大頭蝦

大頭蝦並唔係搏同情而自封
我一向都看不起人自居傻瓜白痴

昨晚觀賞drama完畢後忘記轉換電話模式
最終導致24個missed call
有3個是landline
若果是interview的invitation
我真的會生不如死

I haven't abandoned this site....completely yet....

Yeah I've been lazy for a fairy long while. There were a lot of things undergoing recently; interviews interviews & interviews... yet I've had quite a few delightful days.

Sing, we are a very good buddy of each other. As I've mentioned, things will be very hard to compromise when it comes to sharing a place to live, yet we are able to get it through. We are already tuned up and we know how to respect each other. I have nothing to hesitate to say in front of you cuz you have a very high level of acceptance, you are a real good listener in the way that you really pay attention and feedback correspondingly. I think this is what your beloved admires and adores most. Ya know, you would be my ideal flatmate if I would move out without a partner. I am glad to know what you think about me, just ask me out whenever you want someone to talk.

Its been a while from the last time I went up the Peak. I guess it is the most well-maintained country park trail in Hk, wide and smooth pave, delicate pavilion, awesome scenery and fresh air, added up to be something which is worthy to trade off with energy and sweat. This is a very simple route compare with those we have done previously, but the feeling is always to same when I was having an apple at the goal. Achievement helps to build up confident, the effect is magnified to current me, who is having days without a proper job and the ability to exericse.
There was rhythm of Aferican drum on the way we walked up the huge pavilion on top of the Peak, we could only educe a gathering of maids under the facts of Sunday and rhythm first of all. So we were surprised to see crowd of Adivasis dancing with the traditional clothes on half of the field, some kids and adults of western were having soccer on the other side. Hey I didn't bring the passport with me, why all the Chineses were visitin like tourists, following the guide's flags with same tee on while those foreigners seem like local? C&CL bruys seed in our mind that Chinese has a strong sense of family spirit, and we cherish all the time together and we do spend a lot of time together...but rarely I can see chinese family focus and enjoy in the same activity so as to build up a relationship through outdoor game. Its just so common to see family members reading different things on their own in having dim sum on sunday, so-called family time. I have no doubt that locals are demanded to have a fairy long working hour in Hong Kong, nevertheless we still have time to browse internet on average time 2 hours each day. I reckon there is no generation gap in the world of sports, consider the cost and effect on the health, you can't find a better activity that can link up teamates like that. I will spend time to swim with my kid if i may have one.

Dennis has a b-day party last sat at Space and Mama held another party in Happy Valley. I didn't mean to stay long as the agony of my feet prohibits me from drinking, and the presence of half of my xbfs is the seconder to my thought. I was so fucking unattentive to the list of guests. I was caught to social for a damn long while and luckily Dennis had just decided to focus on the birthday cake, that's why I was saved. It seems like Keith decides not to get along with my family anymore, he didn't give us even a call after having been told how desperate my mum wants to hear from him. I regretted for what I've induced, keep screwing up every thing this year.

A piece of excerpt of my xbf diary

同某一D人分手
事後會覺得鬼掩眼
HUGO係一個好例子
而家睇到佢. 有種無名火. 驚嘆世上有個咁自以為是既人...
當初. 我究竟鍾意佢D咩呢? 浪費左一年時間
不過. 係呢一年既時間. 我先知道. 原來. 反面教材係好有用.
從失敗中學習真係好

每失戀一次. 就EXPLORE自己多一D
人貴乎自知. 自知之明. 真係花一生人都學唔晒
因為唔了解自己能力. 目標 需要
所以會失敗. 所以會傷心. 所以會唔滿足
有D人喜歡不斷挑戰自己. 做一個別人眼中上進既人
呢一個MOMENT 我寧可安於現狀 不慌不忙計劃將來
我喜歡呢一種踏實穩定既感覺
清楚自己. 為自己而活 為屬於自己而滿足
好好期待下一段戀愛

last episode

手臂強化計劃2.0beta

Fear blasted out when the posterman came, the amplified pumping actions just lost its control, consequening a very long torture

I almost forgot why I had to move my diary here
open diary is definitely a channel for distant friends to update you from time to time, but there is hesitation whether or not to write something very deep and genuine. Some say that I should own 2 diaries, hell, then I'd better really write than type.

Almost overwheled by the boredem, I kept on thinking what my future should be. Shall I be happy ending up in a bizman? Faking out on the phone without knowing how freaky the one maybe on biz? I like to see something alive, face to face dialogue and interactive conversation with facial expressions. Customer Service & Sales, they are what I would like to work for finally. The presistent hunting of mkt work maybe a proof of my super-ego. Of cuz, ending up as an inspector may not be ideal after hearing the gossip, but I have to feed my curious

To comprehend such a simple stuff wouldn't have to kill so many days, I've a schedule of "unemployment weekday" sarcasticly and I tried all my best to fit into to. It works, and more sarcasticly that I was not able to attend any interview for christ sake. Rugby, gout...just like the menstruation once a year, of cuz the period of time will last longer on ratio to the frequency.

You recognize my flaw now? I was supposed to write the reason for moving and I didn't intent to give in preface. Let's get it straight, Keith. Keith, the guy I dumped and miss in intervals. Having realized the value of competition might bring along, I missed him badly to the point that I wanted him back after he told me that he has engaged into a new relationship.

Sure we have had sweet time, those good memories push us to lingered for a year of time and amazingly that I haven't cut off cleanly with him, with the violation of the practice to trade off the feeling of guilty and to minimize the impact of splite up. Tragical to see him giving up his life, I avoided to get involved into new relationships before him despite the loss to miss my perfect match Siu Kit. Nothing meant more than Keith at that time but I just simply lack of confident to be his bf, or I'm too confident that I would fuck up again.

Since you might notice, I wrote online diary cuz I wanted to report my current life with him indirectly, just like exchanging diary, we wrote for each other like a dialogue or a letter. We were pretty close to pairing up again that time but I didn't dare and bare to.

He is a simple and adorable sweetie, cute yet masculine, gentle and polite, respectful, easy-going and generous. He has kindest attitude and pretty smile running down of my list of x. He is not materialistic, nor picky (that's why he chose me, the worst decision he has had made in his life), all he demands is my time and concentration which nail me right the clout. I can give all I process except freedom, and loyalty to him. I just couldn't suppress the itching thought in crashing different guys like a slut. Terrible and synpathetic. tbc...

now obviously I don't deserve such a good guy,nonetheless I was the one who decided to leave ironically. I was also the one who felt like being stabbed while reading his sweet diary about how lovely his bf is. He might not know how many guys I have turned down cuz of him but that's the only thing I could ease the guilt I have. since the old diary is open in icq and those guys would think either too positive or negative about the feeling I have to them, ya know, some anticipated that I am too cruel to overlook a rejection of a confession since I haven't mentioned it in my diary. other way round, few guys thought that they still have chance as I didn't reject it formally in diary...god...do I really need to publish it on newspaper?

since I want my diary be genuine, I didn't want to hide my feeling in violation to my principle, including the feeling towards Keith, my informal little brother. Mum has asked about why he didn't come and say happy birthday to her this year...mum, this is not the time he concerns about your b-day but his future. I admitted that I am self-preservated and I always don't want to get hurt which may trouble people around me. Now he's happy and there is no big different with and without me around him, and he will leave here too......it maybe a good time to cut it now. Thought I would fly to him if there is necessitation to do so.

Its good if you found this piece of diary messy and hard to understand. I am still involved in the incident and not yet mature enough to round it up in a nice way. But at least I kept my promise to tell you about the thing between me and keith. Thanks for all of you who care about my affection and me.

Reason to move Episode I

手臂強化計劃2.0beta

Fear blasted out when the posterman came, the amplified pumping actions just lost its control, consequening a very long torture

I almost forgot why I had to move my diary here
open diary is definitely a channel for distant friends to update you from time to time, but there is hesitation whether or not to write something very deep and genuine. Some say that I should own 2 diaries, hell, then I'd better really write than type.

Almost overwheled by the boredem, I kept on thinking what my future should be. Shall I be happy ending up in a bizman? Faking out on the phone without knowing how freaky the one maybe on biz? I like to see something alive, face to face dialogue and interactive conversation with facial expressions. Customer Service & Sales, they are what I would like to work for finally. The presistent hunting of mkt work maybe a proof of my super-ego. Of cuz, ending up as an inspector may not be ideal after hearing the gossip, but I have to feed my curious

To comprehend such a simple stuff wouldn't have to kill so many days, I've a schedule of "unemployment weekday" sarcasticly and I tried all my best to fit into to. It works, and more sarcasticly that I was not able to attend any interview for christ sake. Rugby, gout...just like the menstruation once a year, of cuz the period of time will last longer on ratio to the frequency.

You recognize my flaw now? I was supposed to write the reason for moving and I didn't intent to give in preface. Let's get it straight, Keith. Keith, the guy I dumped and miss in intervals. Having realized the value of competition might bring along, I missed him badly to the point that I wanted him back after he told me that he has engaged into a new relationship.

Sure we have had sweet time, those good memories push us to lingered for a year of time and amazingly that I haven't cut off cleanly with him, with the violation of the practice to trade off the feeling of guilty and to minimize the impact of splite up. Tragical to see him giving up his life, I avoided to get involved into new relationships before him despite the loss to miss my perfect match Siu Kit. Nothing meant more than Keith at that time but I just simply lack of confident to be his bf, or I'm too confident that I would fuck up again.

Since you might notice, I wrote online diary cuz I wanted to report my current life with him indirectly, just like exchanging diary, we wrote for each other like a dialogue or a letter. We were pretty close to pairing up again that time but I didn't dare and bare to.

He is a simple and adorable sweetie, cute yet masculine, gentle and polite, respectful, easy-going and generous. He has kindest attitude and pretty smile running down of my list of x. He is not materialistic, nor picky (that's why he chose me, the worst decision he has had made in his life), all he demands is my time and concentration which nail me right the clout. I can give all I process except freedom, and loyalty to him. I just couldn't suppress the itching thought in crashing different guys like a slut. Terrible and synpathetic. tbc...