同成就係我用望遠鏡都望唔到
一個人自己run過一間公司
要叫我心服口服
尚早
專如電腦programming software到business上既operation procedure 語言急材
都令我拍案叫絕
短短一個月內我係佢身上學到既正路野一定比dl多
金鱗豈是池中物
你前程似錦之後一定要提攜我做你既social & welfare啦
你屋企比你既束縛令你變得短視
如果你有更多既時間去另覓良木而棲會更好

你地三個係我office返工時快樂既泉源
好希望大家仲有機會合作

近排有對小情人誕生左
希望佢地快快樂樂

收到UA張VIP咭
我依家擔心既係一個月四套戲唔夠我睇呢

近排好懶
的天氣比左好多藉口我自己
一見到自己半馬拉松overall 493時
1’41’04只能伙南亞籌得$150
開心完就憂心
僅僅有名同時間既証書當然令我開心
但同時憂慮往後的日子
如何再重拾唔返對跑步既熱誠
可能就唔再參加全馬
歲月不饒人
23歲就要有咁既體會
但我認為係熱誠所致
難得略有成就
我更唔會輕言放棄
只要我係泰拳同跑步間到平衡就應該無問題
回想比賽當日有咁多美景事
我下年都一定要繼續努力
小杰
唔駛多謝我份禮物
要你一早起身係終點等我等到個鼻紅哂
臭蹦蹦仲幫我做massage
專車接送
你就無謂借藉口又倒想約我食飯
你問到
我又點會唔奉陪 =)多謝你呀

beyond
我真係佩服得5體投地
02年林曉培之後就無企起身睇concert啦
當一隻隻比呀哥胎教既歌響起時
雙手就不能竭止
播放家驅生前的說話
很不知天高地厚大言不慚
越能彰顯出對音樂的熱誠
他那份幼氣深深打動了所有觀眾
家驅真的還在我心
成個concert一播有家驅時既歌的人就企
最後一連串beyond最為人熟悉既歌
更見萬人一致隨音樂揮手
隻精選cd同遲的個live cd都無唔買既藉口

<<鍋匠、裁縫、士兵、間諜>>
真係唔明點解搵到第二集榮譽學生同第三集
但係page one會同我講無賣過呢本書
好想睇呀
唔該哂你同你個朋友呀martin
估唔到chucky會嚇到你
唔好意思呀
無比你揀就要你睇呢埸戲
但我知佢一來真係笑片為主
二來…………有我陪你睇嘛
希望打機時真係無悶親你啦

執親屋都有思緒
有的悶人既感覺
快的比我放假
我好似已經等得好唔耐煩

小紅
好多謝你既留言
我知道出黎做野係有呢的問題
忍辱都要有重可負
但亦正如我咁講
呢份工於我黎講無咩前景可言
而dl佢承諾過會比機會我試既野
由請左pauline開始就明白係空口講白話
所以我先有咁既決定
唔係既話我都唔會捨得你地成班咁好玩既同事
多謝你
有咩幫到手一定要單聲
間間公司都會好歡迎你呢種咁盡責既職員

汪汪
要數我近排緊煩同
反而係好難約你
我明既
等你有時間先
我對上同今個比賽都用你比我條毛巾
好warm
好似有人係終點等我咁

Mr. No. 7
我真係對你唔住
咁都醒唔起你係邊個
知我既喜好工作甚至見過我(但你話我too thin就即係你未見過我著泳裝…唔…)
我有一晚為左諗你既身份
我走去list out我見過又有可疑既人
可惜都無個認
你真係令我百恩不得其解

我的文筆唔好
如果唔係我已經一心一意走去寫小說
有人話我的日遁太沉重
估唔到平時既我會有咁消沉既心底話
係咪太重所以沉得底而平時浮唔出黎比人睇
哈哈
另一位神秘人……….tigger

靚仔二寶
真係唔知你有睇呢
你成日都唔icq我
以為你見完之後唔想再傾添
你份工做成點呀

仲有無呀
有就話我知啦
多的人睇
我就會寫得密的架………….hehe~~~~

wicky
你媽咪叫我去你屋企拜年呀
又話上星期打唔到比你係咪我收埋左你
你返得黎未呀
仲有呀
打死你都唔好比佢地知我仲未搵到工呀
費事又逼我去你公司做

我一直以為只有5個人會有定期睇我本日記既習慣
依家知道有第六個人

睇到留言時
我諗緊咁落去係咪仲會有第7位出現

正題
近排覺得好沉悶
經歷左好幾件事
平伏返的情緒之後
對以前評定為無關痛養既事都變得認真
演變成神經質
精神恍惚
一向精神分裂出既樂觀面忽然杳無音訊
每日都充斥住一份磞緊既感覺
工作比賽學業積存的壓力
E.Q. 一日一日下降
體重則不動聲色上升
心機越黎越少
壓力持續增長
抹煞掉笑容
漸漸由著緊變成逃避
每一通電話都考慮過濾後才接聽
將自己與人群劃開
盡可能與世無爭

唯獨一個貨真價實既八婆
好似冤鬼咁纏住黎咬
係我心情超差既情況下
不斷咁做的挑釁行為
不過我絕不承認乃一時衝動而請辭
以這份工作的前境性質而論
早走始終早著
無工一身輕
年少輕狂
都總算係一份浪漫
借呢個機會擺脫2004年的倒霉也不為過

wicky你返黎時我有個驚喜比你呀

第 七 型 : 活 躍 型 (Adventurer)
活 躍 型 的 你 , 就 是 如 此 這 般 : 樂 觀 、 精 力 充 沛 、 迷 人 、 好 動 、 貪 新 鮮 、 五 時 花 六 時 變 …… 「 最 緊 要 玩 得 開 心 」 就 是 你 的 生 活 哲 學 ! 你 們 很 需 要 生 活 有 新 鮮 感 , 所 以 很 不 喜 歡 被 束 縛 、 被 控 制 。 你 的 活 力 是 玩 的 活 力 , 又 跟 第 三 型 的 成 就 型 又 有 所 不 同 , 相 信 你 們 是 活 動 攪 手 , 玩 極 唔 厭 !

不 耐 煩 、 衝 動 、 上 癮
好 玩 、 享 樂 主 義 行 頭 的 活 躍 型 , 做 事 欠 缺 耐 性 , 因 為 你 們 都 很 怕 悶 。 不 耐 煩 之 餘 , 也 很 易 衝 動 行 事 , 因 第 七 型 的 朋 友 做 事 鮮 有 周 詳 計 劃 , 很 講 即 慶 , 想 做 就 去 做 !

但 你 們 必 須 要 小 心 , 就 算 遇 上 一 種 玩 意 、 興 趣 你 十 分 喜 歡 , 也 得 學 習 不 要 沉 迷 下 去 ! 始 終 要 顧 及 自 己 的 身 體 及 其 他 事 情 啊 ! (我 這 樣 說 是 因 為 第 七 型 的 人 比 其 他 型 的 人 更 上 煙 癮 、 毒 癮 、 賭 癮 、 或 者 打 機 癮 等 等 等 等 , 小 心 ! )

心 情 high high 時
他 們 是 典 型 外 向 的 人 , 會 不 斷 尋 求 挑 戰 、 新 刺 激 。 由 於 他 們 喜 歡 玩 樂 , 又 不 斷 擴 闊 自 己 的 生 活 圈 子 , 所 以 可 說 是 「 相 識 滿 天 下 」 。 這 類 人 與 朋 友 的 相 交 未 必 會 很 深 入 , 因 為 他 們 走 在 一 起 是 因 為 吃 喝 玩 樂 , 所 以 他 們 會 相 約 一 齊 玩 , 但 心 事 的 分 享 交 流 則 未 必 很 多 。

情 緒 down down 時
由 於 活 躍 型 的 注 意 力 都 放 在 新 奇 好 玩 及 刺 激 的 事 物 上 , 他 們 普 遍 對 身 邊 人 的 缺 乏 敏 感 度 , 對 朋 友 之 間 的 相 知 相 交 都 流 於 膚 淺 , 沒 有 興 趣 對 自 己 和 朋 友 內 心 的 內 心 探 求 。

活 躍 型 的 朋 友 , 你 可 能 會 發 現 , 與 你 交 識 多 年 的 朋 友 , 也 不 太 認 識 他 的 喜 惡 、 想 法 。 有 這 個 情 況 嗎 ? 想 更 多 了 解 他 們 嗎 ?

朋 友 看 你 是
「 百 足 咁 多 」 、 「 好 識 得 嘆 」 、 「 有 他 在 的 場 合 , 會 有 很 多 笑 聲 」

提 升 有 時 努 力 努 力
走 向 「 五 仔 」 , 懂 得 自 我 克 制 , 心 思 細 密 , 會 經 過 觀 察 和 周 詳 的 考 慮 才 去 作 決 定 。

後 退 有 時 注 意 注 意
就 會 像 「 一 仔 」 一 樣 , 人 會 變 得 專 制 , 容 易 發 怒 , 固 執 。

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特別嗚謝BPI

塵埃終於落定
記掛你的日子
將之永恆

雷有輝比聲既質感
比古巨基更勝一籌
翻唱歌一直比我感覺好差
但聽幾次雷有輝把聲
已經洗走左原唱把聲
我再諗起隻歌時
已經會響起佢把聲
淡淡的 R&B 味道
幾識合我既心情
試試"多謝失戀"
一人扮兩種feel既聲做得好出色
同溫嵐隻"愛你的兩個我"可比個長短
男仔要做到呢的效果會仲難

come on
我好樂意share佢地的mp3比你地聽
問我就可以啦
wicky
聽多的"爸爸"呢隻歌啦

有人話黃馨唱歌扮王菲
講完又真係覺得兩個都幾似
但似得黎都聽得出黃馨係勁
玩聲玩音樂感同技巧都出類拔粹
非主流既唱家班
一首"先知"盡顯功架
未到冷戰既level但都唔簡單
singing contest唱會好出眾
最expecting既一位女新人(出道不足三年的一群)

running in not part of my life
its my life indeed
跑完訓得少都仲好精神
痛還痛
咁先似做過運動
由12月中到依家
deadline去撥亂反正
繼續泰拳跑步既日子

工作中的不安
有很多channels去舒緩
同office35以下既男女同事大都有一手
以後有咩食都要預多的啦

呀ben
我真係唔知點好
見到我時你咁激動
係因為你想殺左呢個負心既我
抑或想講你仲好掛住我
連等你訓左先去裝下你都會比你得聞出我
要用webcam先睇到你
好辛苦呀
生離死別真係好辛苦呀
不如比我死啦....

love actually
又陪我過多一個聖誕節
想佢成為我每個聖誕節既必做事宜
今次再睇
好似又多左幾對人
又多左的離合
襯返我既感覺

發現自己係private party fan多過public gather
最終選擇一個人跑下步過新年
為南亞死難者而沒有慶祝
不中,亦不遠矣
各人自有愁滋味
就算係一份表現
淡淡然戚戚然
又令我諗起聲聲慢

尋尋覓覓冷冷清清淒淒慘慘戚戚
乍暖還寒還寒時候 最難將息
三杯兩盞淡酒 怎敵他 晚來風急
雁過也 正傷心
卻是舊時相識 滿地黃花堆積
憔悴損 如今有誰堪摘
守著窗兒 獨自怎生得黑
悟恫更兼細雨 到黃昏 點點滴滴
這次第 怎一個 愁字了得

狡狐
你估唔到你會有食唔到既野呢
其實我寧願你無咁大方
令到我真係好對.......你唔住
truly
對我好識配合我既天份
唔計天敵wicky chow
暫時捨你其誰
但個刻發生唔到既事
用返同一個理由既話
隨時間既侵蝕
再發生既機會只會越黎越細
無錯你係第一個突破到隻貓既1仔
我估唔到咁快就遇到添.....可能就係太快啦.......
噓.........唔講啦
做我一世既朋友好唔好?唔係就爹你架=p
多謝你呀
係我差小小精神錯亂之際捉得返實我既魂魄
不過我唔希望你有比我報恩既機會
以身相許既等你30歲有車有樓係asia week見到張x穎個名先=p

做一份工做到滑哂啞
時間感之長比真正OT仲辛苦
我無信心捱得到3月

由第一隻大碟到依家都合作無間
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最新作品有 祝我一個快樂

我知道傷心不能改變什麼 那麼 讓我誠實一點
誠實 難免有不能控制的宣洩
只要關上了門 不必理誰

一個人坐在空蕩包廂裡面 手機 讓它休息一夜
難 像切歌切掉回憶的畫面 眼淚不能不能流過十二點

生日快樂 我對自己說 蠟燭點了 寂寞亮了
生日快樂 淚也融了 我要謝謝你給的你拿走的一切

還愛你 帶一點恨 還要時間 才能平衡
熱戀傷痕 幻滅重生 祝我生日快樂

把這首歌的歌詞稍稍改變
會很適合今天用 (將所有生日改為新年)
我並不是說自己的處境很悲涼
反正是我的選擇而已
如無意外
我會跑住過渡04到05吧
送給你們的新年禮物
有這個組合之前的作品有 北斗星,地獄天使,走,夏天の風…
天才R&B作曲家與很R&B的女聲配

新年快樂

my mum is the one who reminds me of the cold weather this year
and I suddenly realized that there were SMSs to remind me last year and beyond
and the truth is that
the weather isn't really cold
at least I didn't put on Superwarm so far
I like the chilly wind passes me on
give me the kind of fresh feeling like a bottle of cold drink on the face
the time i still have you to hang out and hug

I have a better physical condition or its just an illusion?

keep winning in MJ these days. Quite happy

what would I say if.......you're not.......da one.......
would it be too cruel to do that after few months of time?

How to make it possible to live happily without hurting others
I want to be anything but ordinary

the dreadful tsurami kills nearly 0.1 million people on earth.
a 0.0017% of the whole population in the world.
Honestly, I didn't feel sorry after the news since people around me are not involved.
and I regard this as a natural happening to control the population size
if all the natural disasters are vanished
the final way to stop the population grow will be wars without doubt
what's more tragic than seeing the dark elements like selfishness of human being
let the god(if there is any) to choose and probably those who are dead in this tragidy may go to heaven

your can do more if you don't believe in reincarnation
treat everything as the last chance that we have
that's what I've learnt in this christmas

Thank List

Dr. Stephen Sum : I love you so much. You've the best X'mas gift for me. I can't come up anything to express my cordial gratutide to you...thank you
Mum : You've put all the strawberries and mango in my salad...the taste is awful but the feeling is fabulous. thanks for entangle with me in not anticipatable ways that you come up with.
Au Pak : Your presents seldom let me disappoint (esp. this time right?? )
Ar Yee & K.S.: I want a new neckwear for a long time. but a leather neck string is much more important right now since I've two decos ready to put on my neck.
Ruby : You've got my first gift (as well as Au Pak I guess), they're too sweet, but very suitable in this X'mas. And you make me to realize that I have to seek for another instutite of Japanese.
All of you above, thanks for your participation in the camp, you set me free from the sorrow that I could hardly forgot. All the laughters, crab eggs, pumpkin pieces, scrabble, Kung Fu Style etc. make it a remarkable Christmas for me. Once again, I know I am lucky to have you guys as my friends, friends for life, right??
Bonnie : I got to say, your gift is a needle which pin my wound. However your smile and attitude smoothen that. I am sorry that I was too tired that night, but you are really good in discovering out joy for us. Watch out of your figure, there is a trend that you're losing your idiosyncrasy as Au Pak.
Keith : The towel is more surprising than the main present you've sent me. I like it very much and I will use them every time I need to.
James : Omg, you are so sweet. thanks so much for your sweater. I love orange, you're a nice buddy, but you gotta learn how to say no if necessary. lol
Pauline : You've bought me a gift that tempts me to spend extra money. I don't care about the effect it brings along. The smell of it is good enough.
Wicky: You've got me what I dreamt of as usual. Someday I would dream for a house probably...and I hope you'd like the gift I got for you as i do.
Danny : The value of the present doesn't simply rely on the price of it. I know how good you are to me, just take it easy anyway.
Macus : Hopefully that you didn't really get me a dog. Thanks for your sarcastic present which makes you owe me two more. huh!!

I just wish every one of you learn how to cherish every moment you enjoyed. Limited time for one life, don't lose any chance to do what you want to try. An ordinary life doesn't ensure you a happy one.

分唔出係練習扭到感冒既緣故
抑或傷感都會整到個軀殼都好似無油既機械人
提起隻手都好似kick住左
連轉腰都變成高難度動作
運用唔到一丁點既意志力

訓左8個鐘
起身後
個腦淨係報告各神經組織監察到既不適都用左成個字
但唔柅成日告假
我睇黎要有的恆心去睇醫生
但係
病病地既感覺
好似令我的內疚感減低的的



原來我都有放唔低既野



我未折禮物
所以未知

今日突然知道原來狗仔.............好易.......有.....cancer

以前一個月見一次到一年幾次
到依家想永不分離
應承過姑媽唔會唔理佢
但唔打風落雨有病都唔探佢
我好想
好想你係嬲我
扮病詐嬌等我探你
你知唔知道
連daddy都為左當年唔可以繼續養你
尋晚流左陣眼淚
姑媽退休之後既生活
早就將時間分配
把你計算在內
要陪你去海灘游水
姑媽用沙啞同我講係佢大意時
把我送到自責的地獄

當3個月前聽到小南的事情時
我叮囑自己要履行珍惜兩字
珍惜友情,家人,擁有既物品
遺忘左......與你一起的日子

餘下既時間
我會付出所有
令你開開心心
呀 ben.....

我已經唔敢對聖誕節再有奢望

read it from the bottom piece (thursday)
==========================
sun

記得今年年中有一段時間
自己的老無病一次過無間斷毫無保留接二連三接腫而來
炮製成一個強制性挑戰AQ同EQ既課程
學費貼近$2,000
但勝在夠彈性
在任何時間或地點都有突發堂
萬分驚險
課程內容圍繞財物及証件管理
包括如何安放証件套才不至掉失
父母外遊時鎖匙的重要性等

好不容易捱過課程
怎料到考試為期半年之長
assessment既成績終於在昨晚declear左
係所有重點項目上面
我都不遺餘力努力不懈地重蹈覆轍
兩次都在父母第一日外遊時忘記帶鎖匙
一而再再而三要補領身份証
帶哂雞毛蒜皮但就唔記得成個function最需要既入場証明/戲飛...
無記性又唔用記事簿
亦唔會檢討
就像測試神經反應
試試自己是否已經麻木




搵幾多錢都無用啦
真係好唔開心
滿以為自己有進步
that's the second fancy brusted
not yet the first

上年因為返css份工
掌握不到生活節奏
訓練不足導致缺乏自信
加上傷患
最終接連放棄2個比賽
耿耿於懷
誓言今年要一雪前恥
nike卻萬事俱備下滿額
終於從上年最後一個比賽為今年的起點
reebok15k的比賽

一個星期前由心理到飲食及練習
作出全面的檢討及預備
一起床已經躊躇滿志
順暢地完成一系列的準備
計劃比賽甚至後的準備
萬無一失.......
登上天后開出的車時
才猛然醒覺
.........忘記帶號碼布..........

二分鐘後嘗試將所有可能性列舉出
無懈可擊地有後備晶片
沒有提供額外晶片,唯有沒有官方計時進行比賽
無所謂啦
反正問早過我一名過終點既人都查到自己排名
係唔知的checkpointer會唔會追住要我離開賽道
有得跑就ok啦...

「小姐,想問下你我唔記憶帶號碼布有的咩可以補返呀」
「er...無嫁喎」
「咁我去擺行李有咩手續呀,無號碼布佢地好似無記認去identify」
「er...唔知喎,你去行李區果邊問下」
「你地部notebook會唔會有個database幫我check呀」
「沒架」
「沒既意思係無個database定係無咁做過」
「沒試過囉」
「...........

計漏左
的人會咁無heart去幫你solve問題
呢的唔係佢地duty入面
唔可以奢求
亦唔甘心搞咁多plan咁耐咁就走
狠下心腸
搞到媽媽7點比我叫起身飛300蚊的士入黎西貢
仲諗住要對得住媽媽
要跑得好成績
反正今年既耐力理應比上年好
trail walker
23k training
但頭5k個種力不從心
之後仲自以為good control
result係1'14
比之前慢左2分鐘
都唔知hold住的後勁為咩
比人不斷咁過
我下次一定會載返隻錶跑
唔可以對時間咁盲目
諗左好多原因
咁多favour既因素下
仲有埋媽咪既support都慢左
唯一既結論係
今年無徐詩俊追住我 =(
都唔知你好家壞
但係我會係我能力範圍內improve自己既performance
長短跑既training係有slightly different
今年我既目標係玩得埋21同42
但下年一定係挑戰自己的old record

今朝搵唔到個card holder
諗起要補領id,etc同的membership cards
我就唔夠EQ去function
明明的衫定都唔記得放入袋
搭地鐵時一路諗的可能唔見個holder既位
入閘後唔記得返張飛
之後因為補飛
遲埋到

多謝手下留情未去得更盡
起碼仲係四肢健全
==================================
sat

上星期遇到及正式認識左3個人
一個日日見過但又唔熟
實惠training就開始唔知點約左出黎行街
同埋媽媽一齊行
感覺係開心
個口的囉...成日笑

一個成日係icq陪我傾計
岩傾
有才幹
有一種清澀
因病而累左大家要夜媽媽仲係條街度逛
覺得大家好相敬如賓
有的冰等大家去劈

一個係加拿大岩岩返黎
無約定下食左餐飯
未一眼認得
聽的背景又覺似是疑真
不過唔方便係一個gathering度尋根問底
以一棵平常心而言
係一個有氣質有諗人同成熟既男仔
當然
扣返多的鈕再好的

好耐未係赤柱淺睡中探佢
寧謐中於它中心的橫街窄巷四處遊覽
舊地重遊
還幸未面目全非
那一夜
食物的水準
與老闆努力迎合我們下黯然失色
大家胡鬧的印象
甩開煩惱的枷鎖
差點連比賽也不了了之
成事關鍵
是壽星的投入
jerry
成長也不忘此份貪玩的天性呀
=========================
thu

聽見及眼見gary的狀況
慶幸他沒有丟失平日的冷靜及智慧
以及他所向無敵的積極進取的正面思想
反正有危才有機
既然我認定了zoe只是不滿被忽略
你只要喚起初戀的回憶
將它重演一次
再創高潮......nono高峰
只有這次
你不要再大頭蝦如我
你可以唔見jer jer
唔好再唔見你對zoe愛的表現
口講無憑呀死肥妹

=============================

未愛時已經患得患失
擔驚怕憂
是信心不足
同時是著緊上心認真既表現

柴娃娃的愛情
大家都耳熟能詳
單從感覺出發
更習以為常
learn from mistake
有過寶貴的經驗
就會做得更好

我好多謝你比我呢個機會去知道自己係幾鐘意寫野
亦學懂在這個地方
正視自己的殘缺

近來對三國的興趣開始遞減
希望可以早日擺脫
培養充足的睡眠
重拾千代子的故事

有很多很多想欣賞的電影
未有時間亦未有人選陪我看
一個很勞累的聖誕節呢
pre-festival syndrome之一
其次係缺錢
哈哈

有一期很鐘情黑色的飾物
當然負擔不起玄鐵那一堆
買了一大堆稱心滿意
經時間的洗滌
頸鍊首當其衝
接著吊咀手錶...
金屬的都不會有vintage感覺
逐漸一個個變成雞肋
這便宜的反而看上去最自然
無奈

快到reebok15k呢
闊別一年的比賽
我要再大顯身手
cert為重

>>2004年12月14

加薪為勢在必行的情況下取消長短周
縮減加薪幅度
小器..........

星期六是一個好時光
輕輕鬆鬆
好像到了聯誼會聯歡會嘉年華.......
以後要有sat. schedule
plan定溫japanese定寫小說

每一日都有突發事件
早訓不能卻偏要早起
囤積起的疲累
足以在地鐵上邊站邊睡
在密度高得大家近在咫尺而不面面相覷下
享受著站睡的樂趣
一樂也

陪購的責任好比part time sales
成功感與他人的戰利品數目掛勾
不負所望
5件衫/hr
挫敗感悠然而生
因為自己要為自己買了兩件衫而付責任

宮城san
惡人自有天收
我和呀儀行善積德
所以有好野飲哈哈

荒廢了日記本一段時間
都怪身體不適
看著身旁一個個病倒
不禁替別人擔憂
倒想痛痛快快地病一場
患病患癒不見得好受

Bonnie
早去旱回
要玩就玩盡去
唔好唔爹唔吊
返黎要比心機溫書
我地要一齊去日本講日文呀

我一直認為
長大過程中
難免會增加需要面對的煩惱
總會眷戀逝去的美滿
嘗試抓緊該撤走的
(我走在每不必須面對的分叉路,我懷念過去單純美好的小幸福)
我所提出的建議
都是一個在職人仕該面對的

罷了
你有你的生活方式
既然選擇了今朝有酒今朝醉
你就要快快樂樂的過每一日

如果11月是文化月
12月是遊樂月
整天跑跑跳跳
不若就打機達旦
又履行不規律的生活

工作就陰晴難料
也是得過且過
如此耗損恆心
還幸寫故事可支撐些微
有一群同事可傾吐亦算幸運

聖誕的禮物都準備好
但還未想到送甚麼給自己

that's fine
每個人對愛情的觀點無需一致
知道自己應為未來作怎樣的部署就夠了

你想玩3國誌10就icq話我知
我每日都打到天昏地暗
哈哈哈

立心要窺覬明人的回憶
卻被浩翰的戰爭吸引住
最終順應自己的本能
揀左趙雲而唔係千代子
迷迷糊糊咁又過左個星期六、日
比平時更唔夠訓

今個月能夠忍到出糧之後先駛錢
覺得好有成就

的起心肝
學識左控制速度
21k應該係能力範圍內
當然仲要多的肌肉訓練
原來毅行者對大腿肌肉幫助好大
好感激
學到控制速度同平常心
呢個係好美妙的一課

聖誕節
大家比心機標尾會
我既目標會係cny =p

不期然將呀占的野話哂比佢知
本來擔憂餐飯會悶
最後係我唔出聲佢就無咩野講
所以佢食完哂我都仲有成碟野食未郁
不過佢問我野
我都好開心架啦
dynamic d嘛
希望大家真係做得到好朋友啦

原來毅行者是一個很優越的訓練
因為上山落山的關係
大腿的肌肉有明顯的成長
現階段的耐力應足夠power in10k平路
當然我既goal係21同42
今年如無意外10 15 21 42每樣一個
要加緊再加緊training
realize到自己仲有potential
真係由衷咁開心

無可能?
我唔知你receieve左的咩message
你有睇金雞2
你就明白
究竟一件事係傷痛定係上堂既note
其實睇你點睇

同你拍拖之後(我承認過既戀情之後)
我用左咁都10個月咁濟去搵一個新開始
越搵唔到
我反而越高興同期待
因為知道自己想要的咩
清楚自己既需要
唔係要求比以前高
而係範圍縮窄
可能搵到之後會發現
呢的都唔係自己想要
咁咪再figure out新既野再試

從錯誤中學習
係我們成長的不二法門
實戰總好過空想

做到唔做到
就視乎人性的積極性及樂觀度

用左一日時間去

將片假平假名溫習一遍
update resume
寫好reference letter
食左一個酸中帶辣既檸檬
公平既


餘下最後一個quota

為左日後的理想
我想有多點中文既source去write up my story
你既英文堂
暫時改為sentence structure同writing
每星期寫一次
活學活用呀

酒呢家野
真係幾好既玩意
上演左一幕君王氣大臣
趙李露眉...
兩個死鏟
男女都隊
就係飲到自己都醉都仲飲
sake 紅酒 啤酒
果刻仲賤過的水
一晚用成9,000蚊
唔怪得幾遲走幾污濁都無人黑臉

daddy mummy都叫佢做老占
呢個小朋友真係點長大

陪佢睇concert都好既
我都叫有的野做嘛
我今晚

一定要


跑步!!!!!!!!!!!

當兩個人目標不一致時
怎樣走
都走不到大家的終點

如果兩個人迷失而不自知
到何年何月發現才後悔

男主角的命運
最終都找到自己的真愛
知道甚麼是愛情
有咩唔好

初戀的經歷
令他上進及成熟
固中滋味就算不好受
可說成是他少年時懶散的代價

在往後我日子
我都會以真誠去面對你
我會對我說過我話負責
不會為逗你喜歡去迎合你
好讓你認清那個我
往後才想有沒有以後啦

發炎時整個人的體能果然會下降
呢幾日點訓都仲係唔夠
打完羽毛球的疲勞仲未找哂數
個人唯唯諾諾咁

好彩都無浪費nihongo no reson
計劃今個星期再去溫書
決不白費付出的時間及金錢
順便投入別人的回憶

這個星期的約會總是深宵達旦
又慶功又上堂
我聽晚無論如何都要跑步呀

今日終於無需要讓座比人
可以乖乖座住地鐵
去開始沉入別人的回憶中

終於都到左平假片假我都認到既地步
闊別已久既自修室
同同學仔共同溫習既時光
免費既雜誌
有時間真係要多多光臨

講天份
真係唔及上你呀bonnie
我唯有將勤補拙

ix40

dogvillie入面閱nicole kidman係我見過咁多個造型中最迷惑最charming
戲服確實一流
將佢身段好的現醜的遮
最靚既係佢個髮型
証明一個髮型對一個人有幾大既影響
將佢高貴同純真中取得一個很好的平衡
再唔係比一個古典既感覺主導哂
如果唔係
呢三舍鐘都唔知點捱
不過
拍攝手法都幾新鮮
同埋好賤格好賤格既招式
不過以彼之道還施彼身的grace都已經便宜左個賤婦
套戲講人性醜惡個面我估拍得住飛影個盒黑之卷/章


比的士司機同便利店既嬸嬸聯手玩左一晚
不過都抵丫
咁大陣象

要一時三刻疏導哂北角的的士
仲要執左間7仔

重要搵到一堆咁好戲既演員
去演活的扮唔識路既的士司機

仲有個可以靠做戲養自己既甘草嬸嬸
7情上面去說服我佢對我年齡既懷疑
巧妙咁去掩飾10年都唔會因買啤酒而check身份証既唐突

個導演當然功不可抹
實驗性咁估量到呢個唔知劇情發展既當局耆會有的咩反應
為尊嚴而特登行去搵過間7仔

我明白你點almighty法啦

好眼訓
早知唔去好過去
某程度上
呀肥呀媽同lili應該比我更令佢心甘情願

有時我都想有覺好訓既
====================================

吋步不離上環
我姑姐好斗膽咁
晨早挑戰我既EQ
訓唔夠5個鐘就比人摷醒
我都唔明咩叫放假

執波既時間仲長過打波
希望唔會悶親區生

尋晚見到我同個著西裝既男仔一齊?
你係咪太掛住我呀

gone through few diaries of others
found them quite entertaining
many idea inspired through
and being attracted to be the regular auidence

nowadays information is the most emphasized issue in the world
so to peek into other's life from their diary is a good way to know whether one would be your kind
comparatively the others diaries are more interesting than mine
cuz of English or what?

I should shorten my diary as the value should lie on the content more than words
extract the juice from the fruit

i went to get one more book tonight
saw few friends separately in habour city
feeling strange
said hi in every corner

would there be anything to go with Mr.4?

Being late for the Jap lesson again
I didn't expect to play for that long
still we've lost of concentration in the first half of the class
but its better when it came to the exercise sections
undeniable that one would stay awake when his brain is running
we were much focus in listening and re-ordering sentence after break
sure that the biscuits stick helped us from starving
the charge of the food store beside the institute is unreasonably high
but the casual style and the gentle breeze made it cool to chat
it is very interesting to peek the innocent and silly side of this sophisticated girl
it gives you a heroic feeling while you help in solving her problem
that's why big boy is always popular and could draw much attention than experienced old bird
everyone like to be superior when teaching or directing others I guess
but I truly look for a solution for my friends everytime they face difficulties

Wed

so happy that there is 3 training as i can take a breath outside
the training took place in Hyatt
we could see the delicated food in buffet but that's a dream that 3 would offer us that meal
the course is dump
so boring and those executive are hell.........so bad in presenting
even a f.7 student has a better skill than them

we had lunch in WompPo and went to the supermarket after
had a few lines with mum and wished her would understand me
James is a good guy that I would love to be his good friend
that's why i want to "protect" him from abusing his time and energy in wrong place
anyway
its such a good day
I would take a serious manner on business issue from now on
avoid mistakes and utilize outlook to help

still keep exercising at home for 4 days~
good
but I am still waiting for the day to run again
when will the pain of my leg leave me?

sun

how you were so tired?
I slept later and woke earlier than you
but still found that you were tired when you awake
you do look like my little bro
and the time we went to buy fruits and had lunch was harmonic
you are right the that the feeling is good when we saw a same magazine and discussed the content through
that's what I did with bonnie and au pak when we were students
they wouldn't buy magazine nowadays since every time I would buy and borrow them
I'm used to be the one who give in terms of publishing material
books, CDs, VCD...
but that's the way friends treat @ other
they'd give more than I in other fields

and I haven't been shopping properly
I regard shopping as an activity that there is no specific or particular stuff to buy
one just want to check new things out and waiting for some surprises on the way
the water bottle is really cool
its not only a water bottle but a memory of surprise
the sweater from Polo (I wish that I've time to buy it)
the yellow wrist band
books from page one
the lost ring.........and your scarf
once you've written in your diary that you couldn't hold yourself to do that anymore since you've been working on something for the whole day
and Simon is doing the same thing at the time
that made me link up two matter simply
anyway, I would put it on in this winter though I look fatter with the scarf on
I'm tired but happy today
since I didn't have a enjoying shopping for a long long time
every time just rush to buy something and leave
thanks bro...u're my best buddy

(but dun ask me to eat 7-11 any more, 無咁大隻蛤x隨行跳)

Mon

I decided not to talk about the sadness I have from my job from this day onward
I've been weak and irresponsible in this issue
kept on blaming others and showed no interest in my job
while I have no intention to even update my resume and application letter
not to mention those piped unread recruits in office
undeniable that working in BPI has abraded my ambitions, aggressiveness and vigour
to write a novel is iimportant in my plan in order to fix my life and retrieve my confident
it wouldn't be good to hang out with a guy muttering all over
I hate that kind of people and I wouldn't be happy to be a nasty guy too

Jay's concert is really good
its a pity that I couldn't get the ticket of $400
his has steady live performance
his talent in musical instruments has been expressed through the double piano show with his fd
acoustic songs of 星晴 安靜...
everyone got dissolved completely into his voice and his masculine move
he isn't good looking
but he is manlike blooded that you wouldn't care how he looks like
a strong servant is always sexier than a charm prince
but I wished that he wouldn't sing canton song
I enjoyed his 紅豆 more than 償還
a magnificent night

friday

I have underestimated the traffic so that I've been late consecutively
hell I couldn't believe that...but i had a good sleep last night
even I couldn't recall how long I haven't been slept before 12
it was such a night
I knew that you kept twisting on me for the whole night
probably i would get used to it one day as you did that everytime we slept together.......ai, why i'm such a dogsleeper?

it has been a long while for me to have consecutive holidays which I am really free from everthing
I have no hesitation but left one the hour hand reached 6
I could leave at 530 but that wouldnt be a good idea since i was already late

anyway, hoping the bad luck would pass me through asap

Sat

<<不能>>is a really good novel for gay
the storyline is so smooth that you could follow without difficulty
The author delievies a lot of messages in the lines which makes the story very informative and interesting
but the massive amount of information is skillfully compressed in middle length
being a gay, its hard to put it down before finished the whole story
I spent an afternoon to go through it once
the temporary happy ending is cheering but with bias
since the purpose of this book is to make a few statements that clubbing doesn't mean sex abuse, a stonge reason should be there to sex abuse and sex abuse doesn't mean a sad ending
I personally wish that every one has a happy ending but free lunch doesn't exist
it is very difficult to bring two contradictive ideas together
freedom against commitment
liberty oppose responsibility
I would know how to choose if I can have them all
but this is a good book that I would recommend others to read anyway
since its appealing to the extend that i am inspired and the wish to write a book is borned after that

I started to jot every scenes that I found it to be worth to write
recalling all my old but dramatic memory
surfing for the adjectives...
it has become my temporary goal and gives me direction
I found that
I really like to write

saw the movie 公主復仇記 in cyber city
the script is surprisingly good but the directing skill and the performance of actors
I was happier to see the magnificent view that I could use to write my story more
It was a coincident to met Evans that night
seems like he really lost all the memory of us but me
so strange that the feeling of emptiness raised up

Angus is a good buddy since we have common topics tough i don't find the movie as great as he does
and its very valuable to meet this busy guy

the party wasn't as bad as I anticipated
I did't notice time pass me at least though I have no interest in "D"ing
I am not one of I kind
the party followed is even more exciting that any one that I've joined
Its a good idea not to stay long in any one of those since I must find them boring at last

you slept so deep tonight that I could feel how tired you are
i'm so glad that you didn't mind to walk for 4 stations
you know what
I really enjoy walking at night
the gentle breeze blowing on the way makes you feel like pure and innocent
no worry, no feeling of guilty and no sad memory
especially when you are with a people that you feel free to chat on every topic
that's the way to build the tightly bonded friendship between Au Pak and I
lucky to have you

Tuesday

Took a full break for the whole day
now I realized why a doctor expertise demands such a expensive school fee
640/25 mins and 8 days medicine
but that what I deserved
the antibiotic tastes very bitter.......

felt like I couldn't concentrate on the lesson so did bonnie
we were both waiting for the class to dismiss from the very beginning
not because of the boring lesson by nature
anyway felt tired even I've taken a whole day break

Wed

first day work
day camp
tired tired tired
but very happy to see all guys were enjoying the camp today
I knew that guys were too dominated in the 2nd games
it was bloody to see a week works piped up
worked until 9 today

first time to visit James home
it was awesome but cold
u can't find the marks of living from anyone
but the night is pretty happy and relaxing
though it was quite late for me to leave there for the work the next day

BLACK thu

It is somewhat irresponsible to blame the luck but there are so many unhappy things happened on me today
I broke my punctuality today, a sign of bad luck
despair to see the deny of your effort by others
rage towards irrational accuse
its a signal to warn myself that
I have difficulty in holding my temper
I wish that I could control it rather than being driven by it

so forgetful that I forgot to bring the keys while my parents were travelling but the keys to yuen long
I rather chose to stay with you since the way to yuen long and from there to work are very far
and I felt happier to have a companion like you than alone there
I haven't forgot anything of your home lei...unbelievable
guess which purfume I chose today?

>>2004年11月12日 Fri 12:03:16 (GMT+8) Ed

SUNDAY

I couldn't believe that I might walk on sunday
the feeling wasn't far different from broken up from car crush
I could merely move my joints disregarding the pain it carried
not much choice that I could only stay home
saw the VCD how to lose a guy in 10 days
pretty good
typical romance hollywood movie but with funny points of laughter
Surprised of the beauty of kate hudson
since the advertising picture of her doesn't look cool
bittersweet...

this night was also the best time for the dinner of my family with Uncle Albert and Grandma
though the dining place is shit and the food is far away from my expectation
we all enjoyed the magicial night

its great that you've come to stay with me tonight
its so lovely to see someone you are close to after a long journey
I like to see pictures with other
the discussion is always funny and full of joy
Sorry to keep you sleep on floor recently

Monday

I didn't do much thing but went for a drink with Au Pak
that's the first time I found so much to talk in a cafe
most of the time I rejected the feeling to stay in a closed area for a long time with only a cup of drink
but so much that I wanted my fd to know about my feeling of trail walker
and indeed we haven't seen each other for more than a week already
It was a short night between us and the sense of 4 hours is so short for us

Personal thanks to buddys who spiritually suppot me by sending me SMS
Angus
Au Pak Wing
Bonnie
Gary Leung
Jeff
Kin
Miu
Moon
Sam
Stella
Wow Wow
Yoji

Everyone of you are my heros

在bpi forum的原文
站在training coordinator立場應有的心聲

終於可以放低麥里浩既陰影
暫別一下麥里浩徑
賽程艱辛
因此才體會到樂施會捐助的對象
那些住山區以農為生
周而復始用一雙腳在巔陂的山上搬運貨物的貧困人民
相比每個檢查站就有熱騰騰的食物支援
自問對毅行者的意義體驗尚淺
在享受完成整個賽程的成功感外
亦不忘這個活動的舉辦原因
苦痛傷患是參與這個活動的痕跡
不苦不難忘

但願這個活動不再以慈善方式舉行

回想起兩個月前開始既特訓
直到今日完成整個賽程
感觸良多

提供參與這個活動的機會
用上班時間作訓練
資助器材所需的費用
安排完善的支援隊伍
真的要衷心感激BPI
給予我機會去參與一直以來想挑戰的活動
實現了我的夢想

每個星期的集訓
將素未謀面的同事聚集起
增加了臭味相投的同伴
今季眾多的長跑比賽
又可以再次與夥伴門並肩作戰了

與一同努力的同伴們流汗
感覺是無語倫比
很幸運可以把握這個機會知道了;
moni主理的湯水及三文治的滋味;
呀肥深切的關懷及按摩手勢;
James挨夜的天份及對責任感的執著;
Alex Tam招牌車仔麵的口感;
新新及Chris Lee這對活寶的創意;
Renita low end機械人的運作模式及invisibility的使用方法;
小獅的星光大道遊客攝影裝備;
Debbie鉅細無遺的細心;
Ricky打撲克的巔峰造詣;
Patrick小紅raymond呀桓呀ann遠道而來的鼓勵;
還有Roger那手穩定富安全感的駕駛技術…

這年的11月5及6號
常伴我心

終於可以放低麥里浩既陰影
暫別一下麥里浩徑
賽程艱辛
因此才體會到樂施會捐助的對象
那些住山區以農為生
周而復始用一雙腳在巔陂的山上搬運貨物的貧困人民
相比每個檢查站就有熱騰騰的食物支援
自問對毅行者的意義體驗尚淺
在享受完成整個賽程的成功感外
亦不忘這個活動的舉辦原因
苦痛傷患是參與這個活動的痕跡
不苦不難忘

但願這個活動不再以慈善方式舉行

回想起兩個月前開始既特訓
直到今日完成整個賽程
感觸良多

提供參與這個活動的機會
用上班時間作訓練
資助器材所需的費用
安排完善的支援隊伍
真的要衷心感激BPI
給予我機會去參與一直以來想挑戰的活動
實現了我的夢想

每個星期的集訓
雖然將素未謀面的同事聚集起
卻發現在將近300人的公司內
竟找不著一個半個對運動執著
一心想做運動而不受傷
與力求突破的自己大相徑庭
時間為量度準則下
我們明顯勝出
但以團隊合作及對極限的要求
我們大概還及不上b team的1/10
有如以個人名義參賽般
過終點時毫不興奮

滿以為增加了臭味相投的同伴
今季眾多的長跑比賽
又可以再次與夥伴門並肩作戰了
但見他們對身體我愛鍚程度
罷了

與一同努力的同伴們流汗
感覺是無語倫比
有幸的一群
請與無有福份的我分享一下

很幸運可以把握這個機會知道了;
moni主理的湯水及三文治的滋味;
呀肥深切的關懷及按摩手勢;
James挨夜的天份及對責任感的執著;
Alex Tam招牌車仔麵的口感;
新新及Chris Lee這對活寶的創意;
Renita low end機械人的運作模式及invisibility的使用方法;
小獅的星光大道遊客攝影裝備;
Debbie鉅細無遺的細心;
Ricky打撲克的巔峰造詣;
Patrick小紅raymond呀桓呀ann遠道而來的鼓勵;
Roger那手穩定富安全感的駕駛技術…
還有自己的虛偽吧
應了那一句偽行者吧

我熱切期待下一次參與毅行者的機會
相信我會更慎重選擇teamates

這年的11月5及6號
常伴我心

Mon

Being working for the whole day on the online test report
Since there was a new colleague report duty today
we ate out in Telford
spend all the time to prepare the thing the day camp needed
worked until 8 and returned home at 9

reading. found that very very interesting

Miu, silly guy~
I want to listen to your piano performance of 遇見

tuesday

As I've stated in the previous diary
the first daycamp experience is one and the only one
but I could never anticipate that the daycamp this time is totally a mess
and the rules made it an unhappy experience
the so called "aim" and "teamwork" in the first game deprived the spirit of it
while I couldn't see the achievement of neither teamwork nor aim
I just proposed whether there is alternative way
never ever I've imagined that there would be a quarrel eventually
why would that happen if we are aiming for the same thing?
different visions? different depth of view? different extend of the openness of mind?
I know that we are one of a kind that we don't accept others critics easily
and feel so sick of the sunk memory of what we have talked about on the day I reported duty
I just realized that I am "not enough" to get us learn and improve interactively
desperately speaking I have no goal nor aim nor will from this job anymore
wait until double pay
I was planning to apply for the self enhancement program
marketing communication is a field that I am interested
but its true that I shouldn't "play" around if the chance for me to be a reporter again next year is high
'k then, just learn to get use of it
I am such a bullhead that I should control my arbitrary personality
Arrogant pig...I miss this term

I started losing my enthusiasm
but surprised to find my innocence and navie
I thought I've lost them all

oh I'm being lazy to my jap
promised that I will pick it up after tiral walker

think about it
I've sacrificed my running practice, jap class, rowing and saturday for trail walker
really wish that I can finish the whole jounary
make my sacrific meaningful

wowow, your pimple water really works
thx~

Wed

Feel very tired, a bit sick
returned home at 1830
kept reading the novel
and understood what my father said
slept unconscieously and woke up with headache
slept again after eating up
come on...don't told me that I'm sick please

Sunday

Today should be a tough day for you wowow
traveled from the NW side of HK to the most South side then the far North by bus
I would be suffered from car sick in these cases
and we knew that we $80 is the fee for the view and the environment mainly
haha
you are right that the food is hardly called FOOD
the atmosphere, however, is very relaxing for us to sit and chat openly
I cherish the time we had that day
Au Pak is really my good pal
His grandpa furneal will be on the next thursday and friday
I would be there
He does appreciated for your SMS ka

The badminton game that night is good
Au pak's family has gift from god that they are all good at sports
his brother has the intuition to hit the ball back instantly
while I've to think and act in a much slower pace
but its good to play with him

this is the most relaxing weekend I ever had after I graduated
being a promoter has no weekend holiday
being a reporter has no holiday
that's the first week that I've consecutive real holiday(without any training) in this job

silent life

sorry for my lazyness
I got too obsess to the Da Vinci code
the interpretation is the finest among books that I've read
Highly recommended (Yanzi recommends that too)

Friday

Yee, I wished that Ive chance to share with you too
But firstly my mind is still a piece of mess
and I have not prepared to speak this among all........you know, quite embarrassing
but I promise to tell you no matter I have figured this out or not
thanks for your caring
and thanks for reading my diary too (would be gladful if you may drop a message=P)

the dinner isn't a bad one, but it doesn't worth for that price
and I would be happier if all of us weren't that tired and rush that night
somehow I feel like I've wasted a night with you guys
we should meet on weekend probably

Sat

There were 2 plans, Plan A, Dragon Boat rowing and Plan B, Meeting "Daniel"
Plan B was selected as I was quite tired and wanna take a break from time consuming sports

"Daniel" is a talkative, I really mean talkative
since he hasn't stopped talking for a while
and he really loves cars (a sign of boylish)
which I appreciated a lot
To judge whether the experience valuable
the speed of time flies is the key
I didn't have to brainstorm what to talk about much
which is not common for the first meeting
Its would be good to have a friend like him
but probably he doesn't think so on the other hand

Returned home with a fridge, poster, CD and a book carried with my bare hand
I waited for wowwow until he was off from work
My mum has given him a good treat before we went to yuen long
We've bought a lot of VCDs but we picked up two craps to see
大佬愛美麗 and 貓狗鬥一番
It would be a long way before 馮德倫 to be a good director
if he has spent all his creative ideas and strictness to the actors according to the actors in this movie.

It would be a good idea not to wake you up while you've slept during movie
then I might have a good sleep too
you know that, I have serious headache the day after
I didn't know that you haven't slept until 6 but I was
Luckily that I still had 6 hours to sleep

tuesday

Bonnie is a magic girl
she is not the kind of beauty doll
but she has no male enemy at all
Apart from her good taste and the way she know how to put suitable things on her body
her personality is the key to make her charming
her swept all my sadness away while she didn't know that
this is the only magic she knows but it works every time
I feel better after the jap lesson with her since she brought me a lot of happy experence
thanks girl

and my effort helped me to fight back a sweet soup from her this time
so we are level
let's see who is more hard working next lesson

i've got the jacket from stussy today
both the staff and the jacket are pretty nice

Wed

OT
went back home right after work, that's pretty unusal
first time I did that after I've got this job
feel good but tired without a reason
found out that time runs quickly at home too
warn you guys don't see the movie "changing lanes"
craps

wowwow, my mum is unhappy these days
something happened to her but we couldn't help

she is a model for me to learn
she was not a tough girl
but she've learnt and forced herself to be
I learnt that from her but she doesn't really want me to be in this way
said that I'm too cold

thursday

great to see the happiness from the colleagues
i couldnt go through the treasuring moment with them but still I can feel
the site is a very good resort area
silent, peace, beautiful, timeless
I took this chance to throw away my identity as a urban guy for half a day
that is the day I feel like the happiest as far as I work here
since I really enjoy to serve and organize a day for others
while you can see how satisfied they are
I think Debbie could feel it too as we have the biggest number of lines today than any other
and never ever I've been so truly and really understanding in her position too
today should be bolded since the freshness feeling won't come back the rest of day camps

the tiredness is the reward and I slept good last night
one of the reason is that the internet service is cut
and found out that I've much more time to spend
at least I'm trying to go through the MILKs that I've missed
the idea to be a reporter again poped up again

the concert ticket is on 15/11
don't forget
i'll be free on sat night so call me after work
have you finished reading the book?
bring it to me if you did
no worry buddy
i really know the way to figure out the answer of the question

recently I've met a japanese
we keep using face-pic as a tool to communicate
what I want to say is that
that's friendship that we are having
we didn't ask anything abouta affection of each other
we just chatted about our country and culture
the feeling is good
as we would never ask to see each other easily
ha

Monday

Without a solid reason
I feel very dishearten at my life
I am not wholehearted to my job
I feel like I have no goal in my life
I don’t know what I needed most
And I realize that I have no plan too

To find the job which I am best fitted to?
Unlikely cuz I didn’t pay much attention to the recruiting news

To focus on trail walker?
Unlikely I am confident to finish the whole journey although I am not going well with my team

To focus on running?
No chance to, feel like I can’t run for short while after trail walker, the pay is too much somehow

To focus on family?
I wish that I can

To focus on friendship?
Probably, cuz au pak is having bad time

To focus on affection?
I wish that I can

Sorrowful life
Time is lacking out from my hands while I can’t think of a reason to grab it
Loser Hugo Lau!

Went to have dinner with Mama
She is very sensitive that she noticed the difference of me
Lovable!!
Time ran fast between us
We shared our life in the first 2 hours and when gary arrived,
We joked on everything around us
The new staff in SE live is very interesting
And ever more interesting they always laughed on his smile
Say that’s a 智障 smile…while the new guy doesn’t angry at all
Very interesting
Makes me feel a little bit better…at least

Wow wow, there are many nice restaurants I’ve found
And would you like to see Jay Chow’s concert?
I’ve a spare ticket ar

Saturday…….walk walk walk
I am afraid that I will not participate into the competition if I keep walking for once more
So boring to go through MacLehose again and again
And the communication is not ventilated among the group
So how its quite difficult to kill time
I just want to get this over as soon as possible
Melancholic exp…started at 9 and ended at 1 in TM
Planned to travel by mid-night bus but couldn’t find the station
Took van to MK and interchanged another back to sheung wan
A big circle

Sunday
Went to see Ladder 49
A pretty great movie despite that the story is similar to 烈火雄心
The director makes the movie very exciting and stressful
You can feel the pressure the actor facing in the movie
John Travolta has never been that attractive though he is not the major actor
This movie may encourage you to think of the value of life
We did it after the movie too
Go and see if you’ve time, no worry
The English is not difficult at all

After the movie, we went to have lunch in supersandwiches in the exchange square
The quality of food is just ok but the environment is fabulous
We spent around 3 hours there without noticing the time flied
Why Exchange square always brings me good memory? Do you think so huh?

Spent some time to buy jackets
The sales in Wake Island is doubtlessly nice
She asked for some information when I showed her my ID credit card
And I found out that reporter may enjoy 30% there~~
Bad news for me…anyway the girl asked for my opinion of I-pod
And we’ve talked for 30 mins…but still I have 10%off only…haha
Somehow the jacket I bought there isn’t the best one among all I’ve checked out today
but the service
that’s the magic of sales services

First day to work after the long weekend
felt a bit tired though I’ve slept for 8 hours in every holiday
I went to live in Yuen Long alone on Thursday and Friday
went through 4 VCDs on my own that day
waw…wanna know which are they?

Anger management
觸不到的戀人
男歌女唱
金雞2

The best among those is Anger management by Adam Sandler
He is such a cute, lovable and ideal guy; caring, patient, kind and sweet
silly yet considerate, loyal, easy-going and well…looks attractive I guess
How do you think? Why is it good? Highly recommended
yeah…I’m not going to tell you why, dig it out yourself ‘k??

I’ve been looking for a chance to see 觸不到的戀人
while I couldn’t find the VCD in most of the shops
All of a sudden it appeared in front of me in a VCD shop in yuen long
bought it immediately without hesitation
From the name and fds, I could almost figure out how’s the going
Once again the actor李政宰 is the kind of guy as Adam Sandler
But Lee is over-kind than Sandler in the movie which makes his credibility less convincing
Btw, if you’ve seen too much bitchy全知賢, this movie will give you a brand new image
(I know this one should be older in fact, ha)
as usual, the pace is slow, mainly focus on two actors
put the major storyline together with their daily life
fortunately the scenes in their daily life are appealing
that you would appreciated
makes the movie less boring
the story tastes bittersweet with a sorrow ending
I felt depress after seeing it and I don’t want to see it twice
But I love the movie from my heart
borrow it from me next time ok? Wow wow

男歌女唱is a extremely typical canton movie with low cost
and the story is a piece of crap, no surprise
I bought the vcd because of the combination of actors
Anita Mui and T.W. Wong
Anita Mui is a routine, sky and stubborn girl
while Wong is a lazybone
anita sings and want to be the winner in the a singing comp.
so the story is about the way Wong helps Anita to change
there is no gimmick at all but the humor of Wong and attractiveness of Anita
I like the sense of humor of Wong
and the humdrum of Anita in the movie
I guess this is the life Anita wants too (I wishfully think)
Hope she have found her dream life in her world

金雞2 turn out is the worst among all as I have bias on other 3
it should be a cool documentary canton movie
the director tired to use the humorous image of Ng to deliver messages to the audience
but I don’t like the affair between Jacky chan and Ng
anyway, borrow them all from me
I cried badly after seeing Anger Management though it has a happy ending
But it also trigger the question of me
When will be my happy ending?

Life in yuen long is very enjoying
Ya know, I’m weak in concentration and get distracted easily.
There is no internet, no tv there
I could spend time to revise Japanese and read magazine
I slept at 1 and waked at 10 that night, a really good sleep haha
Life there is really good
Should I spend one day/week there?

Play badminton with au pak and bonnie that night
There are many teens practicing, embarrassing that I played badly…hehe
its very interesting to see Bonnie playing
seems like she can’t stand steadily after hitting the ball
but anyhow her basic skill is even better than mine
god sake…

we had a great dinner in sheung wan
I gotta bring you there
the food there are delicious and the waitresses are very nice
albert joined the dinner and we had a lot fun to go that night
its was a pretty good memory since we haven’t met and chatted for a while

hey I wonder, why don't you write your diary in english once a week
let me see your english standard

1. to express my deep apology here. I haven’t written for nearly a week even
though I’ve an extra holiday already, my bad. Feel so sorry
2. make another apology to you once again, since I made you unhappy all the
time, the magic is that, I’m the source of your extreme happiness and sadness.
You feel happy at the time we spent together, while you are depress when you
know the affair of me with others. I asked myself repeatedly the same question,
should I leave you alone?
3. Kenneth doesn’t like you? Probably true compare with your emotion to me…
anyway as long as he accepts, I’ve no objection (no right to). After all being
he must got hurt to be with you since you don’t really love him, I thought I’
m sick to ask you to be his bf under the acknowledge what you’re thinking
4. I’ve hesitation in grabbing your hand in the cinema, I know it must happen,
the only reason I want to avoid is that…I don’t want you to go obsessed any
deeper. There is no way that I can treat you as a little brother? I want to
take care of you too wow wow, I don’t mind to borrow any part of me to you
when you are not happy, and finally I also want you to have a bf…ai…look, I
really enjoyed the time we spent too, very peaceful and relax. However I can
feel the pressure once you called me after the night you stayed in my
home...any suggestion what I should do...............TBC

If I should stay
I would only be in of your way
So I will go
But I know
I'll be thinking of you
Every step of the way

And I will always love you
will always love you
My darling you…

Bittersweet memories
That is all I am taking with me
So goodbye
Please don't cry
We both know
I'm not what you
You need

I will always love you
Will always love you
I hope life treat kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all these I wish you love

Well...I have to refer this as our fate,
The probability for the disappearance of my parents on weekday nights is similar to win mark 6
and it has just happened.
While the chance for me to arrive home earlier than 11 is the same as to eat "thirteen YIU".
I am bad in Mathematics,
all I know is that fate guides us to this point and offered us such a night
and to tell you the truth
I enjoy the night
the peace I had when we watched tv together
and also the time we had on the roof top ...

I have the feeling of emptiness at the time I went to work
Worrying that I have done something that shouldn't be happened
Ai......my brain is empty everytime I think of this...let the fate takes us

As my colleague tell me that there is van traveling from western to K.T.
which provides me an alternative transportation to travel back to home
I haven't tried to take mini bus home before so I gotta find it
However.......I didn't know the location where I can take one
I went to a wrong way but I didn't want to give it up
finally I walked to the terminal station......which is in Kwun Tong...
That's the night I dated you to see my mother

And yesterday I needed to go to Tsuen Wan to do the internal audit
So I tried to take van again
I've asked the detail location to take van to sai wan this time
even I'd a map with me
However........the van to T.W. would not leave the station unless it is fully loaded.....
so again and again I gotta walk to Kwun Tong.......holy cow.....
and the one I needa rate is Douglas Cheung. Coincident huh?

and I was late for the meeting
dun havent' missed out any main point (since all the things are simple that there is no room to discuss at all)
anyway, things are on the way I like
I gotta try my best

I was scared at the time you sent me such a message
guessed that you might be in MK so I didn't take the bus
who knows that you were in CWB
anyway
I dunno what to say at the time you feel sad about me
I hope that you would feel better after the call

True that I am so tired
No time to rest at all this week
Busy life is better than boring one I guess
I've memorize the first 4 rows of japanese la...
confident to win Bonnie's drink
hehe

don't know whether you've listened to the song above

1.Here is complaint come from the special people that I write this diary for
The targeting reader seems to have no interest into the dialogue between me and other people
I thought he would like to know so I didn’t reply everyone privately
To keep the rule “customer is the TRUTH”
I gotta keep this diary in the way the reader wants
Let me figure this out

2.Recently I have to work with Ruth,
the co-coordinator of Sales team in preparing the company BBQ trip on 17/10.
I am glad to have this mission to get to know more about Ruth,
She’s nice and detailed-mind which I should learn.
Hope that she would not misunderstand me as unhappy
since I couldn’t smile with the aphtha
(you can’t believe how big it is now…
I feel like my lip is breaking apart by the wound
which has no sign to heal).

3.I have pinched a lot of photos of friends like Au Pak Wing, Bonnie…on the board,
but found out that I didn’t have any picture of Ar Yee, KS and you too…
You know what, I was question by police on the street last night
and the asked who the guy is in the card holder.
Guess what I’ve told them this time?

4.I was off from work the earliest from the day I started working in BPI,
I went to TST to check backpack with Au Pak since he wants to buy one.
Gregory, the one I’m using but he wants black color,
I feel like black is not a nice choice
since Gregory in black color is not unique enough.
Simon has given us his VIP card of 20% off, few hundred bucks already!!
We thought the shop overlander was still in Sun Kong center
But it has moved to LCX
And only the florescence blue color has stock
By the time it was already 1900
And I was late for the Japanese class
Bonnie has reserved me a seat but a child took that since I was TOO late…
So we sit separately and I seat at the back of the class
I didn’t put on my contact lens so I could see nothing
including how the teacher looks like
luckily the first lesson is about the pronunciation which are all written on the text book
We practice the Japanese words and the pronunciation
They are not easy to recognize since the way Japanese words look very much the same for me
But it is interesting
I hope this feeling may last long as a motivation force
And Bonnie and I have a deal that
who may recognize more Japanese word next week may have a drink
I gotta win this prize!!!

5.It is really exhausting to take course when you have to work in day time
I have to sleep earlier the day before lesson in case I am too tired
I will be very tired the day after lesson
and there are more works to follow the day after
The time left to exercise/practice is so little that my figure is running off
I gotta run more
Be determined to reduce the time to hang out after work!!

6.hmm…CHECK WHAT YOU’VE SENT ME
and you will know who has told me about your ambition to work for smartone
we need a lot of CSS (15+) in November and more and more in December
so told mike that prepare to see my boss during interview la…haha

7.You said that I avoided your question
What are they??
Don’t tell me that the person who told me about your ambition counts plz
What did you decide? Hmm…I couldn’t guess

8.I want to share my life including all the things I encounter and my thought to you
That’s why I write things like my mama@SEL and ar D
I just talked about the people that we both know here
And even the people that I’ve talked about do not know that I’ve an online diary
Up to now I’ve just told Bonnie and Ar Yee about this diary jar

9.I know that I was wrong to “talk” to others in this diary
I promise that I will cut them out
To assure you the original intention and not to backslide
The feeling is good at first cuz…its new at the time?
Feel like this is just the world between you n me?
I will try to keep the others silent here. Don’t feel bad dear. = (
You are the CEO in the diary = )
So happy to have 2 consecutive holidays ha!
With the trail walker training,
I didn’t have consecutive holidays even the week of mid-autumn fes. And 1/10
No wonder you play MJ with fds till late
But remind you that don’t just PLAY all the time
Think of anything that you want to get yourself improve
Tell me you can’t think of any IF you think that you are good enough
At least give me some insight that you have thought about this/you’ve plan ok?!

8.Go shopping with me next holiday to see whether you can buy the pants that I put on last time
I may have holiday on the coming Monday
Since there is 50km trial walker practice this Saturday
And I have to assist the bbq function on Sunday too
Hell………..

1.You can't believe how tired I was after the trip
Physially I can support to walk even at night for 23km
(you gotta know that walking at night is much more tired and frustrated)
but the time slag is hard to adjust, I went home and slept at 11
and I couldn't sleep anymore at 3...god damn headache
and felt like my arms and legs are detached

The weather was cool and I could see a lot of stars in the sky
Its really beautiful and wished that any of my friends could be there with me
Looking at the sky and talking oldies... Should be a good memory
Indeed, I am not really close with my team-mates
This is a worry for me as I know the communication within the group is unventilated enough
Since don't have strong intention to talk to them
I just plugged the MP3 all the way
That's why I said I was listening to Karen Mok in the sms that I've sent you
Worry whether I can finish the whole journey with the my team now

2.Aiya...I've called 3 yesterday but the staff said that he couldn't do anything for me
Will anyone help me to speak to them so that I don't need to pay the bill lei...

3.Aiya...I am so so so sorry to my little sweet heart Bonnie
How dared that I have missed the chance to greet you on your birthday
That's the first time I forgot to do that...the excuse is listed clearly above...
And I am sorry to know that your b-day is not in the way you've expected
Thank you for accepting my apology sweetie...It won't be happened again, I wish...haha
I am looking forard to go camping on 21 lei...10 days later.

4.Where's mike's resume?

5.I haven't read milk for a month while I've bought it every issue...
Finally I have time to read it this sunday (since i'm really exhausted and stayed home finally)
Gosh, guess what I've seen, there is a very fine sweater and vast from exit by double park
So much I wanted to buy it immediately
but still I want to save up some money for my yellow g-shock
ai~~wish that it still has stock in reduction period

6.Wow...SE Live is so brilliand in the last mystery shoppers program of RMA
It is the top of the catagory this time...9 months time it striked from the position 11 to 1!
Mama Moon, you know your decision to stay is a correct decision now???
I am very happy to know that and Dennis should have no say this time

7.There is a big aphtha on my lip, its so big to make my lip to swell
and I feel pain when I eat........ho charm...I've quitted all hot-air food already
(though I don't want to eat since it is so painful, but I gained weight...haha
even wolf said I look fatter than before wor....think its time for me to have a hair cut)
Any good method to avoid it from pain?

8.See...told you that you would mislead others by what you've done
I guessed guy is kenneth right?
should you sing the song對不起不是你 to him?
Don't contact him if he doesn't call you
You know time is needed for him to fade those good memory you gave him out
Just like the time...

9.I like the song 閣樓very much
And there is a new lyrics for this song right? do you know that?

10.Those chinese is the lyrics of the song 愛情 by karen mok
not a poem ar~~
I like the lyric and that's why I post it =)

11.So good that you don't need to work on sunday??

若不是因為愛著你) 怎麼會夜深還沒睡意
每個念頭都關於你
我想你 想你 好想你 (若不是因為愛著你)
怎會有不安的情緒
每個莫名的日子裡 我想你 想你 好想你
愛是折磨人的東西
卻又捨不得這樣放棄 不停揣測你的心理
可有我姓名
愛是我唯一的秘密 讓人心碎卻又著迷
無論是用什麼言語
只會(只會)思念你 (若不是因為愛著你)
怎會不經意就歎息

Well I know that you want to be responsible guy, but think about this.
How long will your company be last for?
Don't overestimate the workload they need to share for yours
Every one is independent and noo one dies of a disappearance of other too
You and I are already a good examples
This is also the reason why your "mama" deliver this piece of news to you
She wants you to get prepare before the news offically announced
Even you should try to see the feedback of the market before you need to find one urgently
You can decide not to go for the interview at even the company calls you to
Don't try to leave everything until last minute
Updates your resume is a normal practice that you should take
especially you know you need to use it very soon
I am quite disappointed that you have no mindset to your career path
short-sight and not mature enough..........

I've created a new face-pic a/c too
a cool kid taught me this
so much thx
the name of it....make a guess

I was asked to pretend Mike's boyfriend tonight
Mike is a friend I know for year but doesn't meet frequent
Tonight is the birthday of his dream boy
and he wants his dream boy thinks like he has a new bf
I agreed to go before I know the details of the b-ady party
and I decided not to go after I knew that

I went to buy the equipments for Trail Walker with my colleagues after work
I've asked Simon to come since he has more discount than we may get
However my colleagues are late and very rude all the way
I don't want to mention much of it
but I am quite embarrassing and feel badly for Simon
Since the sales are very close with Simon
but my colleagues caused a lot of troubles to them...sigh
Shame of them...

And I was late to the dinner with Wolf
I didn't know that he would bring a friend along
As a result I didn't talk much during dinner
That's one of the reason that I've no mood to pretend Mike's bf

Its funny that Simon has a new gf for a FEW DAYS
and he has decided to sew a neckwarmer
Somehow its sweet to see a guy doing something he is not good at for oneself
He asks for my mum's help and
that's why I feel a little bit better since I can help him in return

I was wondering what you would tell me when you have read my diary
Even ah Yee said that your response
(keep writing and don't give up) is an interesting answer
I didn't expect that you would find this diary so soon
I hope you will read it all and learn some English from it
My english is getting poor but still you may learn something from it I guess

I also try to write it everyday

Gonna go trekking tomorrow night until sunday morning
So I might not possible to write on it tomorrow
Hope it would be a happy trip

Few things happened today
1. How come I have so many tiny stuff to fuck up on my schedule every day?
I tried to deal with the online test at the beginning I start to work today
but I haven't started for a single step at 6 finally.

2. I was thinking that you've read my diary and planned to discuss something with me,
a bit surprised to know that you called me up twice urgently because of mic
but...I care about your resume much more you know that?

3. I could tell you that you are really the most important people right now in my heart.
I didn't feel anxious when I have a message from someone you dislike but yours sweetie

4. Met a new guy of tourism, he looks like you,
doing the same things you asked me to at the time we began to meet.
He looks different from you, but he's nice and dependent like you at that time.

5. I started to run again, its been a very long time I haven't run
and I've made the fastest time upon this year.
This is because the weather is getting cool to make running easier than before,
I've planned to run beside the Shing Mum river
while you'd see and wait for me on the bench...silly thought

6. I think of you for 16 times today

First time I start to write an online diary.

Honestly I have had enough computer in office since there are tons of things I have to work on everyday,
but still i decided to spend some time on it...for the most important guy right now in my mind.
I only need one people to read this but its not limited to him.
I just write for him while any of you are welcome to read the words that i want him to know.

Well...there should be much for me to share here.
What makes me to write is the song i heard while i read your diary,
ya know...I feel god damn guilty at the time i listened to it.
That was the day i wanted to start recording here.

Should be a long time I've strong intention to make a call voluntarily.
I wished that I could be right beside you, comforted you and told you that I'll be with you no matter what's happened.
I skipped it as I know I am not the right person to say.
All I could do is to share your feeling, be a good listener.

I was panting for tuesday to come since I've planned a lot for it.
I've got the idea right after you told me that you haven't seen the fireworks and laser show,
and I haven't been so peace in mind,
I picked this up the night we sit next to the waterfountain,
the mist I made from the dry ice is so romantic that I almost lost myself...
in the way to say something that I shouldn't say.
You did the right thing that you've shown me the underwear of mine that you were wearing,
stop me from being silly.
Anyhow I have a great night, the most brilliart night this year most likely...

Tell you what, you're much more mature than the days we were couple,
and even you are much more mature than me guy.
You are more charming than a year ago although you're fatter now...haha.At least you have a happier life than me I guess.


Do something good for yourself,
plan your life a bit and don't just think of what to play for the rest of your time.

Live in a more fascinating way!!